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why

kenapa aku suka sakitkan hati sendiri dan mencari masalah sedangkan kehidupan yang sedia ada lebih dari cukup untuk buat aku bahagia?

kenapa harus terkejar-kejar dengan yang tiada sedangkan yang di depan mata lebih dari cukup untuk buat aku dihargai?

itulah namanya kehidupan.tak pernah puas.tak pernah serik.tak pernah bersyukur.

dan tak pernah putus asa mengejar sesuatu yang bukan milik kita.lagi.

promises were made to be broken.

a quick update

ok peeps!im going back in an hour!so sebelum aku bakal meniadakan bekalan internet ke laptop aku ni..i just wanna wish u all a prosperous and joyful hari raya aidilfitri!~

minta maaf zahir dan batin kalaw ada salah dan silap,terkasar bahasa terlanjur kata tersalah tingkah eceh.ebat jugak aku buat ayat2 hari raya ni...halalkan makan minum aku gn korang sumak!

duet raya amatlah dialu2kan so kepada yg nak bg tu sila sms aku utk num akaun :D:D:D

so that's all i think!we'll meet again after one week i guess.oh and yes,please pray for my final exam.i HATE exam omg!grr~

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

sincerely me...

[kakai]

c cupido yg tepos :)

ya para pembaca sekalian.jangan betulkan siaran anda.mahupun kaca tv anda.itupun kalaw anda semua baca blog saya pakai skrin tv la.this is my ayg.hahaha.ayg mrh x sy post pic ni?jgn mrh nnt kena jualll~hee ilyt!:P

aku pn xtawla napa aku post gambar ni.maybe utk memberi gambaran betapa peliknya chentaku ni.hahaha.he is weird.gila.ngok.sot.and segala macam lagila.but yes he is the one im deeply in love with :)

the best thing about him that he can get along with my friends.almost all of them.even kwn aku yg baru brapa jam kenal dy pon bleh warning kat aku..dorg kata.kalaw aku wat dy sakit ati,dorg taw tu bukan salah dy tp salah aku.ceit!beginikah persahabatan kita dr form 3 smpai skunk?hanya kerana c knon2 sam bunkface ni korg meminggirkan aku?isk~tah apa guna2 ayg pki smpi dorg pny pandangan gn dy gitu.ceit~

and then beliau sgt serius bila wat keja.especially when it comes to his passion,cooking.i love seeing him commitedly doing his work..even prepare sahur and buka posa kitorg pn dy cyez gila.ish ni la aku xsuka laki pndai masak,bila aku salah sikit bising ja..tawla ayg terer sy xterer masak an.tp sukatila.huh!lalala.so d moral of the story is,kepada rakan2 perempuan sy sekalian,kalaw korg tanak gemok or rasa terpinggir di dapur,jgn carik bf chef.susah.lihatlah badan sy sekarang.seperti blue hyppo dalam iklan tmnet.

hmm..ayg ni gila2.mmg otak sot la.suka bnda2 plik.suka wat bnda2 plik.pakai bnda2 plik.tp rasanya sejak kitorg kapel cam da tkawal sket kpelikan dy tuh.dunno why.hehehe.sempoi gila.that's one of the reason yg buat aku tertarik nak knal gn dy.kesempoiannya.hahaha..rilek ja selamba pakai slipar jepun ijau dy tu jalan p mana2.tp still kemas.and his hair.believe me rambut dy lagi lembut and lawa dr rambut aku.pergh.xpecaya p rasa sndiri.tp mntak izin aku dulula.hahaha :P

tp aku paling x suka bila dy tgh drive.muka nak ketat ja.mcm nak makan kasut aku.org bcakap gn dy cam ckap gn pintu keta.atlis ckp gn pintu tu kita taklah saket ati sgt an taw jugak pintu tu xda mulut.yg ni ada mulut tanak bcakap.haih!baba drive pon xdala camtu yg oi..ok ja.xla ketat cm org pinggang saiz 30 pki jeans saiz 25 cm awak tuh.huh.

