Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy - Katy's!

Sad - Thinking of You, Almost Lover and What Do You Want From Me.

Bored - Any songs will do, even the forbidden songs! Nama pun tengah bosan kan.

Hyped - Rihanna's and Adam's.

Mad - Kesha's.

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Can I just say, nothing?

Oh, I'm proud of being a part of the circles. The Perdana-ians, the Mantabs-ians, and all. Because I love them and they love me too. :)

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

1. Settle everything for my Bandung trip. Never thought that it would be this susah and tiring!

2. Finish up the proposal for our BMS Idol.

3. Mestilah siapkan proposal sugar level tu. Haiyaaa Mr. Bu..help me.

4. Minta gaji dengan Sir. I'm fucking broke damnit!

5. My date with the comellest before Bandung! Mesti-cari-masa!

6. Gunakan segala benda2 free yang aku dapat untuk birthday kali ni.

7. Diet? Emm fikir dulu *munching*

8. A movie date with sayang tomorrow, God's willing :)

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Because of him, my patience has become higher, and better.

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Why? Sebab beliau *ceh beliau* adalah satu2nya superhero yang mengamalkan pemakanan yang sihat! Makan spinach sebelum bertukar menjadi kuat! Kalaw otromen mesti nak tukar2 baju la apa semua, power rangers nak kena ada jam ajaib la. Popeye? Makan bayam terus bertukar menjadi superhero yang comel. Go go Popeye the Sailorman toot toot!

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Rasa tak layak. Sangat. Tapi bersyukur. :)

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Bangun lambat.

I admit I'm not a morning person. My morning is your afternoon.

Paling celaka bila bangun dengan excited sekali nak pi kelas, sekali tengok jam dah pukul 2 p.m =.=

Sangat tekanan. Zzz.

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

My precious babes :)

Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name

Khaiey + Sha = Khaieysha

Back when I was studying in SMAKK, there was a senior of mine whose name is also Khairunnisa. Siti Khairunnisa. We called her Kak Naiy. She's the one who gave me the name, Khai. Then biasalah trend dulu2 nama mesti nak rock kapak punya, belakang tambah-ey. Jadilah Khaiey :)

Sha, sebab my grandma/relatives/aunties/uncles belah Melaka panggil aku Nisha. Kat rumah pun panggil camtu. Bila kena marah baru panggil nama betul =.=. Jadilah part 'Sha' tu.

How is it combined? When I was in form 2, Pija nak buatkan aku emel baru. So fikir punya fikir, masa tu kami tengah gila Avril Lavigne hari2 duduk sebelah library bawak cd player dengar lagu sk8er boy, maka jadilah ia! sk8ergurlz_khaieysha. Hehe. Since that I've been using Khaieysha for almost every website yang aku buat. Kira macam webname aku la. Kalaw google Khaieysha mesti jumpa punya blog lama2 hikhikhik malu tahap arwah bila baca balik! Nak delete dah lupa password. Urgh.

So that's it, the story behind my blog name. :)

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

1. Kakai Mantabs is becoming more and more famous than Kai.

2. Purple freak.

3. Obses makan nasi goreng kalau nampak ada kacang hijau/panjang/buncis. Sejak kecil lagi. *sebab tu ka dapat bf nama Bean?*

4. Adam Lambert and Katy Perry kipas-susah-mati-dah-mati-pun-hidup-kembali.

5. Currently in my last semester in Bachelor in Medical Science.

6. Proud to be Tawau-ian! Sangat gila murtabak jawa, abc milo jagung, mi tauhu, nasi kuning and all those foods yang tak ada kat tempat lain. I'll never consider moving out to another place, not even an inch!

7. Seorang pekerja Subway yang berjaya dan bergaya. Haha!

8. Freaking love 8.

9. Godzilla katik. Akan mengamuk bila orang kejut time tidur, and masa lapar. Masa PMS toksah habaq laa.

10. I can't stand bean sprout in my char kuey teow or fried mee. A big turn off.

11. Masa kecil2 selalu berangan jadi anak angkat sultan/raja.

12. Tahi lalat bawah hidung, trademark sejak azali.

13. Berat masa lahir = 3.9 kg. Pasal tu la debab sampai sekarang.

14. Tak tahan tengok nasiiiiiiiiii nom nom nom

15. Syed Muhammad Nafis'. :)

30 Days Challenge

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Your favorite song.

*Supaya saya dengan aktifnya naiktarikh blog saya, I took this challenge from the gorgeous T-hot! Jyeahh!

2010

Teruk. Memang teruk. This morning when my junior asked me dah lama tak update, baru teringat, laa aku ada blog rupanya. Ada jugak orang baca isk isk terharu I. The main reason is MALAS. TAK ADA MASA. And actually, nothing interesting happened to me for the last few months. Nanti kalaw update pun asyik emo memanjang bosan pulak kan, so diam2 sudah.

