cootiii~~~

i'll be missing them!~

tagged lagi

1) Go to your photos' folder in your computer.
2) Go to the 6th folder of photos.
3) Get to the 6th picture in that folder.
4) Put the picture on your blog.
5) Put some description about the photo.
6) Invite 4 friends to join the challenge.
7) Link them in your blog.
8) Let them know they have been challenged.

masa nak xm chemistry time foundation.
aku dpat A!huhuhu~

xnak tag sapa2.sengal tol tagged2 ni..hahaa

saya ditagged!adoy~

16 random things about me.

Directions: Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you.At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them.Don't forget to leave a comment (''You're tagged!'') and to read your blog.You can't tag the person who tagged you.Since you can't tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

1. i am emo (ya ktawak2 mmg aku emosional nak wat cmana)
2. i love chocolate n sampoerna (don't blame me for this k!~)
3. i am currently studying medical science which i dont really know what i am going to be when i finished this course.nak smbung mbbs!
4. i can be very annoying and irritating. but sometimes i know how to be nice to people too=). but that rarely happens lorh..
5. im addicted to bags!handbags to be exact.kat uma ja da blambak sampai x cukup 2 laci..huu..~cam maw gila tgk beg2 nie..especially momoe pny..cantik banget!~
6. i am single and not interested in any relationship with guys.gurls bolehlah..haha..skarg masa untuk cuci2 mata aja dong!~
7. i am a powerful choleric person.damn!tataw apa p google k!
8. i love 8. i just love this number. though 08.08.08 was the day that i will never ever want to remember for the rest of my life.
9. i hate people talking crap or whatsoever even i can be 1 of them sometimes.gosip2 boleh jgn merapu2.its irritating man!
10. i hope i can grow up a little. im juz 151cm!paling pindik suda thu.but since suma gigi aku da tumbuh jadi hancur musnahlah harapanku..isk2~tiapa2..urang kk bilang pindik2 tagap seyh!
11. i am 'suci' tp x 'murni'. (haha..nad ingat lagi ni??)
12. i wanna be a doctor.or anything related to biology and human body system.i found it really2 interesting especially when it comes to our reproductive system..ngeh3~
13. purple,white,n black are currently my addiction
14. i hate backstabbers. n org yg put the blame on me untuk tutup kelemahan n ksalahan dy
15. i am 20 tp org slalu mistake aku lagi kcik dari tu.ada yg sgka aku drjah 6!babi btul.
16. i was born on 16th jan n u can called me kai.

tag:
-blanche
-bun
-nanad
-elya
-syuz

*thu ja aku tmampu pk ni..xbawak byk duwet nak o9 kat cc..adoy~*

sedar please

to admit that you are the palingbodohpunyaorang is so damn idiot

to think that there are still sisa2 of the love that you'd shared together for 2 years is so damn stupid

to know that you have to believe your eyes rather than your heart is so fucking hurt

and to know that you are nothing to someone..bukan pic kaw yg dicari tgh2 mlm..bukan kaw lg yg dtgur kalaw mknan x abis sbb takut mmbazir..bukan kaw orgnya yg d'syg sgt2'..bukan kaw orgnya utk bla3~idk pa aku tulis skarg..

sakit

thank you God for showing me at least one good reason why i should move on with my life and do not grief over the past.
its just one stupid stage in my life
a mistake that i've made just to make sure that forever is exist
sampai terlupa semuanya di tangan Tuhan

Khairunnisa Rahmat..
*sigh*
man..you are just one of my collection
let karma do the job
what goes around comes around

and to you..bitch
aku pernah tarik balik bila aku cakap aku doakan kau rasa apa aku rasa satu hari nanti
but now..
aku harap satu hari nanti
kau rasa apa aku rasa
malah lebih teruk lagi
baru kau tahu apa rasanya menderita macam aku
terpaksa jadi orang lain
terpaksa senyum masa hati aku menangis
jahat kan aku?
yup.i am.
its ok.i know im not perfect
i know you are way better than me
but you don't have the right to do that to me
kau tak ada hak langsung!
aku tak pernah kacau kau
kenapa kau kacau hidup aku?
why..
untuk tulis pasal kau dalam blog aku pun da cukup menjijikkan,mencemarkan aku
but then thanks to both of you
for making me realize that

nothing is forever
and everything can change easily

sorry guys
im just so damn miserable
rasa nak luahkan dgn org2
tp cukuplah kat sini ja
bye