sometimes dy slalu wat surprise kat aku.cam aritu aku ada nak sgt gn satu beg tu kat uptown.kaler biru.mmg lawala,simple ja tp kaler dy cantik.every time aku g uptown aku msti dok tgk beg tu.then 1 day kitorg bwak b p uptown,sajala jalan2.then he asked me to bwak b jalan2 dulu,dy g jalan sorg2.biasa manalah aku nak renggang gn dy..tp ari tu aku excited kot nak bwak b jenjalan as if b x pnah jejak kaki sana an.hehe.pastu kitorg jmp balik, then smpi kat kedai beg tuh.aku belek2 lg,tp x bli gak tem tuh.sket lg nak bli tp pk nak jimat aku tahan dulu.

dh smpi kat keta aku tetiba bad mood.tah napa x ingat.phm2 ja la aku kan ratu pms.dy plak sondol2 aku gn beg plastik apa tah.aku wat donno la dah bad mood.dah smpi dpan perdana barulah dy suh aku bukak.upanya dy p bli beg tu utk aku!hehehehe..padanlah suh aku jalan2 gn b..pastu masa kat kdai tu knon2 tnya aku,'yg,kaler yg mana lawa tu,yg ni kn?'*while pointing at the bag that i've been eyeing for ages hehe*..trus xjadi bad mood aku sal tkejut and happy.hehe..tq yg!

another 1 yg aku still ingat masa dorg culinaire.mmg bodo gilala cuz aku merajuk sal bnda yg xpatot.adaka sal aku xdpt name tag yg ada nama aku cam nabil bwat utk b aku marah gila2 kat dy..dahlah dy tgah pnat gila kot tem tuh,aku lak wat perangai..hmm..then the next day masa nak p mam,he gave me mr kalor!x ingat??click here.i was veryyy shocked!and touched!cuz duwet dy bli tu dy pki duwet makan dy..isk~thx ayg..though sy slalu wat perangai tp awk slalu sabar gn sy..

him and mr.kalor~hee~

ada byk lg bnda aku nk ckp..tp mmg xlaratlah.lgpun,bkn smua bleh kongsi..hehe..i just want him to know that i love him so much.ily ayg..i really do..sorry for the day i let you down..the day i 'betrayed' you..the day i really2 hurt you..:(

i won't do it again..i don't want him anymore..i want you..only you..get it syg?we'll go through everything together okay?thanks for being there for me,through my joy and pain,laugh and tears..imysm baby!~just another week and we'll see each other again :)

here comes the freak.haha.

~ily syed muhammad nafis~

090909

pada 9hb september yang lalu,eceh cam karangan bm upsr plak.ok2 actually it was my lucky day!woo!~090909.aku dpt rm50 free oo..hehehe.k here's the story.masa tu aku baru abis beli mamam gn ayg kat bazar.then bila dah nk blik tiba2 tnampak ada myTV3 rovers stop bwat contest pejadah tah.so sajala singgah jap mggedik2 tgk the 3 jejakass yg sgt comel.auw!after that ada satu contest tuh,we've ben asked to type whatever the guys said and who's d fastest to give them your hp and type the right words with exact spelling will win a hamper by wrigley's doublemint chewing gum.WRIGLEY'S ok.not WRIGLEYS.and i was like,wow sy leh menang ni yg.(yala da nama kaki menaip an.msg pjg2 tutup mata pn bleh.).so dgn yakinnya aku pn ikutlah.the ayat was "nafas lebih segar dan tahan lebih lama dengan wrigley's doublemint chewing gum".

so i did typed everything dgn btul and d 2nd fastest bg hp aku gn abg2 myTV3 tuh.dgn muka bangga.tp aku lupa satuuu ja.aku letak WRIGLEYS and not WRIGLEY'S!punyalah!padahal dorg dah terang2 letak hamper tu kat atas keta nak bg tgk ejaan.aku pulak gn SOMBODOHnya tanak tgk and taip sekati sekilo aku.damn!aku tlepas la prize tuh.mmg byk gilalah chewing gum mcm2 jenis dy bg.maw muntah darah jgaklah kalaw dpt hamper tu.huh~so dgn hati yg duka laranya aku pn angkatlah kaki saiz 4 aku ni dari sana.

luckily my syg ni mmg skak mencapub.haha!(jgn mrh ayg!ilyt!)..no la..dy mmg suka ikut contest2 ni.so ada another contest,dy pn ameklah borang.mula2 dy yg ya ya nak last2 aku jugak yg kna ikot.actually dy nak ikot pasal nak kebas pen yg dorg suh guna nak tulis tuh,unfortunately awal2 dorg dah suh bg balik.haha.d rule is you have to create any words from d word DOUBLEMINT.sapa paling banyak dpt RM50 cash.CASH ok bukan cek yg kena tggu bpa hari or replika2 bodoh tu.so dah dgar duit2 ni smangat lah aku kn.so ikut je la.

