Thursday, January 29, 2009

chasing cars



We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

*its been a long time since i last heard this song from my phone.yeah.since the last time that 'someone' called me.i used to set this song for that 'someone'.and now.no more.keh3kah3lalala..*sigh**

bogoshipo~

crap in the afternoon

sitting alone in the room
in front of my laptop
surrounded by these tissues and sweaters
and nobody's home
damn.i totally hate this
my head will start reminiscing the memories that i've been trying to avoid these past few months
and those tears will automatically jump out of the cage that i've locked for almost..err..few hours?
when will i stop dreaming and be realistic in life?
damn damn damn!
be realistic kai!
it will never happen.AGAIN.ANYMORE
there's no turning back
for some reason
i really feel like want to perform the umrah once again
there are things that haven't finished between me n MAKKAH
things that i've been asking for,a long time ago
things that i want to ask to the ALMIGHTY once again
though I know i will not get any rigid answer but at least there is a chance for me to ask for forgiveness for all the sins i've made, before and after
things that ended up not in the way that i want it to be
sometimes when we are alone,things tend to be more realistic to us
and makes me realize how foolish i am in making decisions in life.in love
i am not a realistic person.i do not know how to be realistic
but now i know i have to
so that i won't get hurt more in life
but im just a normal person
i see things in my own way
i judge things 70% with my emotion
and the rest??
uff!~what a post~
i think i should take my paracetamol now
assignments assignments!~

astalavista
good day my friends!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

ok ok diz will b d last part of my bday k!hee...

million trillion zillion thanx 4 all d wishes n presents!
(starting from my 1st gift~=)))


fara sei.paling awal suda kirim..huhu..

mr nabaish =)

lyn c high pitch!(jg lyn ada lg 1 sbnarny hadiahku!aku ingat tu!hahah!

my kodokz!ciira n chet2!=P

mummy janet!

abang megi!

abang prego!

nanad!

alen!

elma!

bunz-topo-pz!

nad lg!haha..jk~

aiman gn fatah!

mama n baba!!hehehe..tenkiu mak!ba!~

mr ego..xp..PURPLE!~

Monday, January 19, 2009

yeah im 20!--2nd surprise!--

since everybody keep on asking me to update the 2nd surprise, so with the ATP left in my mitochondria to regenerate my energy..(pergh..da la info sembarang..semangat lagi thu!haha)
aku pon menggagahkan diri untuk mengeblog ni..
napa ayat aku malam ni truk sgt lorh??mnangis cikgu malik baca blog aku.

huhu..cut d crap!

k k.napa suma org suka book aku skang?haha..nanad pon camtu. awal2 g da book nak jalan BERDUA la konon an..
aku ni yg tba2 dpt msg seperti menakut dgn ajakan ini.

*minta maaf ya rakan2.pada malam ini mood saya adalah skema dan formal lagi pemalu.(erk..pa kna mngena??)*

lantas setelah mendapat mesej tersebut..aku pun mulala memikirkan segala kemungkinan yg ada
  • nanad rindu aku ka?
  • maw lecture aku sal smoke tu ka?
  • maw smbut bday aku bdua gn dy ka?
  • dll.....(tidak dapat dinyatakan di sini)
aku pown menyatakan persetujuanku. temu janji diatur.at first we were supposed to meet on friday tp plan tukar p sabtu.naseb gak la cuz tetiba ptg jumaat ada lecture GU. (dr. karim again??daym!)
pas klas n mam kat kopitiam cikai aku (bak kata syira.tp nc goreng beef dy sdap woo~~)..aku pon meminta pertolongannya untuk menghantar aku ke stesen keretapi batu 3.
aku pula terlupa untuk membeli tiket langsung ke mid.so tpaksa stop kat klc,naek bli tket withdraw duwet n turun lek g mid..
gila ramaila org..aku cam xle bnafas lam thu

da la kecik..wuu~T.T

*(jika anda perhatikan ya rakan2..mood sy tlah btukar kepada yg lebih santai.abaikan perkara tersebut.asalkan anda memahami isi kandungan blog sy)*
*iklan ditaja oleh mcD.boikot israel!*

bila dy smpi..knon2 la dy kata lapar an..maw ajak mam g sushi king..naseb aku da mam kalaw x haram la aku maw join..
bila aku ty pz mana,dgn innocentnya dy wat mukak seposen mntak kesian..so aku pk pz lek tepen la..alalala kecian c nanad (kataku d dalam ati)

smpi ja kat sushi king,nanad lgsung tarik aku masuk.
aik,napa org laen kna Q kitorg xpyh?