Here it comes again…
I can only escape it for a while.
How am I to go on without him here beside me?
Pain, pain…Go away. Come again another day.
When I am feeling stronger

Here it comes again…
The searing in my heart and soul.
How can I face another day when I don’t know where he is?
Pain, pain…go away. Come again another day
When I have grown wiser.

Here it comes again…
The sun is rising on its own.
How can this be when my world has crumbled all around me?
Pain, pain…go away. Come again another day.
When I can feel warmer.

Here it comes again…
I feel the raindrops on my head.
Hear all the sounds of life, though my own is silent without him.
Pain, pain…Go away. Come again another day.
When I am less faltering.

Here it comes again…
But wait! What’s this?
Somehow the years have flown and I don’t know how this happened?
Pain, pain…Go away. Come again another day.
When I am more courageous.

Yes. Here it comes again…
But this time, not so bad.
Have I found relief, when I thought none was possible?
Pain, pain…Go away. Come again another day
When I have become older.

Yes. Come again when I am older
When time has made me feel it less.
When the sun warms me again and I can see all the way to heaven.
Pain, pain. Go away. Come again another day.
When I am no longer hindered.

Come again when my time is through.
And I can see for myself
God’s home and his angels shining brightly to welcome me there.
Pain, pain. Go away. Come again another day…

but the paling bodoh part is

how am i going to forget everything?????

babi

(.....)

i miss u damn it

miss u so much
im trying my best to forget u
i wish i have a reason to hate u for the rest of my life
but i can't find 1
get lost
u r d loser
not me

sejenak d umah kazen aku

saya o9!yeay!

haha

tada keja maw bwat

saya sgt gembira dpt 09 free

smggu g xm

sok lab test

im dead meat!~

slide x tgk g

wish me luck!~

napa post sy yg ini sgguh sengal skali??

y y y?

buhsan menjelma lalu menyeksa batin saya

wee!~

smalam p tgk slumdog millionare

besh!~

lalala..da da gtg..

sewel btol.myahahaha...

chalo beta!~

"Parachute"

Love is like an aero plane
You jump and then you pray
The lucky ones remain
In the clouds for days
If life is just a stage
Let's put on the best show
And let everyone know

Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather be with you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground

Love is like a hurricane
You know it's on the way
You think you can be brave
Underneath the waves
If life is just a dream
Which of us is dreaming
And who will wake up screaming

Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather be with you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground

Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather be with you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground

Cause if I have to die tonight
I'd rather was with you
Cut the parachute before the dive
Baby don't you cry
You have to bring me down
We had some fun before we hit the ground

as i have nothing to do due to the stupidness of this cc (fb gn mespes pn tabley bkak.jgn cakab thu.yahoo pn tabley!)..so i choose to post this lyrics without the vc la opkoz.tgk ah nk upload pic pn tabley.apatah lg video.huh!enjoy!~lagu carik ah sendirik.kekeke~
lirik yg sgguh best.called me gwang idc.myahaha~

i'd once promised to myself that im going to be a better person
manala semua tu?
bullshit!
tetap juak cam dulu
lembik gila babey

weyh kai.wake up la bitch!
bila kaw maw sedar
bpijak di bumi?
bukan melayang2 xda arah tujuan
damn u!

what a peaceful life

somebody told me that

stalker trust nobody

really?

