Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

My precious babes :)

Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name

Khaiey + Sha = Khaieysha

Back when I was studying in SMAKK, there was a senior of mine whose name is also Khairunnisa. Siti Khairunnisa. We called her Kak Naiy. She's the one who gave me the name, Khai. Then biasalah trend dulu2 nama mesti nak rock kapak punya, belakang tambah-ey. Jadilah Khaiey :)

Sha, sebab my grandma/relatives/aunties/uncles belah Melaka panggil aku Nisha. Kat rumah pun panggil camtu. Bila kena marah baru panggil nama betul =.=. Jadilah part 'Sha' tu.

How is it combined? When I was in form 2, Pija nak buatkan aku emel baru. So fikir punya fikir, masa tu kami tengah gila Avril Lavigne hari2 duduk sebelah library bawak cd player dengar lagu sk8er boy, maka jadilah ia! sk8ergurlz_khaieysha. Hehe. Since that I've been using Khaieysha for almost every website yang aku buat. Kira macam webname aku la. Kalaw google Khaieysha mesti jumpa punya blog lama2 hikhikhik malu tahap arwah bila baca balik! Nak delete dah lupa password. Urgh.

So that's it, the story behind my blog name. :)

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

1. Kakai Mantabs is becoming more and more famous than Kai.

2. Purple freak.

3. Obses makan nasi goreng kalau nampak ada kacang hijau/panjang/buncis. Sejak kecil lagi. *sebab tu ka dapat bf nama Bean?*

4. Adam Lambert and Katy Perry kipas-susah-mati-dah-mati-pun-hidup-kembali.

5. Currently in my last semester in Bachelor in Medical Science.

6. Proud to be Tawau-ian! Sangat gila murtabak jawa, abc milo jagung, mi tauhu, nasi kuning and all those foods yang tak ada kat tempat lain. I'll never consider moving out to another place, not even an inch!

7. Seorang pekerja Subway yang berjaya dan bergaya. Haha!

8. Freaking love 8.

9. Godzilla katik. Akan mengamuk bila orang kejut time tidur, and masa lapar. Masa PMS toksah habaq laa.

10. I can't stand bean sprout in my char kuey teow or fried mee. A big turn off.

11. Masa kecil2 selalu berangan jadi anak angkat sultan/raja.

12. Tahi lalat bawah hidung, trademark sejak azali.

13. Berat masa lahir = 3.9 kg. Pasal tu la debab sampai sekarang.

14. Tak tahan tengok nasiiiiiiiiii nom nom nom

15. Syed Muhammad Nafis'. :)

30 Days Challenge

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Your favorite song.

*Supaya saya dengan aktifnya naiktarikh blog saya, I took this challenge from the gorgeous T-hot! Jyeahh!

2010

Teruk. Memang teruk. This morning when my junior asked me dah lama tak update, baru teringat, laa aku ada blog rupanya. Ada jugak orang baca isk isk terharu I. The main reason is MALAS. TAK ADA MASA. And actually, nothing interesting happened to me for the last few months. Nanti kalaw update pun asyik emo memanjang bosan pulak kan, so diam2 sudah.

So, one last day to 2011. Dah boleh cakap aku last sekali mandi tahun lepas la. HAHAHA not funny. My 2010 is everything. Happy, sad, betrayed, shocked. The mix feelings brings me to one word: blur. Sumpah tahun ni aku banyak blur. Entahlah pasal apa. Too much going on and maybe that is the best thing to do to handle em all. I've come to realize that nothing is forever, again, and when the time has come, nobody can do anything about it. We plan, He decides.

Azam? Sudahkan azam yang lepas2. Muahaha. But seriously, azam tahun ni, no, saat ni, nak jadi sabar. I'm extremely impatient. Those yang satu sekolah sampai ke matriks and MSU sekarang, wajib tahu yang panas baran = Kai. I need to get rid of this A.S.A.P, if not I'll lose my precious one for real. 'Sabar Kai sabar.' I keep on saying this to myself so that I won't explode. 'Good comes to those who wait.' Pesanan seseorang. Thank you for that.

