:: Khaieysha's ::

Enzim

2012-01-09T17:18:00.003+08:00

Mana pergi ke'tough'an aku.

Baru kena reject sekali dah down berhari2.

Baru cari kerja tak sampai sebulan dah macam orang cari kerja setahun tak dapat2.

Chill la.

Kepada para pemangkin hidup;

Mama : for your neverending ceramah sampai tahap dah boleh buat buku.

Baba : for being the coolest baba di muka bumi.

Baby bro: err untuk beg Zara? Haha. Walaupun kau x ingat kak Icha but I know you never forget me in your prayer. Well, it's the thought that counts right?

Nenek : for being my comellest nainai choleng *and penyumbang dana tetap setiap bulan hihi*

Sayang : untuk ceramah2 awak setiap kali saya mengadu kat awak and serius rasa macam nak sepuk tapi tak boleh sebab sayang. :D

Buddies : sebab selalu ada masa susah senang aku, and selalu bagi semangat kat aku. you know who you are :)

And most of all, thank you for never giving up on me.

2012(3)

2012-01-05T02:59:00.007+08:00

2012 (2)

2012-01-05T02:40:00.003+08:00

Chill lah. Tadi nak memerut, terbantut idea. Sekarang dah lega. Fuhh.

Where were we? Ahah. Happy New Year! Apa azam tahun baru? yadayadayada. Boooorriinnngg. Sebab memang tak akan tertunai pun azam. Tapi tiba2 terdetik nak menyenaraikan elektron2 dalam diri.

Electrons

*penakut

-Semua benda pun nak takut. The thing that I hate the most about me is my fear of driving. Lesen dah berhabuk, dalam rekod memang bersih punya tak ada salah. Mestilah, nak ada rekod macam mana kalau pegang stereng pun boleh kira pakai jari kaki. Boo you bish!

*budak2

-Haih. This one cannot go. Malas nak ulas sebab sesetengah orang ja yang selalu kena.

*bangun lewat

-I gotta admit that I'm not a morning person. My morning is your afternoon. This is one very bad habit that I have to change since I MAYBEEEEE gonna start working soon.

*procrastinate

-Well, that happens sometimes. Not all the time, since I'm a well-organized person (really?)

*malas

-Malas nak bersihkan muka letak krim itu ini pastu komplen muka banyak jerawat pastu dengki tengok orang kulit putih gebu then nak jadi macam dorang but still end up picit jerawat sendiri instead of letak ubat jerawat. Fuh one go punya bebel. Urgh katakan tidak kepada jerawat!

*nafsu buas

-Aip! haruslah nafsu berkaitan seperti makan dan shopping. hmm. Tapi shopping rasanya dah cukup, except for handbags. and purse. and sling bag. and flat shoes. and wedges. and 3 pairs of jeans. and the list goes on. see. haih. -.-

*jahat

-Dengan siapa? Tuhan ja yang tahu. sobss. sorry.

What else? Silalah memberitahu kalau ada. :)

2012

2012-01-05T02:25:00.003+08:00

An update. Finally.

I'm in dire need of a new laptop/netbook/notebook. Like, finally, setelah dimarah/dileter dan yang sama waktu dengannya, I've decided to replace my Mr.Inspiron sixfourthousand for good.

Suggestions, anyone?

Happy New Year!

*sungguh tak berkualiti, baik tak payah update. hewhew.*

Entah.

2011-08-16T23:36:00.001+08:00

Two years in a serious relationship. Well, that wasn't me. But that is, now.

Considering the fact that I'm the most boring person in the world, with my hot-tempered perangai and stupid, irrational mood swing yang tak tentu pasal, queen control, lepas baran kat orang lain, tak tahulah berapa lama lagi orang tahan.

And yes, benda paling pantang dalam hidup aku adalah kena tipu. Walaupun penipuan yang remeh temeh.

Tapi sekarang, aku kesian sangat dengan orang tu. Tapi dalam masa yang sama, aku teringat balik benda2 orang tu buat dulu kat aku. Even though obviously, what he did is NOTHING compared to what I did behind him.

Why?

I'm sorry.

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Dateline(s)

2011-08-10T02:42:00.003+08:00

11/8/11: Draft log book/ lab report.

13/8/11: Iftar with Najwa and the rest *insya Allah*.

15-16/8/11: Thesis presentation.

20/8/11: Iftar with Tawauians.

22-26/8/11: VIVA.

28/8/11: Final submission for thesis.

??/8/11: Final submission for log book/lab report

24/8/11: KL-KK!

25/8/11: KK-TWU!

Kalau betul tesis hantar 28hb, memang aku mati nak kena siap awal gila.

Kalau betul presentation 15-16hb, memang aku mati separuh.

Kalau VIVA aku dapat 22 or 23hb, separuh lagi mati.

Kesimpulannya, 2 minggu ni jangan kacau aku dengan benda2 tidak bermoral! I have to fill up my last 2 weeks as as student of Bachelor of Medical Sciences dengan sebaik2 alam!

Sumpah aku habis ja semua ni aku nak p makan sedap2. SERIUS SHIT.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Night.

SMN #3

2011-08-08T21:08:00.004+08:00

Rindu tahu tak.

Thank you sebab ada lagi untuk saya sampai sekarang

Walaupun saya fikiran cetek/childish/kuat mengeluh/panas baran/moody/etc

Tapi sampai sekarang ada lagi awak kat sini. Tak tahulah sampai bila, kalau boleh mestilah nak sampai bila-bila.

Sorry sebab selalu uji sabar awak. Saya tak sabar macam awak.

Saya minta awak tahan sikit ja lagi sampai saya habis degree.

Lepas tu awak boleh cuti kejap daripada menjadi mangsa lepas tension saya sebelum saya sambung belajar lagi. Boleh? Hebat tak saya bagi cuti kat awak? Hehe

Nak jumpa. Lepas ni dah balik Tawau cmana nak jumpa. Nanti awak jumpa awek2 hot kat sana saya cmana. Da la saya ni tak hot, pendek, gemuk, pemanas lagi tu

Tsk :'(

Tapi gluteus maximus saya hot, mana ada orang yang ada glutmax lagi hot dari saya.

Suka tak? Hehe *gila*

Ilysm. Thank you for everything, thank you for your immeasurable support and love in my life.

Happy 799 days ♥

Cravingness

2011-08-08T20:10:00.005+08:00

Deep Fried Chicken Wings, Full House *YUMMM!*

Alfredo Spaghetti, Full House *YUMMM!*

Baked Potato, Wondermilk *YUMMM!*

Chicken Lasagna, Baci *OHSEMMM!*

Bolognese, Baci *OHSEMM NUMBER 2!*

Kimchi Jigae, Gomone *YUMMM!*

Dak Bulgogi, Gomone *YUMMM!*

Thank you Najwa and Ecah yang melunaskan keinginan Wondermilk, Nanad and Fiza for Gomone *thanks for the treat Nad!* and of course my favorite guy sebab sanggup layan nak tukar tempat duduk hanya sebab nak ambil gambar background kartun2 kat Full House -.- And yes for the treat too!

I love my tummy! Eat eat eat!

Tired

2011-08-08T19:58:00.002+08:00

In life, you will come to an end point where you can't think of anything to do.

You are too tired to think, act, move, eat, sleep *sleep also can tired oneee*

I've been dealing with too much pressure, that explains my terrible mood swing for the past 2 weeks.

Thesis, log book, lab report, presentation, viva

Stupid, brainless people

MBBS, Master ???

Yeah, that's it. I'm tired. Exhausted to be exact. I need a day out with my favorite person, but he's far far away, busy making money and can't even take a good care of himself.

Ya Allah, please show me the way, give me the strength, shower me with your blessings. Amin.

Bab bab!

2011-07-14T19:15:00.002+08:00

Wa memang mulut macam cibai sikit tapi wa sayang kawan2 wa

Lu tak payah nak sentap2 gn wa wa ketok pala lu karang

Kalau lu ada terasa gn wa wa minta maaf la

Kadang2 apa wa cakap memang tak masuk akal, tapi kadang2 apa wa cakap untuk kebaikan dan cita2 lu jugak

Love you ecah bab bab!

*kita tengok sapa bikin hal besar ini post. ngeh3*

Kecik sangat ke?

2011-07-14T00:01:00.004+08:00

Kes 1 :: Nak beli cincin kat kedai atas talian

Masalah

-Saiz tak ada. besar sangat. besar sikit. ada saiz, sampai2 bila cuba longgar lagi. dah boleh main cincin macam main2 dengan super ring.

Penyelesaian

-Kena bertungkus lumus cari cincin kat flea market e-curve,sg.wang,etc. or ketuk2 sikit cincin tu bagi saiz jadi kecil. jual memang takkanlah, aksesori kegemaran tu.

Kes 2 :: Nak beli kasut. Atas talian dalam talian luar talian semua talian

Masalah

-Saiz tak ada. tak ada dan tak pernah ada.

-Flats: cotton on: ada. BOM: dulu ada, sekarang dah tak muat. tak tahulah kaki yang mengecut atau kasut2 kat sana dah mengembang. vincci: kadang2 ada. nose: jarang2 ada

-Sneakers: TAK PERNAH ADA !@#$%^&*()

Penyelesaian

-Flats: pakai kasut lama ja

-Sneakers: beli kasut size budak2. Converse budak2, nike kids, semua kids.

Kes 3 :: Pakaian

-TAK PAYAH REVIEWLAH PENDEK KATA SEMUA TAK MUAT/PANJANG/BESAR.

TENSION TAHU TAK! NAK BUAT KILANG KASUT/BAJU/AKSESORI SENDIRILAH!

*UPDATED*

Oh, actually satu2nya benda yang tak perlu risau adalah apa2 pakaian yang memerlukan ukuran di bahagian ehem buttock, kerana gluteus maximus saya sudah cukup mantab untuk menampungnya. Terima kasih Eg kerana mengingatkan saya!