i guess for me it goes other way around

-nobody TRUST stalker-

thanks for the day though
i had so much fun
knowing that i have been backstabbed
AGAIN
and the moment i listened to your CT while calling you last night
it reminds me of a girl who was crying and hopeless
trying to reach her boyfriend,or should I say,
her EX BF
6 months ago
without knowing that at that time
her boyfriend was on his way for a new relationship and was proposing another girl to be by his side
to replaced her NOT-SO-PERFECT girl before
that is why i hate the song
i hate your CT
i hate calling you
and i hate BACKSTABBERS
and those who break my TRUST
called me emo or whatever you want
yes i am n i admit it
thank you

chasing cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

*its been a long time since i last heard this song from my phone.yeah.since the last time that 'someone' called me.i used to set this song for that 'someone'.and now.no more.keh3kah3lalala..*sigh**

bogoshipo~

crap in the afternoon

sitting alone in the room
in front of my laptop
surrounded by these tissues and sweaters
and nobody's home
damn.i totally hate this
my head will start reminiscing the memories that i've been trying to avoid these past few months
and those tears will automatically jump out of the cage that i've locked for almost..err..few hours?
when will i stop dreaming and be realistic in life?
damn damn damn!
be realistic kai!
it will never happen.AGAIN.ANYMORE
there's no turning back
for some reason
i really feel like want to perform the umrah once again
there are things that haven't finished between me n MAKKAH
things that i've been asking for,a long time ago
things that i want to ask to the ALMIGHTY once again
though I know i will not get any rigid answer but at least there is a chance for me to ask for forgiveness for all the sins i've made, before and after
things that ended up not in the way that i want it to be
sometimes when we are alone,things tend to be more realistic to us
and makes me realize how foolish i am in making decisions in life.in love
i am not a realistic person.i do not know how to be realistic
but now i know i have to
so that i won't get hurt more in life
but im just a normal person
i see things in my own way
i judge things 70% with my emotion
and the rest??
uff!~what a post~
i think i should take my paracetamol now
assignments assignments!~

astalavista
good day my friends!

ok ok diz will b d last part of my bday k!hee...

million trillion zillion thanx 4 all d wishes n presents!

(starting from my 1st gift~=)))

fara sei.paling awal suda kirim..huhu..

mr nabaish =)

lyn c high pitch!(jg lyn ada lg 1 sbnarny hadiahku!aku ingat tu!hahah!

my kodokz!ciira n chet2!=P

mummy janet!

abang megi!

abang prego!

nanad!

alen!

elma!

bunz-topo-pz!

nad lg!haha..jk~

aiman gn fatah!

mama n baba!!hehehe..tenkiu mak!ba!~

mr ego..xp..PURPLE!~

yeah im 20!--2nd surprise!--

since everybody keep on asking me to update the 2nd surprise, so with the ATP left in my mitochondria to regenerate my energy..(pergh..da la info sembarang..semangat lagi thu!haha)
aku pon menggagahkan diri untuk mengeblog ni..
napa ayat aku malam ni truk sgt lorh??mnangis cikgu malik baca blog aku.
huhu..cut d crap!
k k.napa suma org suka book aku skang?haha..nanad pon camtu. awal2 g da book nak jalan BERDUA la konon an..
aku ni yg tba2 dpt msg seperti menakut dgn ajakan ini.

*minta maaf ya rakan2.pada malam ini mood saya adalah skema dan formal lagi pemalu.(erk..pa kna mngena??)*

lantas setelah mendapat mesej tersebut..aku pun mulala memikirkan segala kemungkinan yg ada

• nanad rindu aku ka?
• maw lecture aku sal smoke tu ka?
• maw smbut bday aku bdua gn dy ka?
• dll.....(tidak dapat dinyatakan di sini)

aku pown menyatakan persetujuanku. temu janji diatur.at first we were supposed to meet on friday tp plan tukar p sabtu.naseb gak la cuz tetiba ptg jumaat ada lecture GU. (dr. karim again??daym!)
pas klas n mam kat kopitiam cikai aku (bak kata syira.tp nc goreng beef dy sdap woo~~)..aku pon meminta pertolongannya untuk menghantar aku ke stesen keretapi batu 3.
aku pula terlupa untuk membeli tiket langsung ke mid.so tpaksa stop kat klc,naek bli tket withdraw duwet n turun lek g mid..
gila ramaila org..aku cam xle bnafas lam thu
da la kecik..wuu~T.T

