Thursday, June 25, 2009


i need morrrreee CAAASSSHHH demmit!

  • patho's books*grr~study2~*
  • guitar *sob2*
  • new jeans*sgt buhsan tgk jeans aku!*
  • new sandals*fyi i cant wear my converse for the time being due to my stupid allergic!*
  • upgrade RAM lappy aku*gila babi lambat sumpah cam nak campak dari tgkat 18*
  • TWILIGHT SAGA BOXSET-PAPERBACK! omg omg!RM 140 onlyy!!
  • im thinking of doing a medical check up.terasa diri ini tak sihat sangat.

buat masa ni, ni la yg aku perlukan.
duweettt aduh duweett~

*walaupun duwet mara aku ada lg tp bila tgk angka depan da jd 1 itu adalah petanda yg sgt tidak baek untuk kesihatan jantung aku di masa hadapan*

--sapa nak kenalkan aku gn sugar daddy yg kaya raya n kubur da melambai2 panggil suh pulang balik lam tanah?--

Monday, June 22, 2009

your arms feel like home

I think i've walked too close to love
And now i'm falling in
Theres so many things this weary soul can't take
Maybe you just caught me by surprise
The first time that i looked into your eyes

There's a life inside of me
That i can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where i've never been
I don't care if i lost everything that i have known
It don't matter where i lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
Feel like home

This life aint the fairy tale we both thought it would be
But i can see your smiling face as it's staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now
I know we both understand somehow

There's a life inside of me
That i can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where i've never been
I don't care if i lost everything that i have known
It don't matter where i lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
They feel like home

There's a life inside of me
That i can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where i've never been
I don't care if i lost everything that i have known
It don't matter where i lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
They feel like home

thanks ...
for setting me free from the cage i've been locked in for so long...

for giving me strength and showers me with your love and care...

for being the one who wipes away all the tears i've wasted for someone who does not worth it...

for your trust..your patience..your strength..your understanding...

for many other reasons that i don't even know..:D

and most of all..
thanks for loving me for who i am...

i'll try to be as strong as you...and to love you more and more...

monthsary is a BIG no for me actually.

but hey.its 22nd already!

ily syg~:)

Saturday, June 20, 2009

a letter for you

howayu?hope u are doing fine.dah lama gila kot rasanya tak contact awak.since the day you end up our conversation kat myspace.tatawla u still remember or not.

first of all sy nak cakap sy tataw sbenarnya nak cakap apa.but myb its better if i start this post with infinity apologize.for what?im sure u know d reason well.i know i shouldnt post this, for me its kinda personal. but somebody told me to do so as there are some of your post yg agak mcm sarcastic la jgk or sy yg trasa lebih2 wallahualam la. (u lurveee being sarcastic rite)
it was on the 8th of May.bila kita msg kat ms and i was like WHATTHEHELLWITHTHISGUY and sgt2 bengang sebab awk nak marah/jeles/??? membabi buta only bcuz of my yy and komen2 kitorg kat fb.i mean,wth with all that thang?yg awk nak meluat la apa la..mcm la b4 that sy xda gtaw or explain gn awak who's that guy.he was my friend back at kmhell.ive told u rite?jd knapa dgn msg2 thu?and saya tataw msg2 awak lepas tuh sgt2 mnyakitkan ati sy.i know im not the only one yg sakit ati.awak pon.but do we have to end it up camni???

fyi (eventho myb u'll say that u dont give a damn on this) after kita gadow or whatsoever la yg jadi tuh,sy x rapt sgt pn dgn 'this' guy.i knew him from my ouzmate masa naek sem n i started ym-ing with him on d 12th May, 4 days after we fought. n idk cmana suma ni jd camni sorry.

i tried to tell bkanlah xbhati perot n xpk perasaan sy tataw nak cakap sndiri bingung dgn diri sy. for about a week or two after we declared our rship i was still confused and felt guilty.idk how to tell u personally, cuz we didnt end up the message sgala in a good term. so sy truskan ja hidup cam besa as if you meant nothing to me but d fact is u are!u really are, not WERE!u've done so many things for me.awak sntiasa try bwat sy happy. the moment u came n gave me d brownies and tem dkat airport tuh was one of the most memorable moment in my life. mybe it was a mistake when i asked u to stop hoping and tggu sy. but i did that bcuz sy tanak awk tggu xleh nak pksa ati sy utk trima awk. i've tried but i really sorry.

and now im living my life with happiness,and guilt. i miss doing things with you. i love being around together, bwat tu bwat ni. i enjoyed every single moment with u. i just..idk what to say. sy tataw cmana but i love 'this' guy. i love him. he is the only one who's able to stop those tears i've shed for almost a year. i know all this while u've always feel inferior. u r not confident with yourself. appearance. physical. etc. and maybe u'll say that i chose him over you because of his looks. kalaw itu yg awak pk, then sy takleh nak watpa. remember when u asked me, kalaw brad pitt nak kat sy,sy nak x? n i answered kalaw ensem cmana pon tp sy xda ati gn dy watpa? i meant it. i really do. but its up to u nak judge cmana. myb awk akan pk slama ni sy just gunakan awak.kita ada discussed gak pasal ni dulu. again, its up to u. sy xdapat nak halang pmikiran awk n kawan2 awk. sy cuma trangkan apa yg sy rasa.