Mari sambung angan2 impian

2011-07-06T18:45:00.006+08:00

16 places I wanna go for food hunting in 5 months time

Bubba Gump
Strawberry Field
Delicious
Paddington House of Pancakes
~~Full House~~ *yes I'm lame haven't got there yet*
~~Gomone~~ *just to eat that thingamajig. Oh, chicken. And rice.*
Chilli's
Nando's *pernah makan tapi nak makan kat sana*
T.G.I.F
Ole-Ole Bali
Bumbu Desa
Marche Movenpick Restaurant
Ma'cik Briyani
The Apartment
Secret Garden
~~Wondermilk~~

Malas gila nak upload gambar. Nanti bila dah pergi saya akan upload yeyy!

Any other suggestions?

What I really want right now

2011-07-05T23:07:00.002+08:00

1. A car. Doesn't matter my Kenari or a new one *cough cough*. And of course, the courage to drive it. Argh!

2. Back at home, goyang2 bontot dan makan dengan sedapnya. And bergelak ketawa bersama keluarga.

3. I wanna learn baking and cooking. Doing it right now, slowly.

4. Finish my degree, and naikkan CGPA.

5. Lots of money. So that I can buy these:

* new notebook

* instax camera

* galaxy tab

* and the list goes on

6. Wish for my dearest to be here. Enough with your workaholic syg, you're younger than me but yet you look older. Jangan sampai awak jadi macam sugar daddy saya pulak -.-

7. Foods. And eat it without feeling guilty. Preferably cheesy and spicy.

8. Thesis siap dalam sekelip mata.

DONE.FOR.TONIGHT. Wishlist lain akan diupdate semasa ke semasa.

Offended

2011-07-05T18:12:00.002+08:00

This is not for anybody in particular.

What's wrong with plan B?

Us, who have been in this situation for 3 bloody years, have been familiar with this thing. Broken promises, fake manifesto and all. Go to hell with that shit. I don't care anymore. Well, I do but does that makes any difference, since we are finishing in less than 3 months time. So just go with it. Nothing changed.

The thing is, I can't stand people who take 'Plan B' for granted. Or look down at those who have this 'Plan B' in mind. What's wrong with that? Are you hell sure that you're gonna be a doctor? You're damn sure that you gonna pursue MBBS and pass with flying colors?

I'm not being pessimistic. I adore those who have the determination and courage to carry on and speak out. I don't have any problem with that, AT ALL. But stop looking at us, the 'Plan B's' guys as if we're not gonna succeed if we don't take the actual road. Don't get me wrong, being a doctor has always been my ultimate ambition. But sometimes, I stumble, I fall and I had and still having a hard time trying to get back up. Don't tell me you never gave up in life. Kerat jari kalau cakap tak pernah.

That's when the 'Plan B' helps. It gives you hope to carry on with whatever you are doing with your life. It gives you something to hold on to, something that would make you believe there's light at the end of the tunnel. I understand how much those people wants to be a doctor. The prestige, the ambition, the satisfaction of saving life. Don't we feel the same way too? Cuma Tuhan bagi kami jalan yang berliku, sedikit susah daripada yang lain2. Jadi kenapa pandang kami sebelah mata?

And those who plan to go to the 'not taken road' tu pun, cut off your negative thoughts. Tak payah nak pengaruh orang lain yang betul2 nak benda tu. Tak payah nak hasut macam2. You go on with your plan, and let them do theirs. Masing2 ada rezeki masing2. We just gotta work hard and go for it.

So, yeah, be it my bff or someone I'm not that close to, I'm terribly offended. Because I do have 'Plan B' but I still work hard to follow the flow. Being a doctor is not easy, you're handling with people's life. That is my only concern. I'm afraid I can't handle this. I still don't have the courage to hold on to that responsibility. But I do really want to be a part of it.

After all, bukankah Allah SWT adalah sebaik-baik perancang, dan rancanganNya adalah yang terbaik?

Supaya tak lupa

2011-05-27T23:37:00.006+08:00

I VANT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!
*penat taw mak edit. huh*

Kawan masa depan?

2011-05-26T23:52:00.004+08:00

I think I've been such a jerk to them for the past 3 weeks.

Cakap kasar2, maki apalancau semua *oops*, tak jaga hati mereka2 yang tersayang.

Entahlah, mood swing mungkin? Hormon imbalance? Can't be, bendera merah dah lepas.

Serabut barangkali.

I'm truly sorry dear friends, for my words and acts might hurt you. I never meant to.

Mungkin tak ada yang menegur, tapi aku yang rasa sendiri.

Biasalah, ego jugak yang menang nak ucap maaf dengan kawan. Kalau dengan ehem tak pulak.

Banyak dah aku susahkan kawan2, kena ambil hantar balik dari kolej, dengar luahan perasaan aku, layan gedik perasan aku. Banyaklah.

Ecah, Reny, Syira, Eg. And the rest.

Maaf taw. Budak comel ni serabut sikit. Sayang kau kau kau dan kau semua.

Putih

2011-05-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

Tiba-tiba rasa tenang bila background dah bertukar kulit.
Mungkin selama ni asyik hitam kelam buat hati jadi kusam.
Bila dah putih, jadi suci bersih lagi diyakini. Hihi.
*Kenapa aku rasa gedik semacam cakap serupa ini? Ah AAK?*

Will write as soon as I'm done with this scabies thingamajig.

220511

2011-05-23T23:19:00.003+08:00

You're always there for me. Always.
Susah senang saya awak selalu ada.
Jangan ingat saya tak nampak, cuma ego kadang2 jadi hantu dalam diri.
Saya tak pasti saya selalu ada masa jatuh bangun awak.
Saya tak tahu awak faham atau tidak apa saya rasa kat awak.
But one thing for sure.

I fucking love you so much. Keep that in mind.

Selamat 2 tahun untuk kita :)
Mari tumbuh tua sama2 nak?

Demotivated

2011-05-23T22:54:00.002+08:00

Banyak sangat versi, banyak sangat pura2. Bosan.
Meluat, menyampah, semua ada.
Boleh tak tulen sikit?
Sumpah nak balik Tawau sekarang.

Sorry, serius tak reti nak bergaul dengan budak2 'sebelah kaki masuk syurga' ni. Fuck.

Reason why I don't watch GG

2011-05-01T00:44:00.002+08:00

Nuff said

Long distance relationship

2011-04-26T17:40:00.001+08:00

Aku rasa kagum dengan orang2 yang dah bercinta lama. Kalau all the time dekat,sama2 xpa. Tapi ada yang terpisah negeri,universiti,ada lagi terpisah negara. I mean, WOW. Look at them. How do they manage to maintain the spark between them? Aren't they bored with each other?

I did once involved in a 'PJJ'. And I failed. Since that I never believe in one. Me and SMN, we've never been away too far from each other. But still gaduh2. Kalau cuti sebulan, sorang balik utara sorang borneo, tak sah tak perang. To think that he'll be away this time is so...terrifying. What will happen to us? Bak kata SS, I don't want banana fruit two times. Haih. Takut -.-

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Chasing pavement

2011-04-13T01:06:00.001+08:00

What should I do? Do I really want to be a doctor? Do I have the courage to take the responsibility of other's lives? Am I capable enough to be one?

Right now, I don't even get the minimum cgpa to pursue my study. But that's not what bothering me the most. If I ever get the chance, will I be able to cope with everything? This degree enough is so stressful. I start questioning myself. Is it for me or for my family?

Of course I do want it for myself. Ever since I was a little girl, I've always wanted to be a doctor. I'm very sure of that. I lead my way, I lead my future. I do what I want, did everything without regrets. But now I'm not sure anymore.

I want this for me. For mama, for baba. But now I just can't. I know how much they want me to be a doctor. So do I. But with this total mess surrounds us, I'm not looking forward to the path I used to follow. The idea of pursuing into master degree is the only thing I have in mind right now. That, I'm not sure either. I don't want to let them down, but at the same time I'm too exhausted with the dramas. Enough with money, interview, cgpa. I'm done.

Ya Allah permudahkanlah jalan kami, sekurang2nya rakan2ku yang benar2 mahukannya.

Tunjukkanlah aku jalan yang betul, yang sepatutnya untukku. Amin.

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Anti-klimaks

2011-04-09T23:34:00.002+08:00

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Bored to death. Kill me.

2011-04-09T16:57:00.006+08:00

Feels like writing.

I'm officially a practical student now. Well, not really, as we actually have to bear with classes AGAIN for another 6 months. Not 3. To be honest, I'm both disappointed and happy. Disappointed, because we won't have the chance to be in the hospital for a long time. I mean, just 4 hours in a week? Is that enough?

But on the other side, I'm happy. I'm not ready to leave everything here. Plus, I know I'm way too far from the level to be a doctor. Or a MBBS student. These classes are actually helpful and beneficial for all of us. So yes, I'm glad and relieved.

So, from now on, it's 8am-5pm classes everyday till Thursday, and 8am-12.30pm at the hospital every Friday. Hope it helps, since we can't barely touch the patient. We can only do history taking. It's fun though, since I love talking to people. My horoscope says so. :D. I love comforting people even I'm not good at it, I love listening, or anything to do with human. Maybe that's why I love working at Subway.

Oh yeah, I've resigned as a part-timer there. I was so sad, I even thought to come back to work after 2 days I left the place. Duh, it's not even far from Perdana, sebelah rumah je kot. Haha. But somehow, I feel emotionally attached to that place. To the people and to the customers. Stupid customers included. Haha. I love them all. Maybe because it has been a long time I haven't mingle around with other people apart from my college friends. And they light up my life. They may not be those who I shared my secret with, or cry on their shoulders or something, but I'm happy being with them. I'm happy to be a part of the family, and I'm happy if they are happy with me. At least I have someone to talk to rather than being alone talking to the wall. *wink*. Oh I miss them so much! Blame the classes! I hate it. No worries, I'll come back if you need me :)

I'm bored. Bored to death. Not in the mood to do my revision, log book and all. Just sitting here watching Ghost Whisperer and cry over the earthbound spirits. Why the hell do I cry for a ghost zzz. Guess I'm gonna play DDR now. Ho yeah! Toodles!

bf

2011-03-30T02:08:00.001+08:00

No matter how far I go, your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone.