dgn bbekalkan badan ayg sbgai alas,aku pn tulislah wtv pkataan tlintas kat kepala aku ni.bm pny mmg aku x pas.bi suma aku men hentam.ada sorg uncle sebelah aku ni,smangat gila kot.aku pun takut tgk dy.ayg plak memainkan peranan mnjadi mata ke-3.hahaha.xmaen tipu taw 1 je pkataan dy curik dr pakcik tu.laen suma kitorg cari sendiri.

then lpas 2 minit,kna bg balik form tu.dug dag dug dag jgaklah aku kn.tem tuh xdala bharap sgt cuz ada 2 org minah n pakcik-so-semangat tu mcm ada can je nak menang.tp aku tggu ja dgr abg2 tu dok kira markah.ada yg tulis ngarut2 pn ada.haha!before my name ada minah tu dpt highest,16 words.aku dah cuak dah..yela aku letak 20 words tp xtaw btul ke x.ala dengar cam sedap sebut tu letak je la.then smpila form aku..dorg cek satu2..and none of the was wrong!omg!i did it!the rest of d papers after me x dikira cuz they only got around 8-9 words.woohoo!!~~~mmg muka aku xbleh blah lah time tuh!walaupun aku x nmpak tp mmg aku taw la muka buruk aku!hahaha.tp xkesah apa dah.dulik hapa muka buruk yg pnting dpt rm50!wooo!~

this is it!the money that we won!

and guess what did we bought using that money?ir ir ir~i bought 2 bra and 3 panties..and also hush puppies pny briefs for ayg.wahaha!ngokngek an?ada jugaklah teringat nak post the pics an tp zaman trsebut dah berlalu.dah pndi malu dah.dulu x.hahaha.(kpd sapa yg pnah nampak 'that pics' kat mespes aku dorg tawla.hehe). and yeah,its worth it! :)

tq myTV3!and the hot jejakass!luv yah all!mwah!-ceh cam mnang award plak.hehe.t.a.f!

sudah lama tidak meng'update' dengan yakin

fuh!baru abis packing barang nak balik kampung.and maen ddr buat kali terakhir sbelum bcuti slama sminggu.kira psediaanlah untuk kenaikan lemak yg melampau hari raya ni.skang badn terasa sgt berat dan debab.tapi bila xmakan nasik muka cengkung cam nenek kebayan.argh sgguh bingung!makan nasik stengahlah.boleh x?

baru perasan lama gila x update dgn yakinnya.ya ya ada jugakla tp mngarut2 ja.haha.sesungguhnya sy amatlah busy rakan2 dan taulan sekalian.harap maaflah.kalaw x busy pn,bila da tulis tajuk,trus blank.padahal before that idea dtg mencurah2 ke ladang gandum.haih.sgt byak yg nak dikongsi bersama pembaca sekalian.kalaw ada pembacala hehe.tp xpa sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit.lepas tu dah jadi bukit xlarat nak daki.smpi bdaki2.eh eh apakah aku mngarut ni.!

ok2.sok nak balik melaka untuk raya.sgt bosan!i don't like celebrating my raya there.it has been 2 years in a row,celebrating eid without the real ketupat made from pulut dibungkus gn daun kelapa (i guess) and not the instant one.and without my nenek comel..:'(..i miss my granny.

inilah dia nenek sy yg comel bak kata nanad.hehehe.kembang semangkuk nenek aku.i think this is the last eid we celebrated together before I came to shah alam to further my study.beza beraya kat melaka gn kunak is...sana xramai sgt org..kalaw kat melaka..pergh.boleh runtuh rumah arwah atan aku.gn budak2nya lagi..its not that i dont like kids.i loovveee kids!but not the mengada2 one.rasa mcm nak lempang ja.or sumbat bunga api ke mercun ke lam mulut dorg suh dorg diam.or ikat kat pokok rambutan kat bwah umah atan so dorg x lari2 gedebak gedebuk and making all those irritating noise yg bwat aku xleh nak study and rehat gn tenang.grr~

another one is the foods there are sgt superb compare to kat melaka.haha!bias gila kot aku ni.sory baba..jgn diskaunkan duit raya k.hee~tp btullah.sapa boleh lawan hajah mupie pny kuah kacang?the best in tawau and kunak man!and some say in kk oso la.hehe.waaa i really miss d moment with my family in Tawau!

