I was all crazy when I posted this. My relatives/cousins/aunts/uncles could have read it. At that very moment, I don't really care. I'm so gonna get myself AT LEAST one puff after this. Like seriously. I just wish that I have the gut to tell everyone what I've done. But for what? Just to let them know that "I'm cool that way?" My heart says yes but my head denies. *Good head pat you 5 times.* Anyway whatever done is done. If only there's one thing I wish I didn't do is THAT. Yes, THAT. THAT could be anything, from everything to nothing. But yeah, it's between me and God. I just wish I have more time to fix it. And hope that He's answering my prayer. I'm not perfect. Heck, no one does. I can't tolerate those nice people. It creeps me out. I cursed a lot. I don't talk nicely to people. Bad-mouthing, gossiping. Hello it's in my blood lol. I hate hypocrites but I'm one of them. But I just wanna change. I wanna be a good girl, a good daughter, a good sister. I wanna make them proud. That's all I'm asking for. And if that means I have to sacrifice anything, I WILL.
I used to imagine myself marrying the person I'm with at that particular time. Every single time I was in a relationship before. But I never put myself in that situation whenever I'm with him. I don't know why. Serik maybe? But yes, of course I wanna be with him for the rest of my life. Leave the rest to God :)
Kakai: Blanche bagi nama. Actually it was meant to be KaiKai but I guess dah lama2 panggil susah sangat nak sebut KaiKai, so ended up jadi Kakai la. Hee
Khaiey: This one my kakak angkat kat SMAKK bagi. This one is like the evolution of Kai la. Her name is Siti Khairunnisa and we called her Kak Naiy. Wonder where she is now. Hmm.
Mantabs: Haha seriously I don't remember where does this comes from but I think I created it. Hehe. It's like a trademark or something * just because they think my butt is sexy. lol *. Is it?
Echa/Nisha: Nama dalam family. Mama baba panggil camni. My bro called me Kak Icha yaa in my dream tu pun kalau mood baik. Bila kena marah baru panggil nama betul."Nisaaaaaaa! Blablablablabla!". Fine. =.=
Khaieykkkk: As in taikkkkk ni geng Tawau selalu panggil dulu. Pengaruh bugis ni taw Alen punya keja ni! Haha!
I wanna have lots of money. And by lots I mean LOTSSSSSSSSSSAAA MONEY!
But for now, I just wanna finish my final exam, do my laundry, clean up my room and get prepared for Singapore y'alls! Oh, and eat nasik please. Macam nak pengsan seminggu tak makan nasi omg just gimme rice and salt I'll be more than grateful!
-I'm effing busy. -30 days challenge dah jadi 18 days ja. Takpa nanti sambung. -I'll be sitting for the next paper tomorrow,and seriously I don't even know what I'm studying. I HATE COMMUNICABLE DISEASE. -I need to get more money a.s.a.p. There's a lot to pay/buy. I'm not exaggerating when I say that nowadays, money is the virtual world's god. You can't even pee without a penny. Will work on that after the exam.