Saturday, October 31, 2009


Saat aku tertawa diatas semua

Saat aku menangisi di kesedihanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada

Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas

Masih sanggup berjalan kukan slalu memujamu

Meski ku tak tahu lagi engkau ada dimana

Dengarkan aku kumerindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah segalanya

Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada

Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

tagged by tengku myza haha~

What's your favorite word or phrase?
-naa kaw!

Name 3 people who made you smile today?

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
peel off the olay's mask from my mom's face

What is your favorite holiday?
any vacation and shopping!

What is the last thing you said aloud?

What is the best ice cream flavor?
chocolate yummy!

What was the last thing you had to drink?
air putih

What are you wearing right now?
shirts and shorts

What was the last thing you ate?
koko crunch

Have you bought any new clothing items this week?

If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?

Ever go camping?
yes.i don't like it a lot but it was fun anyway

Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
err my shit?

Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?
not really

Do you drink your soda from a straw?

What did your last text message say?
ok2 tak pe. c kwn. bye -nabil

Are you someone's best friend?
am i your bestfriend, buddies?

What are you doing tomorrow?
idk. maybe cooking, watching tv, bla3.

Where is your mom right now?

Look to your left, what do you see?
my make-up table

What color is your watch?

What do you think of when you think of Australia?
my families, gold coast,medic

Ever ridden on a roller coaster?

Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?

Do you have any friends on myspace that you actually hate?
of course

Do you have a dog?
i wis i can have one!

Last person you talked to on the phone?

Are you happy? fuckin miserable now

Where are you right now?
in my bed

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?

Last song listened to?

Last movie you saw?
cloudy and the bla3.pjg sgt tajuk malas nak cari.dah lupa.ala yg meatball jatuh dr langit tu

Are you allergic to anything?
i guess so.not so sure about it

Are you jealous of anyone?
yes. and im trying to get rid of that

Are you married?
haha no.

Is anyone jealous of you?
ask them

Do any of your friends have children?

Do you hate anyone right now?

Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
yes..(same ans with miza actually haha)

How many kids do you want when you're older?

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
21 hell yeah!

How did u get one of your scars?
i dont think i have any scars


Thursday, October 29, 2009

luahan hati.ceh.tiba-tiba

Too much things going on recently and i find it hard for me to accept some part of them. being far away from each of my friends gives me a lot of time to think what is what and which is which. too much drama, too much hypocrisy. enough is enough. i can't bear with that anymore.

Sometimes i feel like i've been so left out. tup2 tiba2 aku dengar itu ini and i was like 'really?','owh,ok'. and 'omg!'. Where i find that 'people change' is so true and im gonna stick with that for forever. yeah. no doubt.

I've been thinking and searching in too deep just to know that life is hard, and not as simple as we think it is. Like Bella Swan said in Twilight, 'Life is hard, death is peaceful.' (takdala peaceful sangat kalaw mati amal xcukup). But for sure, life is short. And i keep questioning myself, is it right? all the things that i've done, is that what I want or am i doing this just to satisfy everybody around me?

Terlalu banyak yang terbuku dalam hati and kepala hotak aku sampai satu masa aku rasa macam nak meletup. Idk who I can trust, to share all my thoughts and feelings. kalaw aku cakap dgn org ni, dy bkait plak dgn org ni. and bila aku ckp dgn org ni..pun xboleh jugak..rasa stuck gila. im tired of pretending, tired of acting nice. cheerful and happy in front of those people when the fact is, I don't.

I hate being alone. Every single thing keep on bugging me.argh!im clueless!idk what to do!

Dear Almighty, please have mercy on me what to do..

"Destiny is not a matter of chance,it is a matter of choice;it is not a thing to be waited for,it is a thing to be achieved."
p/s: thanks for the quote ray senpai :)

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

twilight journal!

i've been dreaming of this thing for almost 2 weeks,if im not mistaken.yeap.the first time it caught my eyes was on the day Khalid went back to Tawau after raya. while i was walking around the shop at LCCT, I spotted 'it'! omg I was so excited jumping around the shop half crazily! i don't have enough money at that time, i just walked back home dreaming to own 'it' one day.

and yes,today is the day!yippie!~*dancing in the moonlight*<----abaikan iklan di sebelah.
my boyfie bought it for me just now!at first i was so pissed off because i asked him to buy the small size for my nivea facial foam but instead, he took the large one!(tatawla sy suka pakai bnda kcik2 and bli byk kali bila sudah habis.mmbazir sungguh). i keep on babbling and as usual he just ignored me.haha.then he said "kalaw bli yang tu ada barang free dy bg". and he pointed at the MPH plastic bag inside the bigger bag. when i opened it,tadaa!it is one of my so-long-dream! the TWILIGHT JOURNAL!!!~

wee!~you're so damn beautiful~~hehe...i was stunned, smpi tnangis kejap.wuu~almost all of my besties know how much i love boxes! can't you see how pretty the box is? there are 4 journals inside the box, each representing the name of all 4 titles in the Twilight Saga Series. aku namaw tulis papa ni biarlah berkulat bertagar ka..biar dalam kotak ja.heehe!

tq syg!ilysm!~so so much!
(agak2 kalaw aku post grand turismo maserati lepas ni dy nak blikan aku x?hehe)

meet the chenta
Björn Dixgård :)