bosan

terasa buhsan guna blogger pny account.
nak try LJ la.simple ja.hehe
btw gud luck syg!all the best.ily!~
2 months already.
n ily more n more each day.mwah!
(geli plak aku)
k nak smbung customize profile kat LJ.
oya btw im thinking of re-activating my skype account.
so sapa2 ada skype do add me k.
khaieysha160189.kot.tahengat.hehe
daa!

kekasih gelapku

Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apa pun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

Kutahu kutakkan slalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Kutahu kutakkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang kucari selama ini
Dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apa pun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

tak bisa memilihmu

Telah jauh terpisah, diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku, tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa hadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya

Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah
Darimu,Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku,
Untuk cintainya,
Hatiku pun inginkannya,
Hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu

Kusakiti hatimu yang tulus mencintaiku…

Maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu
Karena kuterhanyut mencintai dia
Inilah salahku yang memberi ruang
Di dalam hatiku tuk mencintainya…

title?

there were tooooo many things happened to me recently. and by toooooo it means MMAAANNNYYY..haha.

• baru dapat taw (actually dah lama dah la tp wat2 tataw) yg course BMS ni tak jamin apapa pn for the future. in fact bakal menjalani lorong2 gelap dalam idop kalaw x pass nak jadi doc.F*CK.
• baru dapat result. alhamdulillah i managed to get good grades (lah sgt.haha). ok la except for my 'beloved' first aid yg menyepoilkan (err..believe me there are no such words) slip result aku.urgh!
• facing many types of people or should i say, my 'bff' who stabbed me from the back and act nicely in front of me? oh and so do my bf's buddies.hmm.be strong syg!
• fights between my friends yg smpi aku pon rasa tempiasnya.aiyak.nak gadow gadowla jgn libat aku weh.hahaha
• almost losing our buddy, and we don't even know how to correct things between us. we missed you so much damn it! if you ever read this blog lah. what have we done actually?
• got to know that the motherF guy exists among the facebookers.babi.
  

and many2 other things that i don't think is appropriate to write here.hmm.
life is wonderful.life is complicated.
as time goes by, we will get to know more about it, better.

who's your real friend. who's your real enemy.
who loves you. who hates you.
who cares about you. who don't give a damn about you.
who loves you for who you are. who leaves you for whom you can't be.


to my baby..be strong syg!
pedulikan apa dorg kata.. mcm syg ckp Allah taw sapa btul sapa salah.
we all have our good and bad side.
I love you for who you are, not for what I want you to be.
Whatever you have been through, or what we are going to face in the future, just remember that I will always be by your side no matter what.
Sy minta maaf bila sy ragu2, bila sy marah2, bila sy xpecaya awak lpas dgr all the rumours and soksek2 dorg tu.
We'll be strong for each other baby~

to a friend called 'D'
if you have the chance to read this, I just want you to know that we love you buddy.
kalaw kitorg ada wat salah kitorg mnta maaf sgt2.
kalaw kaw x pk sal aku xpa, cuz aku mmg ego, apa lg nak minta maaf pasal bnda yg aku sndiri tataw apa aku dah bwat.
tp kaw pk la sal kwn kita sorg lg.
aku choleric. dy phlegmatic. kaw sanguine.
so aku rasa kaw faham perangai masing2.
da dekat sebulan kot kita x btgur.
hope things will get better bila kitorg biarkan kaw macam ni.

to my p****t
thanks for being there for me friend..
eventho im rude, or suka raba2 kaw, etc..
kaw ajar saya fikir rasional.
kaw ajar saya jd happy and wat kerja gila (huh dendam sunway blom terbalas lg!).
kaw ajar saya utk trust org yg sepatutnya and ignore unggas2 yg bkeliaran.hui bahasa.haha
kaw ajar saya utk fikir perasaan org laen.

you've taught me many wonderful things
to be brave.
to have my own identity.
to believe in myself and ignore the unnecessary things.
to stand out in the crowd and shines among them.
to enjoy and live my life to the fullest.
and the most valuable lesson that you taught me is,
NOTHING IS FOREVER.
thanks.

to my konon2 'bff'.
fuck off kalaw korg xpuas ati gn aku.
fuck off kalaw korg dengki gn aku.
fuck off kalaw korg rasa korg lg baek dr aku.
fuck off kalaw korg rasa meluat tgk aku bkaseh syg gn bf aku.
fuck off kalaw korg rasa my getekness is getting worse each day.

yg penting aku x hipokrit.
yg penting aku bwat apa yg diri aku nak.
yg penting aku n Tuhan taw aku mmg ikhlas syg korg, tp korg dok mngata blakang aku.
yg penting aku sedar aku x perfect. aku manusia biasa.
yg penting aku x bkaseh syg gn bf korg.
yg penting aku x mnggetek gn laki org.

huh.got a lot of things to say actually. but gtg now nak g masak megi. ni pon sbenarnya tgah eskep kelas cuz xda kwn nak p kolej.wuu~.hehe.

(sorry syg nk gtaw awk td tp takut.lgpon awk kat kitchen skunk kn?hehe)

toodles!

sapa makan babi diala knak h1n1

kepada sapa2 la yg rasa2nya tak dikehendaki untuk menjadi FOLLOWER aku,yg bkenaan dgn UMP (except memi), yg tujuan dy nak bkak blog aku utk dok sebok nak tgk hidup aku skunk n hidup tnpa rasa bsalah gn apa kaw bwat..aku nasihatkan kaw BLAH dr page aku cuz everyday aku tgk pic profile kaw kat blog aku taw dak aku nak nanges ja!aku benci kaw.aku benci dia walaupun aku pnah syg dia.aku BENCI KAU SLUT!perampas!murahan da xda bf p la cr laki single nak bf org (dulu) napa??babi!!!aku benci taw dak?
n skunk da ada fb lak laki tuh.babi taw dak babi!aku nak maki apa lg pon aku tataw da.aku sakit ati..plisla..aku da stop nangis.tlglah blah dr idup aku cuz aku da xda air mata nak bazirkn utk kaw lg.HIH.

aku gn hidup aku.kaw gn hidup kaw.

erk.ni kalaw org tu yg btolla.kalaw x pn just blah ja ok.