My oh my, I love my three boyfriends! :P

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Mellow

2011-03-12T21:20:00.004+08:00

I was all crazy when I posted this. My relatives/cousins/aunts/uncles could have read it. At that very moment, I don't really care. I'm so gonna get myself AT LEAST one puff after this. Like seriously. I just wish that I have the gut to tell everyone what I've done. But for what? Just to let them know that "I'm cool that way?" My heart says yes but my head denies. *Good head pat you 5 times.* Anyway whatever done is done. If only there's one thing I wish I didn't do is THAT. Yes, THAT. THAT could be anything, from everything to nothing. But yeah, it's between me and God. I just wish I have more time to fix it. And hope that He's answering my prayer. I'm not perfect. Heck, no one does. I can't tolerate those nice people. It creeps me out. I cursed a lot. I don't talk nicely to people. Bad-mouthing, gossiping. Hello it's in my blood lol. I hate hypocrites but I'm one of them. But I just wanna change. I wanna be a good girl, a good daughter, a good sister. I wanna make them proud. That's all I'm asking for. And if that means I have to sacrifice anything, I WILL.

Will You answer me? Will You help me?

Day 30- Your favorite song.

2011-03-12T02:23:00.001+08:00

Love this forever.

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

2011-03-12T02:19:00.005+08:00

Sabar. Semua orang ada perangai masing2.

Appreciate those people around you.

And...

One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.

So true. God, please help me. Forgive me.

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

2011-03-12T02:18:00.002+08:00

Saja nak mengisi kekosongan blog ni.

And because I have nothing to say but still want this blog to get updated so here's one of the way.

Ternyata sangat tidak efektif. Heh.

Day 26- What you think about your friends

2011-03-12T02:17:00.000+08:00

AWESOME.

I won't be here without them.

Thank you.

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

2011-03-12T02:13:00.002+08:00

You will find nothing but crap.

The first year was all about one stupid guy who left me for that bitch. Sebab tu la blog ni dibuat sebenarnya. Meluahkan keemoan yang bila aku baca balik omakaihh geli geleman den!

The rest sila baca sendiri. hehe. My daily routine, kemenyampahan kepada orang2 yang tidak dapat disalurkan secara berdepan and my apologize sebab banyak sangat mencarut.

What to do, it's in my blood :D

Day 24- A letter to your parents

2011-03-12T02:09:00.002+08:00

Dear Mama and Baba

*hello mestilah secreto de amor mana boleh gtaw korang*

anyway, I miss you both so much!

From your cun-melecun daughter,

Khaieysha

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

2011-03-12T02:06:00.002+08:00

Mee Tauhu

Murtabak Jawa Kong Fah

ABC Milo Jagung

Nasi Kuning

Udang mama masak

Masak lemak baba masak

Telur goreng Khalid masak

Ayam kicap alak masak

Terasi and nasi goreng nenek masak

*hambui semua makanan*

Maw balik Tawauuuuuuu!

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

2011-03-12T02:04:00.001+08:00

I'm super lame*bak kata alif*,super ordinary and super boring.

Nothing different.

Haha. Idk. What say you?

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

2011-03-12T01:58:00.003+08:00

9 years :)

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

2011-03-12T01:50:00.002+08:00

I used to imagine myself marrying the person I'm with at that particular time. Every single time I was in a relationship before. But I never put myself in that situation whenever I'm with him. I don't know why. Serik maybe? But yes, of course I wanna be with him for the rest of my life. Leave the rest to God :)

My Chef

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

2011-03-12T01:42:00.003+08:00

Too many.

Kakai: Blanche bagi nama. Actually it was meant to be KaiKai but I guess dah lama2 panggil susah sangat nak sebut KaiKai, so ended up jadi Kakai la. Hee

Khaiey: This one my kakak angkat kat SMAKK bagi. This one is like the evolution of Kai la. Her name is Siti Khairunnisa and we called her Kak Naiy. Wonder where she is now. Hmm.

Mantabs: Haha seriously I don't remember where does this comes from but I think I created it. Hehe. It's like a trademark or something * just because they think my butt is sexy. lol *. Is it?

Echa/Nisha: Nama dalam family. Mama baba panggil camni. My bro called me Kak Icha yaa in my dream tu pun kalau mood baik. Bila kena marah baru panggil nama betul."Nisaaaaaaa! Blablablablabla!". Fine. =.=

Khaieykkkk: As in taikkkkk ni geng Tawau selalu panggil dulu. Pengaruh bugis ni taw Alen punya keja ni! Haha!

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

2011-03-12T01:37:00.002+08:00

I wanna have lots of money. And by lots I mean LOTSSSSSSSSSSAAA MONEY!

But for now, I just wanna finish my final exam, do my laundry, clean up my room and get prepared for Singapore y'alls! Oh, and eat nasik please. Macam nak pengsan seminggu tak makan nasi omg just gimme rice and salt I'll be more than grateful!

Just some random thoughts.

2011-03-10T19:34:00.001+08:00

-I'm effing busy.
-30 days challenge dah jadi 18 days ja. Takpa nanti sambung.
-I'll be sitting for the next paper tomorrow,and seriously I don't even know what I'm studying. I HATE COMMUNICABLE DISEASE.
-I need to get more money a.s.a.p. There's a lot to pay/buy. I'm not exaggerating when I say that nowadays, money is the virtual world's god. You can't even pee without a penny. Will work on that after the exam.

Toodles!

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Final of the final!

2011-03-09T18:50:00.001+08:00

First paper berakhir dengan 'jayanya'. Dr. Kachak, sila bagi saya A sebelum saya boikot anda.

All the best classmates!

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Sayang

2011-03-08T03:58:00.001+08:00

'Kenapa awak tak peduli saya dah,biasa kalau saya down awak ada gn saya'.

The moment you asked me that, I was stunned. Never thought I matter that much to you.

Let's grow old together, shall we?
Ily more :)

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Psycho

2011-02-15T20:35:00.001+08:00

Seriously bitch. You are one psychopath freak, disoriented retarded human being I've ever met. If it's not because of her, I'll surely rip your head apart. Ever since you came into our story, semua pecah belah. Kalau kau nak gila,p gila sorang2. Jangan libatkan member aku sekali. Selama ni aku diam, jangan sampai kau nampak Kai yang dulu. Aku sumpah aku lempang kau sampai muka kau dah tak ada. Faham! Gila punya perempuan. Kalau tak sayang nyawa baik cabut ja nyawa tu. Bagi kat orang yang nak hidup. TOLONGLAH GILA. I have my limitation so do everyone. Jangan sampai sebab kau semua orang kucar-kacir. I warn you.

DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE BREAK THE GROUP APART. I'LL EAT YOU ALIVE.

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

2011-01-18T17:41:00.002+08:00

Katy Perry.

I wanna know how does it feels to have big boobs and fucking pretty and smexy! And how she sings her songs, sebab aku tak pernah sampai nak nyanyi lagu2 dia!

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

2011-01-18T17:38:00.001+08:00

Muka si 22 tahun. Hambui senyum tak nak lebar lagi, sepet mata terbuntang tu.

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

2011-01-18T17:26:00.005+08:00

1. La Roux - Bulletproof

2. The Band Perry - If I Die Young

3. Adam Lambert - If I Had You

4. Taio Cruz - Dynamite

5. Tokio Hotel - Scream

6. Lenka - Don't Let Me Fall

7. Boys like Girls ft Taylor Swift - Two Is Better Than One

8. Avril Lavigne - Tomorrow

9. Rihanna ft Kanye West - Run This Town

10. Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

2011-01-18T17:22:00.001+08:00

I iz love 'em ze mozt!

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

2011-01-18T17:02:00.001+08:00

Dear you-know-who-you-are-and-if-you-ever-read-this.

Please take a very good care of my heart.

-khaieysha-

Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one

2011-01-18T16:53:00.002+08:00

I can't recall. But I do remember why I made one.

I was broken-hearted, insane, can't think of anything properly like a normal human being, and I don't want to keep on bothering people with my problems and tears. Thus, I created Khaieysha's on 8th December 2008, and ever since that, it has become my medium to express anything I had/have in mind.

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

2011-01-18T16:43:00.001+08:00

Mereka memang 'sedikit' lucah, tapi aku sayang juga, sebab aku pun sama lucah. Hahaha.

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

2011-01-18T16:33:00.003+08:00

Happy - Katy's!

Sad - Thinking of You, Almost Lover and What Do You Want From Me.

Bored - Any songs will do, even the forbidden songs! Nama pun tengah bosan kan.

Hyped - Rihanna's and Adam's.

Mad - Kesha's.

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

2011-01-18T16:30:00.001+08:00

Can I just say, nothing?

Oh, I'm proud of being a part of the circles. The Perdana-ians, the Mantabs-ians, and all. Because I love them and they love me too. :)

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

2011-01-18T16:25:00.002+08:00

1. Settle everything for my Bandung trip. Never thought that it would be this susah and tiring!

2. Finish up the proposal for our BMS Idol.

3. Mestilah siapkan proposal sugar level tu. Haiyaaa Mr. Bu..help me.

4. Minta gaji dengan Sir. I'm fucking broke damnit!

5. My date with the comellest before Bandung! Mesti-cari-masa!

6. Gunakan segala benda2 free yang aku dapat untuk birthday kali ni.

7. Diet? Emm fikir dulu *munching*

8. A movie date with sayang tomorrow, God's willing :)

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

2011-01-18T16:20:00.003+08:00

Because of him, my patience has become higher, and better.

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

2011-01-05T02:24:00.003+08:00

Why? Sebab beliau *ceh beliau* adalah satu2nya superhero yang mengamalkan pemakanan yang sihat! Makan spinach sebelum bertukar menjadi kuat! Kalaw otromen mesti nak tukar2 baju la apa semua, power rangers nak kena ada jam ajaib la. Popeye? Makan bayam terus bertukar menjadi superhero yang comel. Go go Popeye the Sailorman toot toot!