*(jika anda perhatikan ya rakan2..mood sy tlah btukar kepada yg lebih santai.abaikan perkara tersebut.asalkan anda memahami isi kandungan blog sy)*

*iklan ditaja oleh mcD.boikot israel!*

bila dy smpi..knon2 la dy kata lapar an..maw ajak mam g sushi king..naseb aku da mam kalaw x haram la aku maw join..
bila aku ty pz mana,dgn innocentnya dy wat mukak seposen mntak kesian..so aku pk pz lek tepen la..alalala kecian c nanad (kataku d dalam ati)
smpi ja kat sushi king,nanad lgsung tarik aku masuk.
aik,napa org laen kna Q kitorg xpyh?
masuuukkk ja muka 1st aku noticed.PZ!~
haaa..da agak da ada yg x kena!aku pnyala triak dgn bngga n kuatnya seselamba kodok aku ja.
mmpus la cina2 blakang tu tsedak sushi dgr sora aku.miahaha!
so this is d "kita jalan BERDUA" thing la..haiyo! rminya mereka!

amat-topo-camito-pz-saiful-bunz-alen-elma-julani-hanafi-nanad

tipuu tipuu!aku mmg tkejot gila smpai tlompat2 lam thu xsgka dapat jmp dorg!siot!ni msti nad pny plan an an an?? rnduuu gilaa!!syg xda mimi pja..pdhal d kl juak pon..
xcept 4 mimi la cuz kbetulan lek indon tym thu..wuu~~
i was really2 surprised!ni kalaw x kuat jntung mmg gol jugak aku time thu.2x seprais.siot.haha
agak lama jgkla masa yg diperlukan untuk menenangkn aku kmbali.huhu...
da tlompat sana sini pg meja blakang meja dpn..nanad suh bkak kek..
soooo comey! 16 cute little cupcakes!from nanad i guess!~thx! comey gila!

comey gila babeyyyy!!~

comey an? huhu..thanx thanx thanx! cakab byk pon x guna.mari melihat gmbar2 yg ada!~~

me wit nenek elma!

nanad suap kek.pastu disondolnya g mulut aku!cilaka tol.haha

julani-alen-me suma ex madu!hahaha

nanad-elma-her bf hanafi

d guys!from d left..amat-topo-cami-bunz-saiful-pz

me n nanad!=)

me wit d cupcakes!yummy!

huhu..da 2..nanad g sumbat aku gn sushi..yuckz!~sgguh geli!tapi sedap gak lama2..yala mknan mahal lg free rugila aku x makan..huhuhu
after that we went hanging around mid,jalan2 cr purse nanad,cuci2 mata,took lotta picz..huhu..
besala kalaw namanya dak mktab yg da bkumpul bgmbar trusssss~~~
da dpt bli purse nanad gv me d free gift from TL.apaakaa??
hahaha..
da borink2 kami pon dudukla dpan mid..amek pic lg!~

d guys (without saiful).cm peter pan pown ada

me n d guys...xp

heheh=p

me n puding!

we went back home around 7pm x silap..g umah nanad.mom dy masak..haha tketar2 c pz jmp mak mertua!trep2 baekkk la konon..kamu pkir ak xtaw pa kamu wat....wakaka!
mom dy masak sedaaappp...ikan basung,kari ayam,sayur kubis (my fav!),tofu jepun xsilap.sambal udang,pa lg tah.x ingat.atlis trubat la jgk aku rs air tgn org tawau..omg i miss my mom pny mamam soooo much!~
then pas lex2 suma anta pz n me balik..rasa lega mlm tu cuz dpt mluah sket2 gn nad..xcept for certain things la..huhu...too sensitive..
mmg pwasla mngumpat n tmbah dosa malam thu!wahaha..tiba2 lak idea wat bisnes crossed our mind.haha..k nt aku roger ko k bebeh!

