Wednesday, March 30, 2011


No matter how far I go, your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone.

My oh my, I love my three boyfriends! :P
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Saturday, March 12, 2011


I was all crazy when I posted this. My relatives/cousins/aunts/uncles could have read it. At that very moment, I don't really care. I'm so gonna get myself AT LEAST one puff after this. Like seriously. I just wish that I have the gut to tell everyone what I've done. But for what? Just to let them know that "I'm cool that way?" My heart says yes but my head denies. *Good head pat you 5 times.* Anyway whatever done is done. If only there's one thing I wish I didn't do is THAT. Yes, THAT. THAT could be anything, from everything to nothing. But yeah, it's between me and God. I just wish I have more time to fix it. And hope that He's answering my prayer. I'm not perfect. Heck, no one does. I can't tolerate those nice people. It creeps me out. I cursed a lot. I don't talk nicely to people. Bad-mouthing, gossiping. Hello it's in my blood lol. I hate hypocrites but I'm one of them. But I just wanna change. I wanna be a good girl, a good daughter, a good sister. I wanna make them proud. That's all I'm asking for. And if that means I have to sacrifice anything, I WILL.

Will You answer me? Will You help me?

Day 30- Your favorite song.

Love this forever.

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Sabar. Semua orang ada perangai masing2.
Appreciate those people around you.

One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.

So true. God, please help me. Forgive me.

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Saja nak mengisi kekosongan blog ni.
And because I have nothing to say but still want this blog to get updated so here's one of the way.
Ternyata sangat tidak efektif. Heh.

Day 26- What you think about your friends

I won't be here without them.
Thank you.

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

You will find nothing but crap.
The first year was all about one stupid guy who left me for that bitch. Sebab tu la blog ni dibuat sebenarnya. Meluahkan keemoan yang bila aku baca balik omakaihh geli geleman den!
The rest sila baca sendiri. hehe. My daily routine, kemenyampahan kepada orang2 yang tidak dapat disalurkan secara berdepan and my apologize sebab banyak sangat mencarut.
What to do, it's in my blood :D

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Dear Mama and Baba

*hello mestilah secreto de amor mana boleh gtaw korang*

anyway, I miss you both so much!

From your cun-melecun daughter,


Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Mee Tauhu
Murtabak Jawa Kong Fah
ABC Milo Jagung
Nasi Kuning
Udang mama masak
Masak lemak baba masak
Telur goreng Khalid masak
Ayam kicap alak masak
Terasi and nasi goreng nenek masak

*hambui semua makanan*

Maw balik Tawauuuuuuu!

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

I'm super lame*bak kata alif*,super ordinary and super boring.
Nothing different.
Haha. Idk. What say you?

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

9 years :)

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

I used to imagine myself marrying the person I'm with at that particular time. Every single time I was in a relationship before. But I never put myself in that situation whenever I'm with him. I don't know why. Serik maybe? But yes, of course I wanna be with him for the rest of my life. Leave the rest to God :)

My Chef

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Too many.

Kakai: Blanche bagi nama. Actually it was meant to be KaiKai but I guess dah lama2 panggil susah sangat nak sebut KaiKai, so ended up jadi Kakai la. Hee

Khaiey: This one my kakak angkat kat SMAKK bagi. This one is like the evolution of Kai la. Her name is Siti Khairunnisa and we called her Kak Naiy. Wonder where she is now. Hmm.

Mantabs: Haha seriously I don't remember where does this comes from but I think I created it. Hehe. It's like a trademark or something * just because they think my butt is sexy. lol *. Is it?

Echa/Nisha: Nama dalam family. Mama baba panggil camni. My bro called me Kak Icha yaa in my dream tu pun kalau mood baik. Bila kena marah baru panggil nama betul."Nisaaaaaaa! Blablablablabla!". Fine. =.=

Khaieykkkk: As in taikkkkk ni geng Tawau selalu panggil dulu. Pengaruh bugis ni taw Alen punya keja ni! Haha!

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

I wanna have lots of money. And by lots I mean LOTSSSSSSSSSSAAA MONEY!
But for now, I just wanna finish my final exam, do my laundry, clean up my room and get prepared for Singapore y'alls! Oh, and eat nasik please. Macam nak pengsan seminggu tak makan nasi omg just gimme rice and salt I'll be more than grateful!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Just some random thoughts.

-I'm effing busy.
-30 days challenge dah jadi 18 days ja. Takpa nanti sambung.
-I'll be sitting for the next paper tomorrow,and seriously I don't even know what I'm studying. I HATE COMMUNICABLE DISEASE.
-I need to get more money a.s.a.p. There's a lot to pay/buy. I'm not exaggerating when I say that nowadays, money is the virtual world's god. You can't even pee without a penny. Will work on that after the exam.

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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Final of the final!

First paper berakhir dengan 'jayanya'. Dr. Kachak, sila bagi saya A sebelum saya boikot anda.

All the best classmates!
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Tuesday, March 8, 2011


'Kenapa awak tak peduli saya dah,biasa kalau saya down awak ada gn saya'.

The moment you asked me that, I was stunned. Never thought I matter that much to you.

Let's grow old together, shall we?
Ily more :)
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