masuuukkk ja muka 1st aku noticed.PZ!~
haaa..da agak da ada yg x kena!aku pnyala triak dgn bngga n kuatnya seselamba kodok aku ja.
mmpus la cina2 blakang tu tsedak sushi dgr sora aku.miahaha!
so this is d "kita jalan BERDUA" thing la..haiyo! rminya mereka!

amat-topo-camito-pz-saiful-bunz-alen-elma-julani-hanafi-nanad

tipuu tipuu!aku mmg tkejot gila smpai tlompat2 lam thu xsgka dapat jmp dorg!siot!ni msti nad pny plan an an an?? rnduuu gilaa!!syg xda mimi pja..pdhal d kl juak pon..
xcept 4 mimi la cuz kbetulan lek indon tym thu..wuu~~

i was really2 surprised!ni kalaw x kuat jntung mmg gol jugak aku time thu.2x seprais.siot.haha

agak lama jgkla masa yg diperlukan untuk menenangkn aku kmbali.huhu...
da tlompat sana sini pg meja blakang meja dpn..nanad suh bkak kek..
soooo comey!
16 cute little cupcakes!from nanad i guess!~thx! comey gila!

comey gila babeyyyy!!~

comey an? huhu..thanx thanx thanx! cakab byk pon x guna.mari melihat gmbar2 yg ada!~~


me wit nenek elma!

nanad suap kek.pastu disondolnya g mulut aku!cilaka tol.haha

julani-alen-me suma ex madu!hahaha

nanad-elma-her bf hanafi

d guys!from d left..amat-topo-cami-bunz-saiful-pz

me n nanad!=)

me wit d cupcakes!yummy!

huhu..da 2..nanad g sumbat aku gn sushi..yuckz!~sgguh geli!tapi sedap gak lama2..yala mknan mahal lg free rugila aku x makan..huhuhu
after that we went hanging around mid,jalan2 cr purse nanad,cuci2 mata,took lotta picz..huhu..
besala kalaw namanya dak mktab yg da bkumpul bgmbar trusssss~~~
da dpt bli purse nanad gv me d free gift from TL.apaakaa??
hahaha..
da borink2 kami pon dudukla dpan mid..amek pic lg!~


d guys (without saiful).cm peter pan pown ada

me n d guys...xp

heheh=p

me n puding!

we went back home around 7pm x silap..g umah nanad.mom dy masak..haha tketar2 c pz jmp mak mertua!trep2 baekkk la konon..kamu pkir ak xtaw pa kamu wat....wakaka!
mom dy masak sedaaappp...ikan basung,kari ayam,sayur kubis (my fav!),tofu jepun xsilap.sambal udang,pa lg tah.x ingat.atlis trubat la jgk aku rs air tgn org tawau..omg i miss my mom pny mamam soooo much!~
then pas lex2 suma anta pz n me balik..rasa lega mlm tu cuz dpt mluah sket2 gn nad..xcept for certain things la..huhu...too sensitive..
mmg pwasla mngumpat n tmbah dosa malam thu!wahaha..tiba2 lak idea wat bisnes crossed our mind.haha..k nt aku roger ko k bebeh!

haih..sgguh gumbira!dpt jmp kawan2 lama mmg melegakan hati aku.rasanya xmaw jak kuar dr mrsm dulu
biar lama2 kat sana n xpayah tjumpa gn org2 bkenaan..tp da takdir an..

life must go on!~

yeah i noe dat!huhuhuhu..btw..kpada anda d luar sana yg mnjayakan rancangan ini n panas bntot tggu aku dr kol 11..(nduk bha cian..hehe)

nanad ( d mastermind!)
pz

alen(thx 4 d bracelet!xoxo~)
elma(thx 4 d handbag el!~)
bunz
topo
amat
cami
saiful
hanafi
julani


TERIMA KASIH KALIAN!=)
mwahx!luv y'all!



g.u.y.s

frankly speaking

im SICK

to be exact

im TIRED with GUYS

don't you get it??

i am NOT TAKEN

and i DON'T WANT to

i am NOT INTERESTED to involve in a serious RELATIONSHIP right now

i am HAPPY with my life

though what you guys see is not the real me

i am still recovering from the pain i had before

i am TIRED!

so guys..BACKOFF!!


