Saturday, May 2, 2009

i beg YOU~

ya allah kuatkanlah hatiku.
aku xminta papa lg.
just tolong kuatkan hatiku dan semangatku.
n tolonglah halang aku daripada menyakitkan diri sendiri.
buat aku lupa segalanya ya allah..
aku bukan hambaMu yg paling baik.
malah akulah yg banyak berdosa.
tp kenapa?kenapa semua ini x adil bg aku?
hukum aku kalaw itu yg terbaek.hukumlah.
tapi bukan ini.bukan jatuh lg.
"cukuplah kau halang cintaku.jgn kau halang cita2ku."
setiap hari aku minta tu.aku minta itu ja.aku tak minta pengganti.aku cuma mahu aku kuat & x ada lg 'benda' ni keluar dari mataku.
aku da cukup penat mngeluarkannya,sedangkan mereka penat tertawa n bkasih syg.
"laugh,& d world will laugh with you.cry,& d world will laugh at you."
i beg U.not this.again.stop hurting me.
You can give me the toughest nervous system's question for me.
or even musculo.or git.i don't care.
i'll cry to death trying to solve 'em.but not THIS.
im not going to waste 'it' again for someone useless.something.to be exact.
kawan2 aku da fedup baca entry aku.but what can i do?
this is the only thing that i can do.
i cant TALK about it anymore.
all that i can do is just write.write.write.
sorry guys.
sorry.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

life is unfair and always will be..

Penny Julius said...

but in d end of d day, punishment gonna take place n they who hurt others will get hurted. trust me, khai. i knw exactly how u feel. stay strong.

Khaieysha said...

thx penny:)
i will.
it is unfair yy.but i gotta stay strong.U also gotta stay strong.