luahan hati.ceh.tiba-tiba

Too much things going on recently and i find it hard for me to accept some part of them. being far away from each of my friends gives me a lot of time to think what is what and which is which. too much drama, too much hypocrisy. enough is enough. i can't bear with that anymore.

Sometimes i feel like i've been so left out. tup2 tiba2 aku dengar itu ini and i was like 'really?','owh,ok'. and 'omg!'. Where i find that 'people change' is so true and im gonna stick with that for forever. yeah. no doubt.

I've been thinking and searching in too deep just to know that life is hard, and not as simple as we think it is. Like Bella Swan said in Twilight, 'Life is hard, death is peaceful.' (takdala peaceful sangat kalaw mati amal xcukup). But for sure, life is short. And i keep questioning myself, is it right? all the things that i've done, is that what I want or am i doing this just to satisfy everybody around me?

Terlalu banyak yang terbuku dalam hati and kepala hotak aku sampai satu masa aku rasa macam nak meletup. Idk who I can trust, to share all my thoughts and feelings. kalaw aku cakap dgn org ni, dy bkait plak dgn org ni. and bila aku ckp dgn org ni..pun xboleh jugak..rasa stuck gila. im tired of pretending, tired of acting nice. cheerful and happy in front of those people when the fact is, I don't.

I hate being alone. Every single thing keep on bugging me.argh!im clueless!idk what to do!

Dear Almighty, please have mercy on me..show me what to do..

"Destiny is not a matter of chance,it is a matter of choice;it is not a thing to be waited for,it is a thing to be achieved."

p/s: thanks for the quote ray senpai :)