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

2011-01-05T02:20:00.002+08:00

Rasa tak layak. Sangat. Tapi bersyukur. :)

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

2011-01-02T13:16:00.000+08:00

Bangun lambat.

I admit I'm not a morning person. My morning is your afternoon.

Paling celaka bila bangun dengan excited sekali nak pi kelas, sekali tengok jam dah pukul 2 p.m =.=

Sangat tekanan. Zzz.

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

2011-01-02T13:07:00.001+08:00

My precious babes :)

Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name

2010-12-31T11:39:00.003+08:00

Khaiey + Sha = Khaieysha

Back when I was studying in SMAKK, there was a senior of mine whose name is also Khairunnisa. Siti Khairunnisa. We called her Kak Naiy. She's the one who gave me the name, Khai. Then biasalah trend dulu2 nama mesti nak rock kapak punya, belakang tambah-ey. Jadilah Khaiey :)

Sha, sebab my grandma/relatives/aunties/uncles belah Melaka panggil aku Nisha. Kat rumah pun panggil camtu. Bila kena marah baru panggil nama betul =.=. Jadilah part 'Sha' tu.

How is it combined? When I was in form 2, Pija nak buatkan aku emel baru. So fikir punya fikir, masa tu kami tengah gila Avril Lavigne hari2 duduk sebelah library bawak cd player dengar lagu sk8er boy, maka jadilah ia! sk8ergurlz_khaieysha. Hehe. Since that I've been using Khaieysha for almost every website yang aku buat. Kira macam webname aku la. Kalaw google Khaieysha mesti jumpa punya blog lama2 hikhikhik malu tahap arwah bila baca balik! Nak delete dah lupa password. Urgh.

So that's it, the story behind my blog name. :)

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

2010-12-30T00:52:00.004+08:00

1. Kakai Mantabs is becoming more and more famous than Kai.

2. Purple freak.

3. Obses makan nasi goreng kalau nampak ada kacang hijau/panjang/buncis. Sejak kecil lagi. *sebab tu ka dapat bf nama Bean?*

4. Adam Lambert and Katy Perry kipas-susah-mati-dah-mati-pun-hidup-kembali.

5. Currently in my last semester in Bachelor in Medical Science.

6. Proud to be Tawau-ian! Sangat gila murtabak jawa, abc milo jagung, mi tauhu, nasi kuning and all those foods yang tak ada kat tempat lain. I'll never consider moving out to another place, not even an inch!

7. Seorang pekerja Subway yang berjaya dan bergaya. Haha!

8. Freaking love 8.

9. Godzilla katik. Akan mengamuk bila orang kejut time tidur, and masa lapar. Masa PMS toksah habaq laa.

10. I can't stand bean sprout in my char kuey teow or fried mee. A big turn off.

11. Masa kecil2 selalu berangan jadi anak angkat sultan/raja.

12. Tahi lalat bawah hidung, trademark sejak azali.

13. Berat masa lahir = 3.9 kg. Pasal tu la debab sampai sekarang.

14. Tak tahan tengok nasiiiiiiiiii nom nom nom

15. Syed Muhammad Nafis'. :)

30 Days Challenge

2010-12-30T00:47:00.002+08:00

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Your favorite song.

*Supaya saya dengan aktifnya naiktarikh blog saya, I took this challenge from the gorgeous T-hot! Jyeahh!

2010

2010-12-29T23:54:00.005+08:00

Teruk. Memang teruk. This morning when my junior asked me dah lama tak update, baru teringat, laa aku ada blog rupanya. Ada jugak orang baca isk isk terharu I. The main reason is MALAS. TAK ADA MASA. And actually, nothing interesting happened to me for the last few months. Nanti kalaw update pun asyik emo memanjang bosan pulak kan, so diam2 sudah.

So, one last day to 2011. Dah boleh cakap aku last sekali mandi tahun lepas la. HAHAHA not funny. My 2010 is everything. Happy, sad, betrayed, shocked. The mix feelings brings me to one word: blur. Sumpah tahun ni aku banyak blur. Entahlah pasal apa. Too much going on and maybe that is the best thing to do to handle em all. I've come to realize that nothing is forever, again, and when the time has come, nobody can do anything about it. We plan, He decides.

Azam? Sudahkan azam yang lepas2. Muahaha. But seriously, azam tahun ni, no, saat ni, nak jadi sabar. I'm extremely impatient. Those yang satu sekolah sampai ke matriks and MSU sekarang, wajib tahu yang panas baran = Kai. I need to get rid of this A.S.A.P, if not I'll lose my precious one for real. 'Sabar Kai sabar.' I keep on saying this to myself so that I won't explode. 'Good comes to those who wait.' Pesanan seseorang. Thank you for that.

Family. Khalid went for Medic at Zagazig. Rindu :'(. Walaupun aku ni kakak yang jahat nauzubillah, but when it comes to my only bro, I'll definitely say I love him to the max! Madu racun semua dia. Balik cuti hari tu sunyi ja rumah dia tak ada. Isk. Baba & Mama pun aku taw mesti rindu dia gila2. Nenek lagilah, tak payah cakap. Luckily Skype connects us all. Haha! Palinglah lawak bila ingat masa nak ajar baba guna skype. Sekarang semua dah ada FB. Bagus2, ada kemajuan. Terpaksa block masing2. Muahaha. Sorry! Tp tahun ni sangat banyak homesick. Maybe sebab teringat yang diorang tinggal berdua, till I come to the extent yang tak nak sambung belajar dah pasni. Nak balik Tawau ja. Haih. Dear God, please take a very good care of Mama, Baba, Khalid and nenek ok? And also my aunt, uncle and big bro. Rindu :'(.

2010 tahun aku paling banyak terasa dengan kawan2 aku. Sorry friends :) Why? Sebab semua pakat sembunyi. Semua pakat lari sana lari sini. Semua talam. Ok sorry bukan semua, certain people. But still, my love for you guys is bigger than what hurts me. Without them, I wouldn't be here by now. Thanks :)

Love? Not much to say. Prefer to keep it to myself. Just that I'm GLAD, and by that I really mean GLAD, and grateful to have him by my side. Abaikan post2 emo. Hehe. He's the one who taught me to be patient, calm, jangan ikut perasaan, matang. Yang ni tak berjaya lagilah still childish. Lepas Nanad cakap, baru aku perasan, betullah, aku lebih sabar sekarang. Thanks love, and I'm sorry, janji tak bagi balik ogeh! Love you lots syg :)

Since this is my last theoretical semester, I'm gonna try my best to score and up kan pointer. Pasni dah takda 'takpa cuba lagi next sem'. This is it! Kena pandai bagi masa kerja and study. Oh did I mention earlier that I'm officially one of the Subway crew since almost a month ago? Hehehe I love working there! The crews are all friendly and most importantly, dapat makan free hari2. Hehehe. :D. Sambil belajar minum Pepsi. Hahaha.

Looking forward for a bright new year! Goodbye 2010, thanks for the memories :)

...

2010-12-20T21:32:00.003+08:00

I don't usually write on my relationship here. I mean the dark side of it. As I know there are silent readers who would be very happy to see me cry. But today...

Sebelum kau tinggalkan aku untuk orang lain, biar aku tinggalkan kau dulu untuk diri sendiri.

I don't want to go through THAT phase again, ANYMORE.

Thanks.

Bila nak jadi baik

2010-11-30T18:39:00.002+08:00

Bila nak jadi baik ni

Bila tak nak tinggal sembahyang ni

Bila nak amar makruf nahi mungkar ni

Bila nak berhenti melawan cakap ni

Bila nak belajar baik2 ni

Bila nak berhenti menipu ni

Bila nak pakai elok2 ni

Bila nak berhenti prasangka buruk ni

Bila nak cakap sopan2 ni

Bila nak jadi rajin ni

Bila nak jadi perempuan ni

Bila bila bila!

Dear God, please don't leave me. Guide me. Help me.

Awak, jom jadi baik. Sampai mati kita sama2 kalau kita jadi baik. Kan?

The end

2010-11-11T08:49:00.002+08:00

Ya aku memang kuat memaki. Bukan mengaku dengan rasa bangga. Just want to make things clear. Ingat kenapa aku memaki? Ingat aku suka sangat memaki?

Lain orang lain cara nak release tension. Mine is this. Curse allllllll the way to heaven. By doing so, I feel stronger, concrete enough to hide everything.

Kau, memang layak dimaki. Aku ingat kau lain, tapi lagi teruk dari dia. And the main reason kenapa aku maki kau sebab aku tak nak menangis lagi. Aku tak nak meraung2 macam orang gila macam dulu and ruin my life again. Jadi kesimpulannya, bila aku memaki aku tak nangis. Bila aku nangis, aku tak memaki.

Dan hari ini, aku dah tak larat nak memaki.

I'll just..cried my heart out. All day long.

Thanks, for everything.

Barangkali

2010-11-09T14:33:00.002+08:00

I didn't want us to burn out

I didn't come to hold you

Now I can't stop

Dah tak ada...

2010-10-18T00:40:00.006+08:00

Teman nak pergi makan malam2 buta.

Teman nak pergi uptown tengok bundle and tolong pilih jeans harga rm15.

Teman nak berlawan cakap berleter segala jadah bila saya down.

Teman nak mengumpat 'pasangan kuaci' di depan rumah.

Teman nak luahkan perasaan pasal tuutt and tuutt and the tuutttss.

Teman nak pergi Sunway sampai bosan Sunway tu tengok kitorang.

Sayang, I love you so much :((

I know. I gotta be strong for you. No, US.

And I'll try my best.

Because I know you love me more than what I can imagine.

Polkabean 220509

Life is beautiful

2010-10-15T03:30:00.001+08:00

Life is beautiful
We love until we die

When you run into my arms,
We steal a perfect moment.
Let the monsters see you smile,
Let them see you smiling.

Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated.
We barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Yeah, life is beautiful.
Our hearts, they beat and break.

When you run away from harm,
Will you run back into my arms,
Like you did when you were young?
Will you come back to me?

I will hold you tightly
When the hurting kicks in.

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated,
we barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Stand where you are.
We let all these moments pass us by.

It's amazing where I'm standing,
There's a lot that we can give.
This is ours just for a moment.
There's a lot that we can give.

Arsehole

2010-10-14T02:33:00.006+08:00

Why is it that everybody seems to enjoy backstabbing me?

Am I like your puppet or something?

Do I look like someone who does not care at all about every single thing happens around me?

Did I ever scratched you, fucked you? Oh, or even cheated on you before?

Did I ever said 'you know what, you're not good enough for her. Why don't you just write a suicide note and jump from the 13th floor,buddy?'

As far as I'm concern, YOU GUYS were the one who broke my heart!

YOU GUYS were the one who stabbed me and make me looks like an idiot!

So why do I have to bear all this pain and tears and sorrow and....everything?

It is not fair! Not fair at all!

Fuck your life, dickarse. Not mine!

Bf saya gay

2010-10-07T22:44:00.004+08:00

Kenapa rezeki tak datang bergolek-golek macam masa World Stage hari tu?

Kenapa kenapa kenapa!

Aku pernah cakap kalau dia datang Malaysia aku akan pergi konsert dia tak kira apa.

Tapi apa jadi? Aku tersilap tarikh! Ingatkan exam on the 15th, rupanya 16th!

And all my savings for his concert dah habis! Isk :(

Dah habis nangis2 dalam kereta. Sekarang pun rasa nak nangis balik.

Nak golek2 atas tanah depan Adam rasa2 dia bagi tak aku tiket free?

Mommy I vant I vant!

Obsession

2010-10-05T22:34:00.009+08:00

Ohh no no ni bukan preloved sales ye. Just wanna share about my all-time obsession with you girls. Hee. I just can't get enough of 'em! Dah lama kawan2 semua suruh post pasal beg yang tak nak banyak lagi ni. So, here it goes! Especially to mereka2 yang dah fed up tengok beg aku *you know who you are hahaha*

This one is the first bag I bought after puberty. Wkwkwk. Tak ingat bila tapi rasanya dalam nak masuk form 1 kot. Masa tu still tomboy2 lagi, tengok perempuan pakai handbag macam eeuuww please la geli aku tengok. DULU ok DULU. Bought it at Kl Sentral for rm39.90. Huish ingat tu.

Ni beli masa kat matriks dulu. Kan satu sem dapat RM1k seorang, so apa lagi joli2lah dulu haha. Kat labuan ada satu kedai barangan sukan ni, kira paling ori/mantap/loadedlah kalaw kaw beli kat situ. Konon. Dapat ja duit terus p kedai tu beli beg ni. Sekarang dah kuning2 dah,simpan lama sangat. Tapi sayang nak buang. Hee *semua pun sayang nak buang* Adidas, RM50.

My father bought this for me kat Alamanda. Masa tu baru nak masuk MSU @ KUTPM kan duluu. Konon2 nak letak buku la apa segala. Letak jugaklah buku tu tapi kejap ja. Then sorok bawah katil sebab tengok macam mak nenek bawak beg baju p kelas. Pakai pulak baju kurung kilat2. Finee =.=. RM29.90

Haa yang ini menandakan bermulanya era aku pakai handbag. Duh. Beli ni kat Radioactive OU for RM39.90 @ RM49.90. Dah tak ingat. Handbag raya tu hehe. Lama fikir nak beli ke tak nak. Kang ada kena nganjing gn kawan aku ni. Tapi dah time tu gila coklat pastu dah ada keinginan nak jadi gegel2 *tak taw nak eja* sikit, dah berkenan beli ja la. Walaupun dah terkopak sana sini, still sayang beg ni, sentimental value.

Beg ni menandakan bermulanya era aku gila hobo bag. Eh baru perasan asal ayat nak sama ja. Ok kira nak jadi rock chic la ni. Beli kat Maple TS masa jalan gn Kak Noni. Maple's sangat2 best, cuma yang tak bestnya bila p sana, especially kat Sunway, salesgirl dia peramah sangat. Tak tenang aku nak tengok barang. Tu yang kadang2 tengok dari luar ja sebab malas nak senyum paksa. Bought this for RM 39.90.

Tak ingat dah sejarah pembelian beg ni. Yang penting salah satu kesayanganlah jugak. Masa zaman cinta lama dulu siap letak badge penuh nama masing2 hahaha *omg i'm dead meat*.Sekarang dah buang dahhh yg ehh dah xda dah nama dia hehe ailebiuu. Harga RM39.90.

Ignorelah muka aku tu,tengok beg ja. Malas nak crop. beli masa jalan2 gn B kat PAS. Mula2 berkenan, tapi poket koyak. So tak jadi nak beli. Dah jalan2 tu,ish takleh jadi ni asyik teringat ja. Last2 beli jugak. Balik tu p kedai jahit beg kat giant. Harga tak ingat tapi yang penting dia bagi murahlah sebab defected kan. Kat eastwear. Sekarang dah arwah..bagi kat syg, dah jadimacam apa tah. Shopping bag giant lagi lawa. WTF kurusnya aku duluuu sekarang macam belon kena pammmmmm!

This one is my fav! Bila aku cakap beli kat Giant Penampang orang tak percaya. Hahaha. Penampang ke Inanam eh? Ni kira aunt aku yang belikan *dah guna duit dia*. Pun RM39.90. Kenapa semua beg aku sama harga ni.

Ni beli masa tolong Farah bukak bazar kat Mont Kiara. Mula2 asyik tengok ja booth yang jual beg ni. FrugalMugal. For sure mestilah aim purple kan. Fikir punya fikir, walaupun tak berduit sangat time tu, tekadlah nak beli. Actually Farah yang goda haha. Pusing balik tengok booth tu, ada orang tengah bayar for the bag! Praaanggg! *bunyi hati berkecai*. Frust gilaaaaaa! Terus pi kedai tu beli colour ni. Huh. Price: RM45.

My 20th birthday gift from nenek O a.ka elma! Hee thank you nek aku belum lagi bagi kaw hadiah sampai sekarang kan? Bha tunggu this year punya aa. Baru pakai dua kali. Harga? Tanya tukang bagi. Hehe.

Beg raya 2009 tak silap. Beli kat Maple lagi. See aku dah boleh dapat award loyal customer dah ni. Bila nak bagi diskaun ahmoi? Ni pun sebab syg dah bising gila cari beg berjam2 tak nak jugak beli2. Harga tak ingat pulak, rasanya RM39.90 kot. First beg yang bertali dua; panjang pendek. Sebab aku tak suka sling bag yang kecik.

Yang ni beg memujuk. Heee *mukagedikgila*. Tengok beg ni asyik nak gelak ja. Dijadikan cerita, aku dah lama berkenan beg ni. Kat Uptown Shah Alam. Pastu 1 day kitorang bawaklah B p uptown. Syg tak nak join kitorang jalan, so xpala lantak dialah. Otw back tak taw napa aku merajuk dah tak ingat dah. Dia suruh pegang plastik ni. Bila dah merajuk manalah aku nak bukak plastik apa segala kan. Rupanya syg belikan benda niiiiii heee I love you bebehhh muah3! Harga mestilah aku taw! RM25 wkwkwk

Yang ni pun beli kat tempat sama jugak. RM 50. Alaa masa zaman2 vintage tengah top. Sampai koyak beg ni aku kerjakan. Tapi sanggup jahit walaupun keras nak mati.

This one is my cinta-mati-sampai-bila-bila-ah! Ok perlukeee. He gave it to me on my 21st birthday. Maple jugaaak, tapi kali ni kat Sunway. Haa terpaksa tahan hati ah masuk Maple semata2 nak beg ni. Tak romantik langsung beli hadiah depan2 taw! Ingat yg next year saya nak Ipod touch! Muahahaha. Harga tak boleh reveal, nama pun hadiah birthday. Haha

Beli masa pergi Bangalore hari tu. Kedai tu sangat best sebab macam ala2 kedai recycle gitu. Tak ambik gambar pulak dah excited sangat jumpa beg ni. Hee. Apa nama kedai tah tak ingat, mother nature ke apa. Kat Mantri Square. Bukaklah cawangan kat sini barang kaw best dohh! I think this one is around 750-950 rupees. I can't recall. Very simple yet comfortable. Suitable for college wear ehh asal macam nak iklan barang ja ni. Ada kisah di sebaliknya tapi takleh gtaw kang kantoi dengan pihak2 yang berkenaan. Kan Nad? heheheh.

Yang ni pun India mari! Zay yang bagi sesempat2 alam masa nak bertolak balik p Malaysia. Hee terharu beta, sesungguhnya beliau amat memahami obsesi saya ini. Tq zay! Price: n/a. :D

This is the latest one, bought it from a blogshop, Clothesbucket. RM50. Dah desperate sangat nak beg kaler tan. A bit disappointed with the quality though, cam haram baru pakai kejap dah koyak sana sini. Tapi takpa mama still loves you baby! Siap jahit lagi. hehehe

*Ni semua baru koleksi beg kat Shah Alam. Belum lagi yang tinggal kat Tawau. Belum masuk paper bag apa segala. Haa yang tu tunggu aku tension study Haemo lak baru aku post okayh. Ada siapa2 nak tambahkan koleksi beg aku? Sangat dialu-alukan. Hehehe*

*Bila tengok balik beg2 ni, ish, childish lagi aku ni. Buruk gila taste*

Tak payah nak branded kalau nak bergaya. Belanja ikut kemampuan. Yang penting selesa, lawa and kita suka. Ok? :)

0 post on September?