Sunday, January 18, 2009

yeah im 20!--1st surprise!--


finally i got all d pics from lyn just now.miahaha!~
k.now im blur.pa mo start??
hmph3~k. lets start with this guy who had been trying the best he can to 'book' me on that night.haha!
asek2 khamis malam khamis malam.pekejadah??
bwat assignment pulak tu..sal health la konon....as if bob isnt BMSians an?
so i'd rejected all the invitations and dates just to help him on his 'assignment'.huh!keji pny mamat.
short the long (palingla suda bi!)..dy pon pikap la ak..palingla lmbat..n we went to jayati sek 7 xsilap..
lam keta barula taw tu la assignment dy..MAKAN.sabaarrr je laaa an...aku pon dgn gumbiranya makan dan minum tanpa rasa was2 sebab da taw tujuan sebenar...
bila dy anta lek,agak plik ah cuz senyum dy laen macam..(haha i didnt tell u bout diz ryt??xp)
i just ignored that and went back home..xsilap lam 10-15 minutes b4 my burfday..smpi umah,lgsung tuka baju..lek2 kat bilik..

00:00-16 JANUARY 2009!

haha..at last..my burfday! ive been receiving too many messages n calls..smpi naek pning..
MEMI! awak 2nd..ngee~~thx!
suddenly aku dgar sora lyn...
"kaaaaiiiii!!!! bukak pintu!! (sumting like that la cuz i was on d phone at dat time)..jgn kaw kluar sembarang aaaa!!ada laki ni!!"
aku pun panik sial!sapa lak ni??oo myb aiman fatah la lyn bawak ni..byan mummy akak blanche nisak suma suh aku tuka baju.siap suh pki long sleeve ag.maleh da.haha..ingat fatah..dy da besa la tgk aku selekeh..
n they keep on asking me to open the door by myself.apa dorg xley bkak ke???
bukak ja pintu....... DAMN!....its d STALKER GUY!! n rmi siot!
bob,yaz,aya,izut,el,mirul,lyn!tkejot badak aku!
naseb aku x direct kwa ja td..da la pki single strap night gown!babeyyy....
so they sang d ep burpday song..n asked me to potong d cake..
so suwiiittttt...!~~"happy 20th birthday -echa-"
haha..xpala bagi can pggil echa skali..apa nama tah cake tu..banana choc eh?xingat lak..
yummy delicious!~hahaha..ketaq2 anak org pgang kek..cian...hehehehe


there goes my 1st burfday cake..thx pais!~=))



haha..masih terkedu tataw nak watpa..hehe..

potong kek!

lagi tkejot tu aku ingat syira da lek.upanya lom ag!tah mana dorg smbunyi gn lyn..hahaha!~siap msg ep burfday puteri kodokkk g..ceit!
pastu da dorg masuk umah suma then potong cake bla3..my ouzmates dgn pandangan menggoda dan menggerunkan tarik aku masuk toilet..
omg cmana aku ley lupa tradisi tu??shit3!~dorg da siap kunci pintu pa suma..babeyyyy sgt camana ley lupa..mmg blur gila time tu..even org yg dtg umah pn after a few minutes baru leh recognize sapa..i was shocked!haha..
k k terpesong dr landasan lak..smangat btol dorg tarik aku suma..especially nisak mummy byan la!
da burfday dorg suma aku yg wat ramuan kaw2 gila babeyy..nisak ah paling truk..cm *teettt*..haha!
sux gila ah bau dy!cam muntah kodok pny!urghhh~~!eeeeeeeeeee...........!!!!!!!!!
taw pa ramuannya?
sarsi
sos tomato
tepung

minyak
telur
perencah tom yam
air

disaster.daym!tapi still tabley lawan ramuan aku.im still d best!miahaha!
(sapa2 maw mntak tolong aku prank kan anak org tym burfday,juz gimme a call..xp)
aku tpaksa mandi masa tu gak..busuk sial!
sesungguhnya x sggup aku nak bernafas.walawpon x umph cam pa aku wat tapi bau dy b'KICK!'