Family. Khalid went for Medic at Zagazig. Rindu :'(. Walaupun aku ni kakak yang jahat nauzubillah, but when it comes to my only bro, I'll definitely say I love him to the max! Madu racun semua dia. Balik cuti hari tu sunyi ja rumah dia tak ada. Isk. Baba & Mama pun aku taw mesti rindu dia gila2. Nenek lagilah, tak payah cakap. Luckily Skype connects us all. Haha! Palinglah lawak bila ingat masa nak ajar baba guna skype. Sekarang semua dah ada FB. Bagus2, ada kemajuan. Terpaksa block masing2. Muahaha. Sorry! Tp tahun ni sangat banyak homesick. Maybe sebab teringat yang diorang tinggal berdua, till I come to the extent yang tak nak sambung belajar dah pasni. Nak balik Tawau ja. Haih. Dear God, please take a very good care of Mama, Baba, Khalid and nenek ok? And also my aunt, uncle and big bro. Rindu :'(.

2010 tahun aku paling banyak terasa dengan kawan2 aku. Sorry friends :) Why? Sebab semua pakat sembunyi. Semua pakat lari sana lari sini. Semua talam. Ok sorry bukan semua, certain people. But still, my love for you guys is bigger than what hurts me. Without them, I wouldn't be here by now. Thanks :)

Love? Not much to say. Prefer to keep it to myself. Just that I'm GLAD, and by that I really mean GLAD, and grateful to have him by my side. Abaikan post2 emo. Hehe. He's the one who taught me to be patient, calm, jangan ikut perasaan, matang. Yang ni tak berjaya lagilah still childish. Lepas Nanad cakap, baru aku perasan, betullah, aku lebih sabar sekarang. Thanks love, and I'm sorry, janji tak bagi balik ogeh! Love you lots syg :)

Since this is my last theoretical semester, I'm gonna try my best to score and up kan pointer. Pasni dah takda 'takpa cuba lagi next sem'. This is it! Kena pandai bagi masa kerja and study. Oh did I mention earlier that I'm officially one of the Subway crew since almost a month ago? Hehehe I love working there! The crews are all friendly and most importantly, dapat makan free hari2. Hehehe. :D. Sambil belajar minum Pepsi. Hahaha.

Looking forward for a bright new year! Goodbye 2010, thanks for the memories :)

...

I don't usually write on my relationship here. I mean the dark side of it. As I know there are silent readers who would be very happy to see me cry. But today...

Sebelum kau tinggalkan aku untuk orang lain, biar aku tinggalkan kau dulu untuk diri sendiri.

I don't want to go through THAT phase again, ANYMORE.

Thanks.

Bila nak jadi baik

Bila nak jadi baik ni

Bila tak nak tinggal sembahyang ni

Bila nak amar makruf nahi mungkar ni

Bila nak berhenti melawan cakap ni

Bila nak belajar baik2 ni

Bila nak berhenti menipu ni

Bila nak pakai elok2 ni

Bila nak berhenti prasangka buruk ni

Bila nak cakap sopan2 ni

Bila nak jadi rajin ni

Bila nak jadi perempuan ni

Bila bila bila!

Dear God, please don't leave me. Guide me. Help me.

Awak, jom jadi baik. Sampai mati kita sama2 kalau kita jadi baik. Kan?

The end

Ya aku memang kuat memaki. Bukan mengaku dengan rasa bangga. Just want to make things clear. Ingat kenapa aku memaki? Ingat aku suka sangat memaki?

Lain orang lain cara nak release tension. Mine is this. Curse allllllll the way to heaven. By doing so, I feel stronger, concrete enough to hide everything.

Kau, memang layak dimaki. Aku ingat kau lain, tapi lagi teruk dari dia. And the main reason kenapa aku maki kau sebab aku tak nak menangis lagi. Aku tak nak meraung2 macam orang gila macam dulu and ruin my life again. Jadi kesimpulannya, bila aku memaki aku tak nangis. Bila aku nangis, aku tak memaki.

Dan hari ini, aku dah tak larat nak memaki.

I'll just..cried my heart out. All day long.

Thanks, for everything.

Barangkali

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come to hold you

Now I can't stop

Dah tak ada...

Teman nak pergi makan malam2 buta.

Teman nak pergi uptown tengok bundle and tolong pilih jeans harga rm15.