2010-10-05T14:38:00.012+08:00

This is gonna be a looonnngggg update. Hehehe. Dah berhabuk pun blog ni. Ada ja masa nak update tapi setiap kali nak tulis mesti hilang idea. Ada harapan jadi featured blogger nuffnang. Hahahaharapanlaaa. Mari kita ikuti rentetan perjalanan hidup aku sebulan yang lepas *bajet feymes orang nak gosip pasal aku kannn*

Eid '10

After 3 years tak balik beraya kat Tawau, at last, tahun ni balik jugak! Hehehe I was so excited to celebrate my raya there. Eventhough aku ada kampung kat Melaka belah baba, tapi tak sama macam raya kat Tawau. Tak tahulah kenapa, maybe sebab aku tinggal and membesar kat Sabah, so semangat assabiyah tu adalah sikit kan. Hehehe. Plus the main reason why I rather be there than Melaka is because my nenek dok sorang2, anak pun ada dua ja. Kat Melaka bersepah saudara mara sampaikan aku pun tak kenal. Hahaha. Ok lepas ni kalau aku dah kahwin nak ada anak 2 pasang. Tak nak sikit2 nanti tak ada yang nak balik raya di kampung halaman asyik nak pergi rumah mentua ja muahahha ok dah melalut.

Raya 4 hari lagi nak habis baru nak cerita kan. Ah lantak. Ni sambil melepaskan tekanan perasaan dengan Edward Syndrome and Patau Syndrome tadi. Arghh! Okay sambung cerita. Nothing specific pun nak cerita sebenarnya, yala raya takkanlah orang pergi fun fair pulak. Mestilah pergi sembahyang raya apa segala. Tapi pagi raya tahun ni memang havoc+tense+lucu pun ada. Hehehe. First sekali, kitorang semua terlambat pergi sembahyang raya. Ended up staying at home and nenek pun mengambul bak kata orang cocos *merajuk*. Fuh. Nenek kalau dah merajuk/touching, siap sedialah semua. Now I know where does the perfectionist me and mom is inherited from. Aku and Alak *aunt+ibu susuan+mak kedua aku* pun menahan hatilah biarkan nenek aku duduk bawah rumah bawa hati yang lara.

Then, masa nak pergi kubur pun satu hal. Mula2 aku tak nak pergi sebab tak ada perempuan yang nak pergi, so aku malaslah. Pastu nenek nak teman, so kami pun bersiaplah. Keluar rumah, tengok baba and the guys dah jalan. Apa lagi nenek mengamuk lagiiiiiiiiii....Habislahh dalam hati aku. Luckily my cousin jan2 datang, so he gave us a ride there. Sampai kat kubur ja aku dah signal dengan baba ntg 'habislah kamu nenek mengamuk suda'. Hahahah uncle aku dengan bijaknya melarikan diri daripada semburan berbisa. Nasib baik nenek tak naik darah dah. Hehehe~

Skim cocos

nainai choleng!

This year's eid tak macam dulu, sebab semua sibuk nak uruskan adik aku. Oh btw dia dah sambung belajar kat Mesir, Universiti Zagazig. Ambil course medic. Sebab tu la raya tahun ni kelam kabut sikit sebab nak settle everything before the 5th eid. 3rd day raya dah jalan darat pergi KK. Aku yang mabuk darat ni tidur ja la dalam kereta. Dalam masa seminggu 4 kali ulang alik tawau-kk 10 jam siapa tahan. Maw muntah hijau aku. Dah sampai KK settle apa semua kami pun pergilah beraya rumah family kat sana. Sebab aku pun lahir sana and most of my mom's relatives are staying there, so memang wajiblah ziarah. Ahbayangkanlahh dah berapa tahun aku tak jejak KK. Rasanya adalah dalam 2-3 tahun jugak. Dari zaman TS baru pacak tiang sampai dah siap sekarang. zzz. saya sangat lame.

family belah mama. my aunt uncle cousins nenek atuk saudara segala

perlu jugak nak letak muka sendiri sebesar alam

ikhsann! my cute uncle!:)

rumah bapak tua @ atuk tua. okay I thought he's married to mamak tua when the fact is actually, he is the eldest brother of my grandpa and mamak tua is the eldest sister. lol siapa suruh nama panggil nak sama ja

rumah abang min

aa..budak2 ni memang camni jangan hairanlah.haha

Khalid pergi Mesir

So bye2 lil bro! Okay dia dah selamat pun kat sana siap tengok piramid segala. First time tinggal jauh dari family, don't know what's gonna happen to him. But I know he can do well so puh-lease, take a very good care of yourself Khalid! Sistah miss you lots!:'(

si tinggi

with baba

kihkihkih

the most important women in my life + an ape. hahaha

pengiring

my uncle. jangan hairan, beliau memang begini :D

hasil kerja keras beliau. kasut dah senget sebelah lol

them guys

farewell dear bro! love you!

ok. end of part 1. penat tunggu gambar nak upload. hahahaha

Tak matang lagi

2010-08-31T01:46:00.002+08:00

Ada orang cakap aku tak matang lagi. Betul. Sebab aku pun rasa begitu. Aku tak mampu nak berfikir secara dewasa. Apa yang tersurat itulah yang aku terima. Jarang sekali aku nak cari yang tersirat. Aku tak tulis benda2 merapu khurafat dalam blog aku. My blog is a piece of shit actually. I write craps and nothing else. Aku marah, gembira, sayu, cuma itu yang para pembaca2 hambuii *kalau adalah* dapat lihat. Rasa. Sebab aku cuma tulis benda yang aku rasa dan bukan benda yang aku fikir.

Aku tak tulis pasal politik. Aku tak tulis pasal isu semasa. Aku tak tulis ataupun berkongsi tazkirah. Aku rasa aku tak layak untuk itu. Aku tak suarakan pendapat aku tentang undang2 negara. Apa yang aku tulis, pasal lagu, sayang, kawan, pergolakan rumah tangga dan persahabatan etc etc. Kadang2 terasa juga nak jadi macam bloggers yang lain. Yang bagi info berguna. But I just can't. Cause that's not me. I don't know how to inspire people. Bagi tips2 atau nasihat. Diri sendiri pun tak ternasihat. Inikan pula nak ceramah orang lain. Hina sungguh diri ini nak menasihati orang lain. Heh.

Tapi sekurang2nya aku tak hipokrit.

Selamat hari kebangsaan yang ke 53, MALAYSIA :)

Lapar!

2010-08-28T00:43:00.001+08:00

Kenapa kalau aku lapar aku cepat marah?
LAPARLAPARLAPARLAPARLAPAR!!!!!

Pakai buang

2010-08-16T23:44:00.002+08:00

Yes, another emo post.zzz
I know. I'm getting bored of this too. But what to do. It's in my blood. Hahaha amek ayat mr.Bunch kejap.
Seriously akulah manusia paling bangang sekali dalam dunia. Sangat2 bangang.
I know it hurts, but I can't get rid of you.

You're like my voodoo, and I'm your dejavu.

And hey, faham tak beza sisa2 & cinta sempurna Yuna tu?

Kaw hanyalah sisa-sisa
Sedangkan dia hampir menggapai cinta sempurna

So stop playing with my heart. My answer is no, maybe. Ingat janji u gn orang. Pls.

Demam

2010-08-16T20:56:00.002+08:00

Huu. Sedih gila demam di perantauan.
Aku ni jarang sakit, tapi kalaw dah sekali sakit bukan alang2 punya.
Kalaw demam kat rumah adalah jugak baba & mama tolong tengokkan.
Walaupun wajibul gunnah mesti mama bising2 punya *sekarang pun bising dalam telefon.ngee*
Tapi tak kisahlah. At least tak payah masak bubur sendiri, makan ubat sendiri, tidur sendiri.
Cun lagi masa bulan puasa nih. Haiiiiihhh! =.=
Rela demam seminggu kalaw kat Tawau.
I wanna go home!!!!!! Mommyyyyyy huuuuuu :'(

Pagi pagi puasa dah buat aku marah

2010-08-11T05:45:00.003+08:00

*Amaran: Entri ini menggunakan bahasa Sabah. Tq*

Oi lelaki!
Kaw bila dah terjatuh terhantuk tertambling2 depan belakang baru maw datang cari aku kan?
Bila kaw senang kaw kasi tinggal aku sukak2 kaw?
Aku ni badut kaw bilang?
Aku xkisah kaw maw buat apa pun. Tapi awal2 aku sda cakap kan?
Ctaw aku awal2 kalaw ndak bulih suda! Apa jugak masalah kaw ni?
Berbaik suda cam taik la kaw sana maen blah jak?
Aku jak maw jaga hati kaw? Haa?
Pasal kaw aku kasi sakit hati orang lain.
Ndakla. Aku jugak palui betul. Napala aku layan kaw.
Cam sial. Sakit hati aku.
kaw jangan sampai I curse you back man. Kaw makan semua tu.
Kaw suda knak skali. Sekarang pisang pun berbuah lima belas kali kaw taw.
Haihhhhhh =.=
I am so disappointed with you. I know I shouldn't trust you from the very beginning.
Fuck off. *istighfar Kai istighfar*
Sudala kaw. Kasi makruh puasa aku jak.

How could you :'( For the zillion times...

Salam Ramadhan

2010-08-11T02:42:00.005+08:00

Just finished my mid semester exam 2 days ago, which was so fucked up. Seriously, am I like the stupidest human being on Earth? The questions are so damn easy (NOT!) and paling best sekali, I can't even remember a thing! Mesti banyak makan semut ni tak pun lucah sangat dalam kehidupan seharian. Ni semua salah Syira ah ni. Arghh kill u man jk :D. Target untuk mid sem ni --> Patho GU and Patho Haemo : DEAD. Bolehke target camtu? Haih tawakal ja la.

Dah lama tak update blog dengan yakin. Asyik2 post emo memanjang. Aku pun naik bosan. Cita-cita nak jadi featured blog Nuffnang. Harapan. Haha. But deal with it, I'm super emotional. Tak matang lagi. Memang tak pandai nak kawal emosi. Nak buat cmana? Hehe.