ni la ramuan beracun dorg..yuckz!diskapling!~

kanak2 paling kejam

menyempat.miahahaha~

paling buruk suda tu!

geliiiiii....

nisak dengan selamba kodoknya menyeksa aku

haha!babi anda babi!saya sayang anda semua!muahaha~takesah la letak sarsi ka telur ka..parampara beta parampara (ayat kabhi kushi kabhi gham-tradisi nak.tradisi)
aku merayu2 mintak mkan kek dulu pon x dbagi! mmg paling kejam la..haha
pas mndi dok lepak gn dorg,balas msg n bkak hadiah suma!wee~~
malas maw tulis pjg2..nnti aku wat blog bg tgk suma hadiah aku..huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu~~


mereka=)


heheeh..maan pny seksa nk siapkn blog ni! gn x mndi x apa lg...ni baru first part..second third lom bwat..duh!
naaaddd...nnt aku bwat ya..leppe uda badanku..huhu..
btw..kepada mereka2 yg terlibat secara lgsung atau tidak lgsung...

pais (thx a lot dude!i noe diz is all ur plan!)
lyn
syira
blanche
mummy
byan
nisak
akak
bob
yaz
aya
elle
izut
mirul

THANX THANX THANX!=)



lots n lots of updates!!

lol..sounds like desperate sgt nk update..miahaha!yeah mmg pown! banyak gila nak update..adoy..nak stat gn pa dulu..hmhm..
maw post sal my burfday but still xdapat amek d pics yg aku nk upload..so later la..
juz now went to sek 7.lunch (la sgt..da kol bp tym 2..haha)
cam bes tpat tuh!byk giler tpat mamam..naek pning aku nak pilih
atlas kitorg p bintang sidewalk cafe..err..i mean..me n d DOTA GUY..haha(jgn mara....=p)..cambes gak
tgk menu ja nak tmuntah aku..byknya!
tataw pilih!~~western ada local ada dessert ada..ice cream cake!wuuhuuu~
akhirnya memandangkan aku masih mengekalkan adat2 ketimuran yg tggi maka aku pn order la mi goreng naratiwat ke ape tah...cm2 ah..pais psan lagila aku tataw nama..cm briyani..heheh..
n ice chocolate!
wadus..aku rs brapa ari ni makan trussss aku..mayur makan seyh!


well mr pais..cubaan untuk menggemukkan sy tidak bjaya..miahaha..sy slim lg!..xp
yummy!cedap!~

err..aku rasa la an instead of cubaan menggemukkan aku..dy yg sdang mggemukkan diri sendiri..hahaha


makanan yg telahpun habis dibedal oleh insan2 kebulur..haha~

huahua..tu ja pon aku nak post skang..tatawla pa tujuan aku post ni..nk pic bday!uwaa!:'(
cpat lyn!


i'll be updating veeerrrryyyy sssooonnnn kayh!~

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Re: Rm18.90

berbaloi ko kata??
eelloww..i can buy 1 plate of beef fried rice+teh o ais 4 my lunch taw
k la tolak sm pos xpress rm4.50
rm18.90-rm4.50=rm 14.40
huh..bley topap lg rm5
bli choki2 2 paket
ckup suda 1 ari sy belanja
n u said 'double price aje tu'???
keji sgguh ayat anda c kodok!
muakakaka~~
saya rela berbaris pjg2 dpd mmbazir almost rm15 for that ok
ya ya i noe im a D.I.V.A
but nowadays even DIVA knows how 2 bjimat lorh..lol
yeah instead of sky net we got lots of courier service an an an?
gdex, sure reach, bla3~~
hoh..ko yg ckp tlipat!tiiipuuuuu~~~~~


btw mis KODOK..ingt ur resolution!!!!!
no X KESAH!~
ngeh3~~

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

another tag.haha.pathetic me.damn bored.