Teman nak berlawan cakap berleter segala jadah bila saya down.

Teman nak mengumpat 'pasangan kuaci' di depan rumah.

Teman nak luahkan perasaan pasal tuutt and tuutt and the tuutttss.

Teman nak pergi Sunway sampai bosan Sunway tu tengok kitorang.

Sayang, I love you so much :((

I know. I gotta be strong for you. No, US.

And I'll try my best.

Because I know you love me more than what I can imagine.

Polkabean 220509

Life is beautiful

Life is beautiful
We love until we die

When you run into my arms,
We steal a perfect moment.
Let the monsters see you smile,
Let them see you smiling.

Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated.
We barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Yeah, life is beautiful.
Our hearts, they beat and break.

When you run away from harm,
Will you run back into my arms,
Like you did when you were young?
Will you come back to me?

I will hold you tightly
When the hurting kicks in.

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated,
we barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Stand where you are.
We let all these moments pass us by.

It's amazing where I'm standing,
There's a lot that we can give.
This is ours just for a moment.
There's a lot that we can give.

Arsehole

Why is it that everybody seems to enjoy backstabbing me?

Am I like your puppet or something?

Do I look like someone who does not care at all about every single thing happens around me?

Did I ever scratched you, fucked you? Oh, or even cheated on you before?

Did I ever said 'you know what, you're not good enough for her. Why don't you just write a suicide note and jump from the 13th floor,buddy?'

As far as I'm concern, YOU GUYS were the one who broke my heart!

YOU GUYS were the one who stabbed me and make me looks like an idiot!

So why do I have to bear all this pain and tears and sorrow and....everything?

It is not fair! Not fair at all!

Fuck your life, dickarse. Not mine!

Bf saya gay

Kenapa rezeki tak datang bergolek-golek macam masa World Stage hari tu?

Kenapa kenapa kenapa!

Aku pernah cakap kalau dia datang Malaysia aku akan pergi konsert dia tak kira apa.

Tapi apa jadi? Aku tersilap tarikh! Ingatkan exam on the 15th, rupanya 16th!

And all my savings for his concert dah habis! Isk :(

Dah habis nangis2 dalam kereta. Sekarang pun rasa nak nangis balik.

Nak golek2 atas tanah depan Adam rasa2 dia bagi tak aku tiket free?

Mommy I vant I vant!

Obsession

Ohh no no ni bukan preloved sales ye. Just wanna share about my all-time obsession with you girls. Hee. I just can't get enough of 'em! Dah lama kawan2 semua suruh post pasal beg yang tak nak banyak lagi ni. So, here it goes! Especially to mereka2 yang dah fed up tengok beg aku *you know who you are hahaha*

This one is the first bag I bought after puberty. Wkwkwk. Tak ingat bila tapi rasanya dalam nak masuk form 1 kot. Masa tu still tomboy2 lagi, tengok perempuan pakai handbag macam eeuuww please la geli aku tengok. DULU ok DULU. Bought it at Kl Sentral for rm39.90. Huish ingat tu.

Ni beli masa kat matriks dulu. Kan satu sem dapat RM1k seorang, so apa lagi joli2lah dulu haha. Kat labuan ada satu kedai barangan sukan ni, kira paling ori/mantap/loadedlah kalaw kaw beli kat situ. Konon. Dapat ja duit terus p kedai tu beli beg ni. Sekarang dah kuning2 dah,simpan lama sangat. Tapi sayang nak buang. Hee *semua pun sayang nak buang* Adidas, RM50.

My father bought this for me kat Alamanda. Masa tu baru nak masuk MSU @ KUTPM kan duluu. Konon2 nak letak buku la apa segala. Letak jugaklah buku tu tapi kejap ja. Then sorok bawah katil sebab tengok macam mak nenek bawak beg baju p kelas. Pakai pulak baju kurung kilat2. Finee =.=. RM29.90

Haa yang ini menandakan bermulanya era aku pakai handbag. Duh. Beli ni kat Radioactive OU for RM39.90 @ RM49.90. Dah tak ingat. Handbag raya tu hehe. Lama fikir nak beli ke tak nak. Kang ada kena nganjing gn kawan aku ni. Tapi dah time tu gila coklat pastu dah ada keinginan nak jadi gegel2 *tak taw nak eja* sikit, dah berkenan beli ja la. Walaupun dah terkopak sana sini, still sayang beg ni, sentimental value.