haih..sgguh gumbira!dpt jmp kawan2 lama mmg melegakan hati aku.rasanya xmaw jak kuar dr mrsm dulu
biar lama2 kat sana n xpayah tjumpa gn org2 bkenaan..tp da takdir an..

life must go on!~

yeah i noe dat!huhuhuhu..btw..kpada anda d luar sana yg mnjayakan rancangan ini n panas bntot tggu aku dr kol 11..(nduk bha cian..hehe)

nanad ( d mastermind!)
pz
alen(thx 4 d bracelet!xoxo~)
elma(thx 4 d handbag el!~)
bunz
topo
amat
cami
saiful
hanafi
julani


TERIMA KASIH KALIAN!=)
mwahx!luv y'all!

g.u.y.s

frankly speaking

im SICK

to be exact

im TIRED with GUYS

don't you get it??

i am NOT TAKEN

and i DON'T WANT to

i am NOT INTERESTED to involve in a serious RELATIONSHIP right now

i am HAPPY with my life

though what you guys see is not the real me

i am still recovering from the pain i had before

i am TIRED!

so guys..BACKOFF!!

yeah im 20!--1st surprise!--

finally i got all d pics from lyn just now.miahaha!~
k.now im blur.pa mo start??
hmph3~k. lets start with this guy who had been trying the best he can to 'book' me on that night.haha!
asek2 khamis malam khamis malam.pekejadah??
bwat assignment pulak tu..sal health la konon....as if bob isnt BMSians an?
so i'd rejected all the invitations and dates just to help him on his 'assignment'.huh!keji pny mamat.
short the long (palingla suda bi!)..dy pon pikap la ak..palingla lmbat..n we went to jayati sek 7 xsilap..
lam keta barula taw tu la assignment dy..MAKAN.sabaarrr je laaa an...aku pon dgn gumbiranya makan dan minum tanpa rasa was2 sebab da taw tujuan sebenar...
bila dy anta lek,agak plik ah cuz senyum dy laen macam..(haha i didnt tell u bout diz ryt??xp)
i just ignored that and went back home..xsilap lam 10-15 minutes b4 my burfday..smpi umah,lgsung tuka baju..lek2 kat bilik..

00:00-16 JANUARY 2009!

haha..at last..my burfday! ive been receiving too many messages n calls..smpi naek pning..
MEMI! awak 2nd..ngee~~thx!
suddenly aku dgar sora lyn...
"kaaaaiiiii!!!! bukak pintu!! (sumting like that la cuz i was on d phone at dat time)..jgn kaw kluar sembarang aaaa!!ada laki ni!!"
aku pun panik sial!sapa lak ni??oo myb aiman fatah la lyn bawak ni..byan mummy akak blanche nisak suma suh aku tuka baju.siap suh pki long sleeve ag.maleh da.haha..ingat fatah..dy da besa la tgk aku selekeh..
n they keep on asking me to open the door by myself.apa dorg xley bkak ke???
bukak ja pintu....... DAMN!....its d STALKER GUY!! n rmi siot!
bob,yaz,aya,izut,el,mirul,lyn!tkejot badak aku!
naseb aku x direct kwa ja td..da la pki single strap night gown!babeyyy....
so they sang d ep burpday song..n asked me to potong d cake..
so suwiiittttt...!~~"happy 20th birthday -echa-"
haha..xpala bagi can pggil echa skali..apa nama tah cake tu..banana choc eh?xingat lak..
yummy delicious!~hahaha..ketaq2 anak org pgang kek..cian...hehehehe

there goes my 1st burfday cake..thx pais!~=))

haha..masih terkedu tataw nak watpa..hehe..

potong kek!