tapi tu lah.dah adat kena gilir2.my father decided to sambut raya here.tp bgus sket dorg dtg cni ptg raya 1st..so nenek kunak aku xdalah terasa sgt..yala anak dia ada 2 ja kot..kalaw dah mak aku xbalek sapa lagi nak balik..aunt aku ja..xpa nek..nnt nisa balik cuti nisa tinggal ma nenek kasi kawan nenek k!:)..(walaupun nenek xpndai baca..tp xpa kita ada itu homeopati telepati watever i dunno.haha.)

err..yg sebenarnya entry ni bkan utk aku tulis sal raya..tp xpala da bpereggan2 aku karang baru perasan dah out of topik.haha.excited nak raya tu la pasal.so kesimpulannya di sini..im going back to jasin tmr morning with my aunt..my dad,mom and bro will arrived the day after tmr..and we'll be celebrating eid here..AGAIN for me.wargh!xpala.yg pnting..det raya!yeah!

i don't think this will be my last post for today cuz im in the mood for many updatesss!so i'll wish you all later ok.toodles for now!terasa nak makan megi plak.

~harharharharunsalimbachik~

ordinary

there are times when i suddenly feel bored being ordinary.

i wanna do great stuffs.

i wanna achieve great things.

i wanna be special and different than the others around me.

i want people to remember me for any awesome things that i did (if i ever have one)

but hey. i guess being me might be the best thing in my life.

im not fashionable.

im not trendy.

im not that up-to-date like you people.

im not intelligent or superb enough to be adored.

im just being me.

so do not under estimate me. i might look weak and getting weaker day by day,physically.

but I have strong will and determination to achieve what I want.

do not insult the way i dressed up, or what I am up to right now.

even if what I bought or wear is not 'in', what that has to do with you?

i might look fat in that jeans. or looks like a clown wearing that kind of attire.

i might look shorter and uglier with those stupid clothes stuck on my body.

but at least i do not go around naked right?

so let me be, its me and my passion.


any problem?

Blanche Bridget Banevinsol

diva-kodok-getek

chet2 zaman rambut pendek

your birthday and genting an?

genting and pais's burfday hur2~

masa kita maw balik..and bk kesayangan kita haha!

bk and ikram's burfday

eh eh sorry chet2..haha!~

:)

For all the times you made me smile, thank you.

For all the times you held my hand, thank you.

For all the times you smiled at me, thank you.

For all the times you listened to me when no one else would, thank you.

For all the times you encouraged me, thank you.

For all the times you hugged me, thank you.

For all the times you shared a part of yourself with me, thank you.

For all the times you kissed me on the cheek, thank you.

For all the times you gave me a ride somewhere, thank you.

For all the times you asked to spend time with me, thank you.

For all the times you trusted me, thank you.

For all the times you complimented me, thank you.

For all the times you cared about my well being, thank you.

For all the times you said "I love you", thank you.

For all the times you thought of me, thank you.

For all the times you brought me joy, thank you.

For all the times you were there when I needed you, thank you.

For all the times you missed me, thank you.

For all the times you gave me comfort, thank you.

For all the times you looked in my eyes and filled my heart with a song, thank you.

For all of this:

Never forget that when I smile at you, I'm saying "I love you. "

Never forget that my hand is always outstretched toward you.

Never forget that I am always here to listen to you.

Never forget that I will always stand behind you.

Never forget that I plan to hug you at least twice everyday.

Never forget that I am an open book to you.

Never forget that I wish I was the roof of your car ( inside joke. ; ) )

Never forget that you need only ask me for anything, and it's yours.

Never forget that I want to spend time with you.

Never forget that I completely trust you.

Never forget that I think you are the most beautiful girl in the world.

Never forget that I care about you more than anything else in the world.

Never forget that I do love you, weather I say it or not.

Never forget that I'm thinking of you right now.

Never forget that you bring me joy, especially when you smile.

Never forget that I am always here for you.

Never forget that I missed you to.

Never forget that I am here anytime you need comforting.