Beg ni menandakan bermulanya era aku gila hobo bag. Eh baru perasan asal ayat nak sama ja. Ok kira nak jadi rock chic la ni. Beli kat Maple TS masa jalan gn Kak Noni. Maple's sangat2 best, cuma yang tak bestnya bila p sana, especially kat Sunway, salesgirl dia peramah sangat. Tak tenang aku nak tengok barang. Tu yang kadang2 tengok dari luar ja sebab malas nak senyum paksa. Bought this for RM 39.90.

Tak ingat dah sejarah pembelian beg ni. Yang penting salah satu kesayanganlah jugak. Masa zaman cinta lama dulu siap letak badge penuh nama masing2 hahaha *omg i'm dead meat*.Sekarang dah buang dahhh yg ehh dah xda dah nama dia hehe ailebiuu. Harga RM39.90.

Ignorelah muka aku tu,tengok beg ja. Malas nak crop. beli masa jalan2 gn B kat PAS. Mula2 berkenan, tapi poket koyak. So tak jadi nak beli. Dah jalan2 tu,ish takleh jadi ni asyik teringat ja. Last2 beli jugak. Balik tu p kedai jahit beg kat giant. Harga tak ingat tapi yang penting dia bagi murahlah sebab defected kan. Kat eastwear. Sekarang dah arwah..bagi kat syg, dah jadimacam apa tah. Shopping bag giant lagi lawa. WTF kurusnya aku duluuu sekarang macam belon kena pammmmmm!

This one is my fav! Bila aku cakap beli kat Giant Penampang orang tak percaya. Hahaha. Penampang ke Inanam eh? Ni kira aunt aku yang belikan *dah guna duit dia*. Pun RM39.90. Kenapa semua beg aku sama harga ni.

Ni beli masa tolong Farah bukak bazar kat Mont Kiara. Mula2 asyik tengok ja booth yang jual beg ni. FrugalMugal. For sure mestilah aim purple kan. Fikir punya fikir, walaupun tak berduit sangat time tu, tekadlah nak beli. Actually Farah yang goda haha. Pusing balik tengok booth tu, ada orang tengah bayar for the bag! Praaanggg! *bunyi hati berkecai*. Frust gilaaaaaa! Terus pi kedai tu beli colour ni. Huh. Price: RM45.

My 20th birthday gift from nenek O a.ka elma! Hee thank you nek aku belum lagi bagi kaw hadiah sampai sekarang kan? Bha tunggu this year punya aa. Baru pakai dua kali. Harga? Tanya tukang bagi. Hehe.

Beg raya 2009 tak silap. Beli kat Maple lagi. See aku dah boleh dapat award loyal customer dah ni. Bila nak bagi diskaun ahmoi? Ni pun sebab syg dah bising gila cari beg berjam2 tak nak jugak beli2. Harga tak ingat pulak, rasanya RM39.90 kot. First beg yang bertali dua; panjang pendek. Sebab aku tak suka sling bag yang kecik.

Yang ni beg memujuk. Heee *mukagedikgila*. Tengok beg ni asyik nak gelak ja. Dijadikan cerita, aku dah lama berkenan beg ni. Kat Uptown Shah Alam. Pastu 1 day kitorang bawaklah B p uptown. Syg tak nak join kitorang jalan, so xpala lantak dialah. Otw back tak taw napa aku merajuk dah tak ingat dah. Dia suruh pegang plastik ni. Bila dah merajuk manalah aku nak bukak plastik apa segala kan. Rupanya syg belikan benda niiiiii heee I love you bebehhh muah3! Harga mestilah aku taw! RM25 wkwkwk

Yang ni pun beli kat tempat sama jugak. RM 50. Alaa masa zaman2 vintage tengah top. Sampai koyak beg ni aku kerjakan. Tapi sanggup jahit walaupun keras nak mati.