So, one last day to 2011. Dah boleh cakap aku last sekali mandi tahun lepas la. HAHAHA not funny. My 2010 is everything. Happy, sad, betrayed, shocked. The mix feelings brings me to one word: blur. Sumpah tahun ni aku banyak blur. Entahlah pasal apa. Too much going on and maybe that is the best thing to do to handle em all. I've come to realize that nothing is forever, again, and when the time has come, nobody can do anything about it. We plan, He decides.

Azam? Sudahkan azam yang lepas2. Muahaha. But seriously, azam tahun ni, no, saat ni, nak jadi sabar. I'm extremely impatient. Those yang satu sekolah sampai ke matriks and MSU sekarang, wajib tahu yang panas baran = Kai. I need to get rid of this A.S.A.P, if not I'll lose my precious one for real. 'Sabar Kai sabar.' I keep on saying this to myself so that I won't explode. 'Good comes to those who wait.' Pesanan seseorang. Thank you for that.

Family. Khalid went for Medic at Zagazig. Rindu :'(. Walaupun aku ni kakak yang jahat nauzubillah, but when it comes to my only bro, I'll definitely say I love him to the max! Madu racun semua dia. Balik cuti hari tu sunyi ja rumah dia tak ada. Isk. Baba & Mama pun aku taw mesti rindu dia gila2. Nenek lagilah, tak payah cakap. Luckily Skype connects us all. Haha! Palinglah lawak bila ingat masa nak ajar baba guna skype. Sekarang semua dah ada FB. Bagus2, ada kemajuan. Terpaksa block masing2. Muahaha. Sorry! Tp tahun ni sangat banyak homesick. Maybe sebab teringat yang diorang tinggal berdua, till I come to the extent yang tak nak sambung belajar dah pasni. Nak balik Tawau ja. Haih. Dear God, please take a very good care of Mama, Baba, Khalid and nenek ok? And also my aunt, uncle and big bro. Rindu :'(.

2010 tahun aku paling banyak terasa dengan kawan2 aku. Sorry friends :) Why? Sebab semua pakat sembunyi. Semua pakat lari sana lari sini. Semua talam. Ok sorry bukan semua, certain people. But still, my love for you guys is bigger than what hurts me. Without them, I wouldn't be here by now. Thanks :)

Love? Not much to say. Prefer to keep it to myself. Just that I'm GLAD, and by that I really mean GLAD, and grateful to have him by my side. Abaikan post2 emo. Hehe. He's the one who taught me to be patient, calm, jangan ikut perasaan, matang. Yang ni tak berjaya lagilah still childish. Lepas Nanad cakap, baru aku perasan, betullah, aku lebih sabar sekarang. Thanks love, and I'm sorry, janji tak bagi balik ogeh! Love you lots syg :)

Since this is my last theoretical semester, I'm gonna try my best to score and up kan pointer. Pasni dah takda 'takpa cuba lagi next sem'. This is it! Kena pandai bagi masa kerja and study. Oh did I mention earlier that I'm officially one of the Subway crew since almost a month ago? Hehehe I love working there! The crews are all friendly and most importantly, dapat makan free hari2. Hehehe. :D. Sambil belajar minum Pepsi. Hahaha.

Looking forward for a bright new year! Goodbye 2010, thanks for the memories :)

...

I don't usually write on my relationship here. I mean the dark side of it. As I know there are silent readers who would be very happy to see me cry. But today...

Sebelum kau tinggalkan aku untuk orang lain, biar aku tinggalkan kau dulu untuk diri sendiri.

I don't want to go through THAT phase again, ANYMORE.

Thanks.

Bila nak jadi baik

Bila nak jadi baik ni

Bila tak nak tinggal sembahyang ni

Bila nak amar makruf nahi mungkar ni

Bila nak berhenti melawan cakap ni

Bila nak belajar baik2 ni

Bila nak berhenti menipu ni

Bila nak pakai elok2 ni

Bila nak berhenti prasangka buruk ni

Bila nak cakap sopan2 ni

Bila nak jadi rajin ni

Bila nak jadi perempuan ni

Bila bila bila!

Dear God, please don't leave me. Guide me. Help me.

Awak, jom jadi baik. Sampai mati kita sama2 kalau kita jadi baik. Kan?

The end

Ya aku memang kuat memaki. Bukan mengaku dengan rasa bangga. Just want to make things clear. Ingat kenapa aku memaki? Ingat aku suka sangat memaki?

Lain orang lain cara nak release tension. Mine is this. Curse allllllll the way to heaven. By doing so, I feel stronger, concrete enough to hide everything.

Kau, memang layak dimaki. Aku ingat kau lain, tapi lagi teruk dari dia. And the main reason kenapa aku maki kau sebab aku tak nak menangis lagi. Aku tak nak meraung2 macam orang gila macam dulu and ruin my life again. Jadi kesimpulannya, bila aku memaki aku tak nangis. Bila aku nangis, aku tak memaki.

Dan hari ini, aku dah tak larat nak memaki.

I'll just..cried my heart out. All day long.

Thanks, for everything.

Barangkali

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come to hold you

Now I can't stop