lagi tkejot tu aku ingat syira da lek.upanya lom ag!tah mana dorg smbunyi gn lyn..hahaha!~siap msg ep burfday puteri kodokkk g..ceit!
pastu da dorg masuk umah suma then potong cake bla3..my ouzmates dgn pandangan menggoda dan menggerunkan tarik aku masuk toilet..
omg cmana aku ley lupa tradisi tu??shit3!~dorg da siap kunci pintu pa suma..babeyyyy sgt camana ley lupa..mmg blur gila time tu..even org yg dtg umah pn after a few minutes baru leh recognize sapa..i was shocked!haha..
k k terpesong dr landasan lak..smangat btol dorg tarik aku suma..especially nisak mummy byan la!
da burfday dorg suma aku yg wat ramuan kaw2 gila babeyy..nisak ah paling truk..cm *teettt*..haha!
sux gila ah bau dy!cam muntah kodok pny!urghhh~~!eeeeeeeeeee...........!!!!!!!!!
taw pa ramuannya?

sarsi
sos tomato
tepung
minyak
telur
perencah tom yam
air

disaster.daym!tapi still tabley lawan ramuan aku.im still d best!miahaha!
(sapa2 maw mntak tolong aku prank kan anak org tym burfday,juz gimme a call..xp)
aku tpaksa mandi masa tu gak..busuk sial!
sesungguhnya x sggup aku nak bernafas.walawpon x umph cam pa aku wat tapi bau dy b'KICK!'

ni la ramuan beracun dorg..yuckz!diskapling!~

kanak2 paling kejam

menyempat.miahahaha~

paling buruk suda tu!

geliiiiii....

nisak dengan selamba kodoknya menyeksa aku

haha!babi anda babi!saya sayang anda semua!muahaha~takesah la letak sarsi ka telur ka..parampara beta parampara (ayat kabhi kushi kabhi gham-tradisi nak.tradisi)
aku merayu2 mintak mkan kek dulu pon x dbagi! mmg paling kejam la..haha
pas mndi dok lepak gn dorg,balas msg n bkak hadiah suma!wee~~
malas maw tulis pjg2..nnti aku wat blog bg tgk suma hadiah aku..huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu~~

mereka=)

heheeh..maan pny seksa nk siapkn blog ni! gn x mndi x apa lg...ni baru first part..second third lom bwat..duh!
naaaddd...nnt aku bwat ya..leppe uda badanku..huhu..
btw..kepada mereka2 yg terlibat secara lgsung atau tidak lgsung...

pais (thx a lot dude!i noe diz is all ur plan!)
lyn
syira
blanche
mummy
byan
nisak
akak
bob
yaz
aya
elle
izut
mirul

THANX THANX THANX!=)

lots n lots of updates!!

lol..sounds like desperate sgt nk update..miahaha!yeah mmg pown! banyak gila nak update..adoy..nak stat gn pa dulu..hmhm..
maw post sal my burfday but still xdapat amek d pics yg aku nk upload..so later la..
juz now went to sek 7.lunch (la sgt..da kol bp tym 2..haha)
cam bes tpat tuh!byk giler tpat mamam..naek pning aku nak pilih
atlas kitorg p bintang sidewalk cafe..err..i mean..me n d DOTA GUY..haha(jgn mara....=p)..cambes gak
tgk menu ja nak tmuntah aku..byknya!
tataw pilih!~~western ada local ada dessert ada..ice cream cake!wuuhuuu~
akhirnya memandangkan aku masih mengekalkan adat2 ketimuran yg tggi maka aku pn order la mi goreng naratiwat ke ape tah...cm2 ah..pais psan lagila aku tataw nama..cm briyani..heheh..
n ice chocolate!
wadus..aku rs brapa ari ni makan trussss aku..mayur makan seyh!


well mr pais..cubaan untuk menggemukkan sy tidak bjaya..miahaha..sy slim lg!..xp
yummy!cedap!~

err..aku rasa la an instead of cubaan menggemukkan aku..dy yg sdang mggemukkan diri sendiri..hahaha

makanan yg telahpun habis dibedal oleh insan2 kebulur..haha~

huahua..tu ja pon aku nak post skang..tatawla pa tujuan aku post ni..nk pic bday!uwaa!:'(
cpat lyn!

i'll be updating veeerrrryyyy sssooonnnn kayh!~