This one is my cinta-mati-sampai-bila-bila-ah! Ok perlukeee. He gave it to me on my 21st birthday. Maple jugaaak, tapi kali ni kat Sunway. Haa terpaksa tahan hati ah masuk Maple semata2 nak beg ni. Tak romantik langsung beli hadiah depan2 taw! Ingat yg next year saya nak Ipod touch! Muahahaha. Harga tak boleh reveal, nama pun hadiah birthday. Haha

Beli masa pergi Bangalore hari tu. Kedai tu sangat best sebab macam ala2 kedai recycle gitu. Tak ambik gambar pulak dah excited sangat jumpa beg ni. Hee. Apa nama kedai tah tak ingat, mother nature ke apa. Kat Mantri Square. Bukaklah cawangan kat sini barang kaw best dohh! I think this one is around 750-950 rupees. I can't recall. Very simple yet comfortable. Suitable for college wear ehh asal macam nak iklan barang ja ni. Ada kisah di sebaliknya tapi takleh gtaw kang kantoi dengan pihak2 yang berkenaan. Kan Nad? heheheh.

Yang ni pun India mari! Zay yang bagi sesempat2 alam masa nak bertolak balik p Malaysia. Hee terharu beta, sesungguhnya beliau amat memahami obsesi saya ini. Tq zay! Price: n/a. :D

This is the latest one, bought it from a blogshop, Clothesbucket. RM50. Dah desperate sangat nak beg kaler tan. A bit disappointed with the quality though, cam haram baru pakai kejap dah koyak sana sini. Tapi takpa mama still loves you baby! Siap jahit lagi. hehehe

*Ni semua baru koleksi beg kat Shah Alam. Belum lagi yang tinggal kat Tawau. Belum masuk paper bag apa segala. Haa yang tu tunggu aku tension study Haemo lak baru aku post okayh. Ada siapa2 nak tambahkan koleksi beg aku? Sangat dialu-alukan. Hehehe*

*Bila tengok balik beg2 ni, ish, childish lagi aku ni. Buruk gila taste*

Tak payah nak branded kalau nak bergaya. Belanja ikut kemampuan. Yang penting selesa, lawa and kita suka. Ok? :)

0 post on September?

This is gonna be a looonnngggg update. Hehehe. Dah berhabuk pun blog ni. Ada ja masa nak update tapi setiap kali nak tulis mesti hilang idea. Ada harapan jadi featured blogger nuffnang. Hahahaharapanlaaa. Mari kita ikuti rentetan perjalanan hidup aku sebulan yang lepas *bajet feymes orang nak gosip pasal aku kannn*

Eid '10

After 3 years tak balik beraya kat Tawau, at last, tahun ni balik jugak! Hehehe I was so excited to celebrate my raya there. Eventhough aku ada kampung kat Melaka belah baba, tapi tak sama macam raya kat Tawau. Tak tahulah kenapa, maybe sebab aku tinggal and membesar kat Sabah, so semangat assabiyah tu adalah sikit kan. Hehehe. Plus the main reason why I rather be there than Melaka is because my nenek dok sorang2, anak pun ada dua ja. Kat Melaka bersepah saudara mara sampaikan aku pun tak kenal. Hahaha. Ok lepas ni kalau aku dah kahwin nak ada anak 2 pasang. Tak nak sikit2 nanti tak ada yang nak balik raya di kampung halaman asyik nak pergi rumah mentua ja muahahha ok dah melalut.

Raya 4 hari lagi nak habis baru nak cerita kan. Ah lantak. Ni sambil melepaskan tekanan perasaan dengan Edward Syndrome and Patau Syndrome tadi. Arghh! Okay sambung cerita. Nothing specific pun nak cerita sebenarnya, yala raya takkanlah orang pergi fun fair pulak. Mestilah pergi sembahyang raya apa segala. Tapi pagi raya tahun ni memang havoc+tense+lucu pun ada. Hehehe. First sekali, kitorang semua terlambat pergi sembahyang raya. Ended up staying at home and nenek pun mengambul bak kata orang cocos *merajuk*. Fuh. Nenek kalau dah merajuk/touching, siap sedialah semua. Now I know where does the perfectionist me and mom is inherited from. Aku and Alak *aunt+ibu susuan+mak kedua aku* pun menahan hatilah biarkan nenek aku duduk bawah rumah bawa hati yang lara.