ALL ABOUT ME

☻ What do your friends call you?
++ kai.kakai.


☻ When is your birthday?
++ 16 january 1989


☻ What are your favorite food?
++ murtabak jawa gerai sakura kat kong fah
++nasi goreng beef kopitiam sebelah rafi


☻ Are u a hard drinker?
++ nope!


☻ Where are you now?
++ my bluved perdana.duh!


☻ Do you work now?
++ nehi


☻ What song you like to hear when the time you are so lonely?
++ warmness on the soul-avenged sevenfold


☻ Favorite Movie.
++ horror.thriller


☻ provide some of your choice number.
++ 8


☻ What is your perfume?
++ white musk intrigue (the body shop)


☻ Do you have other Friendster account?
++ used to


☻ Are you a party girl/boy?
++ myb?haha!


☻ Is there someone mad at you? If yes. Think why.
++ tataw.myb.


☻ Name someone u like.
++ ehem..."si COMEL" (R bukan nama sebenar)


☻ Who are your best friend?
++ urm????


☻ A friend is..
++ a human being


☻ what is more important? Loved ones? Or your Friends?
++ both are equally important.


☻ Do you slept with your contacts?
++ la.babi pny soalan.kan tertipu td!ak pk contact lense!babi tol.


☻ Do your experience your bf/gf told you that you’re the only one? But the fact is he/she lied.
++ err?? *kelip2 mata tgk siling*


☻ Did a time come that you had 2 or more bf / gf?
++used to.ngeh3~tp x sngaja!


☻ Are you in a relationship now?
++ NOPE


☻ Who was the last person you dated?
++ sapa ek?abg prego kot.smalam.haha!~


☻ What is Love for you?
++ C.I.N.T.A.thu lam bm la..ade korea g,japan g..bla3..


☻ Is there any one of your ex and friend of yours you know that they are together now?who are they?
++ ada!x guna tol.wakaka!cita lama..xkesah=)


☻ What makes u happy?
++ bila sy ketawa terbahak2 x ingat dunia


☻ Introduce your self. Tell us some words that they must know.
++ im kai.3 ari ag nak msuk 20.jgn bg sy mic n camera.im addicted to those things.haha


☻ How about a message for you exs?
++ hidupla korg bebaik


☻ Say something to your bf/gf
++ pls refer to d 21st q.i am NOT in a relationship


☻ Dedication to your crush?
++ dgarlah lagu david archuletta 2.tp sapa lak crush aku??jap2 pk lu.*kening berkerut*


☻ Dedication to your friends?
++ wahai sahabat2ku.HADIAH BDAY AKU JGN LUPA!

☻ Tagging.
++ mereka yg merasakan dunia amat borink sekarang

borink seyh~

sgt borink di kala ini.check this out!kewl stuff!~

I. put your iTunes/any other players on shuffle.

II. for each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT
IV. tag 5 friends who might enjoy doing this.


1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
:: take a bow (haha yeah right!)

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
:: magnet (really??)

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
:: al-fatihah (aminnn..)

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
:: bu de bu ai (err..mybla)

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
:: with love (agak ah)

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
:: live your life (perfect!)

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
:: just dance (mnari cm kayu.wakakaka)

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
:: lagu untukmu (sakit jantung mak aku dgar)

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
:: sorafune (xda ms aku nak 'row that boat')

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
:: bu de bu ai (again??)

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
:: ku katakan dengan indah (yep!)

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
:: innocence (yola thu..xp)

13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
:: leaving on a jet plane (isk2..btul2..)

14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
:: ost sassy girl (pe tah tajuk dy.tp lagu slow la..bes2!)

15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
:: straightjacket feeling (ngamla tu naq..)

16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
:: chasing cars (hmm...)

17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
:: mantera beradu

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
:: i hate this part (no no no!)

19. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
:: matahariku (emm..based on d lyrics..yela kot..)

20. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
:: cry (do i ever have d tym 2 cry??)

21. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
:: hilang (haha.yup!)

22. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
:: sorry (exactly)

23. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
:: tong hua

24. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
:: sandaran hati (tah pape!)


tag people who read this~