Ohh lately ni rasa cam selalu menyusahkan semua orang. Sedih gila. Selalu tumpang kawan g kolej padahal boleh jalan kaki kot. Tapi confirmlah hitam legam aku balik Tawau nanti. Hehe. Just wanna say thanks a lot buddies! Syira, Aishah, Eg, Aril,Ikram anda siapa2lah yang aku pernah tumpang nak g kolej. Jasamu dikenang. Nanti aku dah kaya sikit aku belanja cendol abang lori tu eh. Hee

Sangat happy si dia dah berubah sikit. Semoga kekal selamanya begitu. Thank you :)

Ngantuk. Tapi tak boleh tidur. Terfikir napa u tinggal orang camtu ja. Orang dah cakap awal2 dah. Ego :'(

Hmm.Salam Ramadhan people! Yeay I'm goin back to Sabah this year! Thank you Mommy!

2 years

2010-08-08T02:48:00.002+08:00

080808-080810
All the pain has gone. Maybe.

Alone again

2010-08-05T12:52:00.003+08:00

I know I'm wrong. Tapi tolonglah jangan buat saya macam barang boleh main pass2. Boleh kena jaga ja untuk setahun and bagi balik dengan orang lain. There's no such word as 'bagi balik'. When I'm yours, then I'm yours. I'm sorry for the ungratefulness and my weaknesses. I just feel like I don't belong here. I don't belong to you. We don't belong to each other. Like I don't even exist in your life. That's how I felt before. And now, of course. Why can't you understand? It's not about the time we spend together. It's about what we do in between. And please, it's YOU and YOU only. The rest is my past. Forget it, you won't understand. I'm tired. And I know it's my fault.

I'll wait for you, no matter how long it takes for you to built your trust in me again.
But then, tell me NICELY when you find someone who can love you more than I do. I will let you go completely.

Ich liebe dich <3 Take care, love.

serabutlah!

2010-08-04T16:11:00.002+08:00

Mr.Bunchman - yeah I know I said stupid things about her. Maybe for you. But it's for real damn it! She's just a bitch! She ruined my life just by not looking at her pun dah jadi isu so WHAT THE FUCK! I did that because aku tanak tunjuk muka aku yang macam sial bila tengok orang yang aku tak suka. So instead of showing this fugly face, I turned away, aku tak buat dosa dia tak dapat sakit hati. Plus, she started it forst kan? Aku tak retilah nak hipokrit2 ni Hello how are you bitch padahal dalam hati menyumpah seranah cam sial. Ok with some exceptions. Tolong faham me okay. Haih. T.T Hope you are doing fine there. I think I know what was 'it' but nevermind, just keep it to yourself.I miss you.

Mr.Bigguy - As I said, I'll be by your side as long as you need me, but when the time has come for me to leave, please do it nicely. I don't think I can go through that again. You know me well, I hate rejection. And I know you know that I love you lots.

Mr.Heart - Please. I am maybe not yet a woman but still, I am a girl. My existence is never there for you to look at. Do you really want me? Cause if not, just let me go. I'd rather live alone than being with somebody who does not even realize that I'm here beside him.

GUYS ARE JUST SO HARD TO DEAL WITH! EFF YOUH ALL!

One day I slowly floated away

2010-07-30T03:53:00.004+08:00

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One day I slowly floated away
One day I slowly floated away
All the war horses wore rubber bands
to hide their hooves from sinking sand
The commander in charge was hoping that
The destiny was not to die

Wake up in the morning I shall
Wake up and so shall you
And I wake up, the sun is beautiful
And it is warming you and I
Fragile as we lie

Hard to foresee the future
Our bodies were growing thin
Glimpsing the peeling paint of
The nurse's ivory chain
You've got a lot of nerve coming here
Your eyes are beating rhythms way
Faster than the speeding bullet that
took the life of your radio

Wake up in the morning I shall
Wake up and so shall you
And I wake up, the sun is beautiful
And it is warming you and I
Fragile as we lie

And in the corner chair
soft and soap-scented
my darling cries apologies
We foresee the mercy
That's been shown my young limbs
Will not go unthanked or unseen

Wake up in the morning I shall
Wake up and so shall you
And I wake up, the sun is beautiful
And it is warming you and I
Fragile as we lie

oooh, ahhhhh
oooh, ahhhhh

♥ichliebedich♥

Hey hey you you

2010-07-30T03:19:00.003+08:00

I know it's not worth it.
I know it will end eventually.
Just give me one last chance, please.
I just miss everything. Everything.

A hope for the hopeless

2010-07-29T13:06:00.002+08:00

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stitch in your knitted brow
and you don't know how
you're gonna get it out

crushed under heavy chest
trying to catch your breath
but it always beats you by a step,
all right now

making the best of it
playing the cards you get
you're not alone in this

there's hope for the hopeless
hope for the hopeless
there's hope

cold in a summer breeze
yeah, you're shivering
on your bended knee
still, though your heart is sore
and the heavens pour
like a willow bending with the storm,
you'll make it

running against the wind
playing the cards you get
something is bound to give

there's hope for the hopeless
hope for the hopeless
there's hope

there's hope for the hopeless
hope for the hopeless
there's hope

My old time favourite song
Used to listen to this all the time when you throw me away into the deepest hell
Now, its your turn
There's always a hope for the hopeless
Be tough there big guy!

I love the way you lie

2010-07-28T02:31:00.002+08:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts

semoga hati ini tak akan berubah dan masih begitu
walaupun sedalamnya hanya Dia yang maha mengetahui
Dear Kai, stay the way you are now! MUST MUST MUST!

Chasing cars

2010-07-28T00:27:00.001+08:00

Setelah sekian lama
Ia berkumandang lagi
Be strong!

When Mr.Karma hit you back

2010-07-26T19:45:00.009+08:00

As much as I want to scream "PADAN MUKA KAW! WHAT YOU GIVE YOU GET BACK!", out loud in front of you, I still care for you tho. So, be strong dude!

Dear God, thanks for the sweet revenge.

What goes around comes around.

Penantian aku selama setahun sebelas bulan enam belas hari dah berakhir. Aku PUAS.

Sepatutnya aku gembira. Tapi kenapa tidak?

And now I want nothing but your happiness. And I mean it. That's all.

For whatever said and done, I'm truly sorry

2010-07-09T01:20:00.005+08:00

Disaat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang..
ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkannya

Disaat kamu mulai tidak mencintainya...
ingatlah saat pertama kamu jatuh cinta padanya

Disaat kamu mulai bosan dengannya...
ingatlah selalu saat terindah bersamanya

Disaat kamu ingin menduakannya...
bayangkan jika dia selalu setia

Saat kamu ingin membohonginya...
ingatlah disaat dia jujur padamu

Maka kamu akan merasakan arti dia untukmu
Jangan sampai disaat dia sudah tidak disisimu,
Kamu baru menyadari semua arti dirinya untukmu

Yang indah hanya sementara
Yang abadi adalah kenangan
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari

Tidak mudah mencari yang hilang
Tidak mudah mengejar impian
Namun yg lebih susah mempertahankan yg ada

Karena walaupun tergenggam bisa terlepas juga
Ingatlah pada pepatah,
"Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"

Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif
Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun, begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas
Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..

Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi
Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki
Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan
Apalagi yang mau disombongkan

Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani
Jangan terlalu perhitungan
Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri
Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita

Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih
Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah
Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa

Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan
Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus

Found it here
Very inspiring. And it suits me well, describing my fucking miserable life and the decision I've made.
Despite the laughs and smiles, I actually managed to hide it well kan?
I'm so sorry
ILYSM

haa cukup emo tak?

2010-07-07T01:19:00.002+08:00

Saya ni bukannya ANAK ORANG KAYA cam korang. Bukan jugak kais subuh makan subuh kais supper makan supper. Pun bukan jugak kais pagi makan berhari2. Saya ni yang sedang2 saja. Apa saya dapat duit daripada encik MARA itulah saya guna sebulan. Tak mintak dah duit mak bapak saya. Mintak tolong bayarkan sewa bilik yang mahal gedabak tu ja. kalaw ada rezeki lebih adalah serat dua saya dapat bonus tengah bulan. Tu pun ingat cukupkah nak berfoya2 macam korang?Jadi tak payahlah nak cakap eh kau ni ajak pi sini tanak pi sana tanak kedekut lah kaw.

Saya bukan kedekut. *kadang2lah*. Kalaw saya ada BANYAKKKK duit yang boleh sepah2 terbang2 cam korang tu ingat saya tolak ka nak p berjoli segala? Ingat saya tanak belanja kawan2 sayakah? Saya berjimat cermat membawa berkat. Kesian kat mak bapak saya. Walaupun saya bukan anak yang baik tapi saya masih ada hati perut. Mak saya keja duk dalam aircond tapi kerja tak pandai siap2. Kadang2 saya cuti sekejap kat umah pun mak saya outstation carik duit. Baba saya? Jangan ceritalah. Dah cukup banyak peluh kudrat semua keluar semata2 nak cari duit bagi kat saya ngan adik saya. Tahan ja hati ni tengok sebab ego tanak tunjuk rasa menghargai tu.

Saya bukan lahir2 ja terus menggelongsor atas katil emas cam korang. Ok itu hiperbola. Saya biasa ja. Saya pun ada banyak impian. Nak keliling Europe, nak shopping sampai muntah darah, tak payah nak pikir berjuta kali bila nak beli barang, sekali tengok terus ngap ja amek, tukar hp dua belas kali setahun. Wishlist saya tak pernahlah nak bergerak2. Kalaw setahun ada dua belas maybe dua tiga yang termakbul. Tapi ada saya mintak duit korang? Takda kan? Jadi tak payahlah nak menyombong cam babi depan saya. Apa mahal sangat ka senyum anak orang kaya? Kita ni sama ja semua. Kat padang masyar nanti semua bertelanjang. Tak ada yang pakai Gucci, Pull n Bear, Jimmy Choo atau yang sewaktu dengannya. Tuhan tak pandang pun korang. Jadi tak payahlah nak tengok saya ni macam ahmoi tepi jalan jual sayur.