Then, masa nak pergi kubur pun satu hal. Mula2 aku tak nak pergi sebab tak ada perempuan yang nak pergi, so aku malaslah. Pastu nenek nak teman, so kami pun bersiaplah. Keluar rumah, tengok baba and the guys dah jalan. Apa lagi nenek mengamuk lagiiiiiiiiii....Habislahh dalam hati aku. Luckily my cousin jan2 datang, so he gave us a ride there. Sampai kat kubur ja aku dah signal dengan baba ntg 'habislah kamu nenek mengamuk suda'. Hahahah uncle aku dengan bijaknya melarikan diri daripada semburan berbisa. Nasib baik nenek tak naik darah dah. Hehehe~

Skim cocos

nainai choleng!

This year's eid tak macam dulu, sebab semua sibuk nak uruskan adik aku. Oh btw dia dah sambung belajar kat Mesir, Universiti Zagazig. Ambil course medic. Sebab tu la raya tahun ni kelam kabut sikit sebab nak settle everything before the 5th eid. 3rd day raya dah jalan darat pergi KK. Aku yang mabuk darat ni tidur ja la dalam kereta. Dalam masa seminggu 4 kali ulang alik tawau-kk 10 jam siapa tahan. Maw muntah hijau aku. Dah sampai KK settle apa semua kami pun pergilah beraya rumah family kat sana. Sebab aku pun lahir sana and most of my mom's relatives are staying there, so memang wajiblah ziarah. Ahbayangkanlahh dah berapa tahun aku tak jejak KK. Rasanya adalah dalam 2-3 tahun jugak. Dari zaman TS baru pacak tiang sampai dah siap sekarang. zzz. saya sangat lame.

family belah mama. my aunt uncle cousins nenek atuk saudara segala

perlu jugak nak letak muka sendiri sebesar alam

ikhsann! my cute uncle!:)

rumah bapak tua @ atuk tua. okay I thought he's married to mamak tua when the fact is actually, he is the eldest brother of my grandpa and mamak tua is the eldest sister. lol siapa suruh nama panggil nak sama ja

rumah abang min

aa..budak2 ni memang camni jangan hairanlah.haha

Khalid pergi Mesir

So bye2 lil bro! Okay dia dah selamat pun kat sana siap tengok piramid segala. First time tinggal jauh dari family, don't know what's gonna happen to him. But I know he can do well so puh-lease, take a very good care of yourself Khalid! Sistah miss you lots!:'(

si tinggi

with baba

kihkihkih

us

the most important women in my life + an ape. hahaha

pengiring

my uncle. jangan hairan, beliau memang begini :D

hasil kerja keras beliau. kasut dah senget sebelah lol

them guys

farewell dear bro! love you!

ok. end of part 1. penat tunggu gambar nak upload. hahahaha

Tak matang lagi

Ada orang cakap aku tak matang lagi. Betul. Sebab aku pun rasa begitu. Aku tak mampu nak berfikir secara dewasa. Apa yang tersurat itulah yang aku terima. Jarang sekali aku nak cari yang tersirat. Aku tak tulis benda2 merapu khurafat dalam blog aku. My blog is a piece of shit actually. I write craps and nothing else. Aku marah, gembira, sayu, cuma itu yang para pembaca2 hambuii *kalau adalah* dapat lihat. Rasa. Sebab aku cuma tulis benda yang aku rasa dan bukan benda yang aku fikir.

Aku tak tulis pasal politik. Aku tak tulis pasal isu semasa. Aku tak tulis ataupun berkongsi tazkirah. Aku rasa aku tak layak untuk itu. Aku tak suarakan pendapat aku tentang undang2 negara. Apa yang aku tulis, pasal lagu, sayang, kawan, pergolakan rumah tangga dan persahabatan etc etc. Kadang2 terasa juga nak jadi macam bloggers yang lain. Yang bagi info berguna. But I just can't. Cause that's not me. I don't know how to inspire people. Bagi tips2 atau nasihat. Diri sendiri pun tak ternasihat. Inikan pula nak ceramah orang lain. Hina sungguh diri ini nak menasihati orang lain. Heh.

Tapi sekurang2nya aku tak hipokrit.

Selamat hari kebangsaan yang ke 53, MALAYSIA :)