i know its my fault. bwat awak mcmni. gantung. pilih org laen sdangkn awk yg brusaha slama ni tp dy yg sy baru knal yg sy trima. sy tataw nak mnta maaf cmana. sy try,hai kat awk kat ms. no reply. or shud i say, 'unforgiven' is d reply? wallahualam. hati sy awk. sy xpndi handle. i maybe smart enough untuk handle bnda laen, but not my heart. as i always said to you before. people change. i just want to tell you that i really2 appreciate what you have done for me. everything. every single thing. insya allah sy xkan lupa smpi bila2..yg ada org yg pernah sygkan sy. yg slalu support there when i need him (tho tpaksa fight dgn dota awk). sy nak sgt jadi kwn awk. kalaw x mcm dulu atlis we dont have to avoid each other. but i know its impossible. i crushed u.all i asked from u is your forgiveness. i've told you several times before that i 'care' for you. sy btol2 maksudkan at that time. but now..i think u know me good enough to know that when i love someone, then it will only be him. the feelings i have had for you or 'the past' is gone. i just want to be your friend, or at least you to accept my apologize.

Saya, Khairunnisa Rahmat, ingin meminta maaf seikhlas dan serendah hati saya terhadap awak, MFAH, kerana telah menghancurkan hati awak dan tidak bertanggungjawab atas kesalahan tersebut.

doakan saya bahagia.
all the best (you don't believe in luck, rite?)
i love you, friend.

*this post is a little bit personal but im in the mood to share it wth everybody.sorry*

Thursday, June 4, 2009

pegal baca first aid

1. Besides your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
> forehead and cheek opkoz.ngee~

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
> relieved.the stupid headache that keeps bugging me last night has gone.

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with?
> kodork

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
> a bit.hehe

5. Will you ever donate blood?
> best ja tgk org derma darah ni

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
> yeap!

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
> no.

8. What does your last text message say ?
> adala..mana leh gtaw.haha~

9. What are you thinking right now ?
> how am i going to survive for tomorrow's exam.n counting days to see someone :)

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
> definitely!

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
> aa..i think around 2 maybe.

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
> hmm..its someone's tee.don't know where i have the guts to wear it.i guess its nothing to me anymore.

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
> haha..lagi maw tanya!

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
> syg :)

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...
> 1. kodork

> 2. nanad

> 3. arif

> 4. nafis (sapa tu?haha)

> 5. pyqunk

> 6. farah

> 7. zul

> 8. lyn

> 9. elya

> 10. ain

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
> blackie pz!

16. Is no.3 a male or a female?
> male

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
> hahaha!buli jgak! :P

18. What is no.1 studying about?
> medical science.

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ?
> aih banyak songeh lak soklan!

20.Is no.4 single?
> hey!HE'S WITH ME!

21. Say something about no. 2.
> my bestfriend!forever and ever!

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together?
> woo! never!huhu~

23. Describe no. 9
> sweet!

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
>laugh my heart out!huhu~

25. Do you like 8?

thank you b!

notice my new layout?
sooo comel!ni suma b la yg cari2 smalam.
pastu aku mls letak dy ngada2la ckap pnat2 sy cari smalam!
anyway sy sgt suka!hee..chumel ni..
thanx rumet!
as a reward
sy bg kaw kasih syg yg x bbelah bagi..huhuhu
*cam besala kn?ir ir ir~*
k adios!first aid is waiting for me!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

aku pelangi

i like!
da lama dgar lagu ni dulu.kat page kwn aku lam ms.
tp baru skg taw best.haha~
enjoy!~da ada lirik tu.
tatawla mana vc btol.xda kot.huhu.
mls nak cr.


Monday, June 1, 2009

communicative english

just finished my communicative english paper
phew!mantab la jugak. sejam aku jawab dr 3 jam masa sbenar.haha.
one of the question is to create a dialogue by using several homonyms
blank gila.tataw nak tulis pasal apa
suddenly this story pop up in my mind.
the story about my bro's best friend who had just passed away days ago.
memandangkan aku ni da jadik cam stalker skunk, aku pon stalk la pasal budak ni.

Allahyarham Nublan Zaki Norhadi.
aku xknal pon.tapi tah napa bila aku baca cerita sal dy, aku rasa sedih sgt2.
seminggu ja lg dy nak lek Malaysia, jmpa family, n his beloved F.W (tanakla tulis nama sebenar)
but then apa yg dorg tpaksa smbut adalah sekujur tubuh yg x lagi bnyawa.
hmm..Takziah buat keluarga Allahyarham and also his gf.

eh eh aku nak cita sal laen! aku pon watla dialog between my bro (bobby) and the girl.
mmg banyak gila la idea mncurah2 time tu.
minta maaf banyak2 ye kpada yg tlibat. bukan niat xbaek.
cuma tiba2 crita korg jd inspirasi akak utk wat essay td.
sorry ye zul!n also arwah's girl.

hmm..bp kali pon aku bc artikel sal Arwah Nublan aku rasa sedih sgt2.
ke kite pnah knal b4 this?idk.
cerita dy ni wat aku rasa lebih mhargai org2 d sekeliling aku.
may you rest in peace.

*Al Fatihah buat Allahyarham Nublan*


aku xpecaya
sebenarnya pecaya la jugak
sebab tu ja aku buat lately ni
tapi aku xdapat menerima kenyataan




k k.btenang kai.jgn btendang.
buat balik cam dulu.