Never forget that I still get lost in your eyes.

movies ah!

grr!~byk gila movie aku tertinggal!isk~

Hannah Montana: The Movie
Monsters vs. Aliens
Race to Witch Mountain
Street Fighter: The Legend of Chun-Li
Confessions of a Shopaholic
He's Just Not That into You
Push
The International
The Proposal
Ghosts of Girlfriends Past
Land of the Lost
The Taking of Pelham 123
G.I. Joe: The Rise of Cobra
Aliens in the Attic
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
I Love You, Beth Cooper
Public Enemies
My Sister's Keeper


aaa tekanan jiwa!xpa2..aku akan pastikan aku dapat jgk p tgk movies ni!kalaw yg dah x release aku wat cinema sndiri p tgk sorang2!huh!



ayg!b!the proposal plss....

kalor

who wants to give the XXL size of this mr.Kalor??i would looovvveeee you till the end!
Mr.Kalor,wait for me! I'll bring you home bebeh~

Permission

So what’s the plan now?
Are we or won’t we?
So what’s the deal now?
Should we or shouldn’t we?

You’ve taking over my head again,
I’m folding each memory in,
Asking permission to keep it in your

Empty,
When will you love again,
Empty.. is what you are,
Without the nice things you had before

So what was it to you
Were we or weren’t we?
Did it come back for you?
Now there you finally see

It’s already been gone too long
I shoudn’t have pick up the phone
I’m asking permission to pretend
That we’ve moved on

Empty,
Is what you’ll find in here
Empty..is you’ll see,
A lot of things i’ve offered you

What am i to you?
Was i or wasn’t i?
So what you said was true,
Did you or didn’t you?

You’ve taking over my head again,
I’m folding each memory in,
Asking permission to keep it in your hands

Empty,
When will you love again,
Empty.. is what you are,
Without the nice things you had before

Was it love to you?

que sera sera

que sera,sera...
whatever will be,will be...
the future's not ours to see...
que sera,sera...
what will be...will be...

unfair

only God knows why.
this feelings still lingers here.


it's torturing me.
to act normally in front of everybody when my heart is actually torn in two.
when all the good things come and cherish my life,
a quick thought of you whoosh them away.completely.


it's unfair.
totally unfair.

mid sem yg mantab

haih!!penat gila.mentally and physically.i think this is the worst exam i ever did in my entire life.first time kot aku xjwb esei and instead i wrote 'sorry miss,im blank' kat ktas jwapan.bravo kai!mana kaw maw cari bgitu?wahaha..wtvwtf lah.aku mmg da pnat n surrender gila2 da masa tu.sapa suruh p study last minute?p study PHM dulu napa?hehe..my bad.lantakla tamaw pkir.
aa last nite cam byk gila kot nak update,arini blank la plak.haiz.ooya me n blanchet had officially moved in into farah's house.wee!~amek master bedroom,err..bkas bilik miss artis-lah-sgt tu.hee mati aku.lantakla.kaw pkir kaw ebat sgt delete aku dr fb?weh aku x eranla :D.k k stop it.who cares anyway :)

hmm2.there are so many things that keeps bugging my head.sometimes i feel like my life is once again,meaningless.this fucking MSU really pissed me off man!wadahel bila abis degree tak boleh nak carik keja?so wasup with d RM60k yg sekalian umat kna bayar kalaw xleh keja?do you want us to stick to ur fucking mASSu for d rest of our life?skunk pon da ramai yg memindahkan diri mereka.ada yg g MAHSA la,g RUSIA la,g ANDALAS la..xkurg juga yg pndah p BBM.hehe.tp pokoknyalah kan dorg xdala tstuck gn BMS ni.haizzz!~tension2!~org tgk ja aku rilek xpk apa sal BMS xiktiraf ni.tp dlm ati sapa taw?i didnt chose to be here utk tanam anggurrr...aku maw jd dukturrr....naa leh jadi pantun da..lalala~

yg sbenarnya..byk lg aku nk mmbebel.tp tiba2 la plak tgoda tgk chet2 tdo..aigoo~off la dulu.chalo beta!babai!~

bosan

terasa buhsan guna blogger pny account.
nak try LJ la.simple ja.hehe
btw gud luck syg!all the best.ily!~
2 months already.
n ily more n more each day.mwah!
(geli plak aku)
k nak smbung customize profile kat LJ.
oya btw im thinking of re-activating my skype account.
so sapa2 ada skype do add me k.
khaieysha160189.kot.tahengat.hehe
daa!

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