Tapi saya happy. Biar saya hidup sederhana, ramai orang sayang kat saya.*maybe*. Keluarga saya penuh dengan kasih sayang. Amin Insya Allah. Jadi tak payahlah nak menyombong cam haram kat saya. Because you know what, poket saya mungkin rabak sikit dari korang, tapi hati saya penuh dengan kasih sayang keluarga saya :). Get it, loser? :))

England vs Slovenia

2010-06-23T23:00:00.004+08:00

Because I love eight so much, and I'm bored to death while accompanying my jelloidbee watching WC,*though it's my fav team but im too WOOOOO goalllll! tiba2 pulak goal masa tengah menaip ni. 2-0 baby*. eh termerapu sekejap. Err what was I supposed to write? Lupa dah. shisshh.

Ohh. sepatutnya aku nak tulis 8 random things bout me. Tapi lepas terkejut dengar orang2 kat rafi ni bersorak terus amnesia jap. Haish. Will update later. Haha. Bangang giler. Sangat random.

*update*

1- I can never get along with any vegetables in my char or fried mee. Especially BEAN SPROUTS!

2- ADAM LAMBERT DIE-HARD-FAN!!! wah terlebih sudah. hehe.

3- Introvert

4- A carb lover. Kalaw diberi pilihan nasi+ikan bilis and pizza, haram sebelah mata xpandang pizza tu.

5- Used to be purple freak. But now any colors can do.

6- Always, always & always fall for the wrong guy eg. my best friend. Macam babi. Dari dulu lagi. Haih :'(

7- Berazam nak diet, tapi azam tinggal azam. Harapanlah. Bila dah start makan nasi walau sesuap, memang susah nak tinggal dah. Tu la pasal bila diet tak makan nasi langsung walaupun oranag lain suruh makan gak sikit. Sebabnya for sure takkan stop punya.

8- I cursed a lot. And seriously, I can't get rid of it. It's like a therapy for me.
:)

DONE! zzzz ngantok. babaii

Bila Cinta

2010-06-23T16:49:00.003+08:00

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Yang ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi
Tinggalkanku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Ternyata memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan...
Dalam harapan

There's so many ways to love you part 2

2010-06-21T03:21:00.002+08:00

You make my life worth living

Even just for a while

cause I can't sleep and having my pms right now dayymm

2010-06-19T03:17:00.003+08:00

1. adakah anda rasa anda hot?

yes mbahaha

2. update wallpaper laptop yang anda gunakan sekarang?
tengah guna laptop byan skarang.

3. cerita pasal gambar ni
zzz

4. kali terakhir makan pizza
before cuti

5. lagu terakhir yang anda dengar
hurricane - 30stm

6. Apa anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
menyelesaikan tag ni

7. Selain nama sendiri,anda dipanggil dengan nama apa?
kakai, kai, nisa, echa, bla3

8. Tag 5 orang,siapa yang nak kena tag?
- farah
- byaniesa
- faris
- nanad
- elya

9. Siapa orang no 1 pada anda?
bestfriend sayaaa!

10. Katakan sesuatu pada orang no 5
elyajolie!

11. No 3 ada hubungan dengan siapa?
aa wallahualam.ramai sangat :D

12. Bagaimana pula dengan no 2?
gn sesama sendiri

13. Kata-kata cinta pada orang no 4
loveee you porebehh buddy!

14. Berikan 5 fakta tentang orang yang anda tag
farah - c supermodel. pantang nampak ayam. teman gosip paling best!

byaniesa - tak boleh dipisahkan. tgk nama pun sama

faris - stalker paling berjaya abad ni. bilalah laptop saya nak siap niii :P

nanad - the one I trust my life with :)

elya - sexayy lady! jolie malaysia!

kumbawo myza :)

I

2010-06-19T02:36:00.002+08:00

I gotta stick to it. Or else I will lose you. No matter how much it hurts to pretend, I'll do it. For I can't bear the pain of losing you anymore. Even though there's only a tiny part of me in your life.

12 months

2010-05-22T22:36:00.002+08:00

Despite your:

-muka ketat

-pemanas

-kuat tidoq

-merokok tak ingat dunia

-obses gn memasak2 nih

-tak romantik langsung

-kadang2 hati kering

-cakap nak ganas ja

-tanak masak untuk saya sem ni

-married gn loq kat fb

I still love you so much.

Happy 1st anniversary sayang :)

I love you so much. I'll be missing you a lot! Isk :'(

Baliklah cepattt!

Happykah saya?

2010-05-14T01:47:00.002+08:00

Happy! Sebab dapat lepas target and lulus semua.

Happy! Sebab cgpa naek and that motivates me a lot.

Happy! For making my family proud and happy with my result yang tak seberapa ni.*omg belum gtaw nenek!*

Happy! Sebab saya happylah!

On the other side...

Tak happy sangat..sebab tak capai target. I know I can give more, but at least He answer my prayer.:)

Tak happy sangat, sebab my next semester is going to be a lot tougher than before.

Tak happy sangat, cause there are a lot more who's better than me, and I know I can do better than them.

Tak happy sangat, cause I still need a MIRACLE to marked up my cgpa so that I can further on my MBBS and it's gonna be real hard and stressful future ahead.

Tak happy sangat, sebab harini saya bad mood dengan berulang kalinya hahaha.

Anywayyy congrates semua!

dendam

2010-05-11T11:36:00.003+08:00

saya ni bukan pendendam

jarang betul saya berdendam dengan orang

paling2 pun saya menyampah/benci/meluat ja

tapi sekali saya SAKIT

SAMPAI MATI SAYA SIMPAN DENDAM. INGAT.

Another gloomy night

2010-04-30T06:51:00.003+08:00

I cried for some bullshit reason

And nobody knows why, including me

Life is so effing unfair

My wish

2010-04-29T01:59:00.003+08:00

Kalaw aku diberi peluang untuk buat something yang betul2 gila dan memalukan

aku nak buat satu benda ja

I WANNA SLAP THAT WHORE/SLUT/BITCH AND MY-EX RIGHT IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY AND SPIT HER ASS!

wow.that's harsh Kai.

=.= who cares? I'm harsh and evil. That's the reason why he left me dulu kan?

ahh I'm loving it.

Hectic

2010-04-27T09:59:00.002+08:00

It has been a very very super duper hectic life here. The toughest semester so far. Padahal tak ada apa pun, saja menyibukkan diri dan membuatkan diri macam busy. Hahaha. Ada dinner, pindah kampus baru, mid sem *nasib baik tunda*, etc. Phew. I am mentally and physically exhausted. Kalaw boleh buat status analyzer kat fb tu, rasanya perkataan paling banyak kali aku pakai kat status is 'exhausted'. Serious boleh gila kalaw tak pandai kawal diri and emosi. Dah ter-emo dah haritu. Hehehe. Sorry guys.

Nothing much to say, as I have lots and lots to be done now. Cuma nak highlight dua benda ni.

Berkat

I know many of us are not satisfied with MSU. Me too. Grr. But that does not give you credits to kutuk MSU or the lecturers macam kaw tengah kutuk anak anjing kurap. Aku pun pernah kutuk2 lecturer. Err, okay, bukan pernah. It's a past tense. Masih lagi mengutuk lecturer. Tapi tak payahlah sampai nak memaki, biadap or yang sama waktu dengannya. Kalaw orang2 tanya kat aku suka tak dengan MSU ni, of course I would say no. But you are a part of this university. I don't blame the students kalaw ketidakpuasan hati tu ada. But please, if you want to gain some respects, then you have to respect people first. Especially those yang mengajar kita. Tak berkat nanti macam mana? Kaw ingat kaw pandai tu belajar sendiri? Gifted? Kalaw gifted pun tapi nobody's there to guide us, you are nobody. Learn some respect people, it's for your own good. Doesn't mean that the lecturers/teachers semua betul. Dua2 pun ada salah. But why don't instead of maki2 them kita sama2 improvekan diri kita? Bincang betul2? Bukan memaki2 macam itu. Aku yang kaki memaki dan mempunyai kadar pemakian yang agak tinggi dalam seminit ni pun jadi takut bila tengok fenomena ni semakin menjadi2 lately ni. Bukan nak backing or jadi tali barut siapa2. Just want us to be more mature and think wisely. Cheers? :)

2. Kawan

Ni lagi satu. Nak marah tak boleh. Nak gelak pun dah tak larat. Sudahnya jadi pemerhati and pakar motivasi apa yang patut. Senang cerita camni la eh. Sudah2lah bergaduh tu. Kalah2 perang dunia kedua. Hehehe. Turunkan ego masing2. Tak bawak ke mana semua tu. Jangan letak dalam minda kita ni yang berkawan berdua je. Pernah dengar ke, 'berkawan biar satu, bercinta biar beribu?' Tak kan? Semua kata berkawan biar beribu bercinta biar satu. Kita bukan hak milik siapa2. Hak Tuhan. Hidup hanya pinjaman, dah mati kita pulang balik kat tanah. There is no such thing as 'you are my bestfriend, you can't be friend with others/tak boleh rapat dengan orang lain. Kalaw tak aku perli kaw cukup2'. For God's sake, pleaseeeeee tukar sikit mind set tu. And don't avoid your problems! Siapa yang pandai2 cakap avoid masalah lagi baik? Kepala hangguk dia! Kalaw avoid sekejap takpa, yala maybe nak bagi cool down and all that. Tapi kalaw lama? Makin lama kita biarkan masalah ni berlarutan, makin banyak masalah yang timbul. Akhirnya? Orang tak marah dengan punca first yang buat gaduh, tapi marah dengan apa yang terjadi lepas tu. Fikirlah baik2 kawan2ku sayang. :)

I'm not a saint, I'm not an angel. People make mistakes and so do I. I'm just giving my opinion based on the current situation revolves around me. Maaf kalaw ada yang terasa atau aku ada terkasar bahasa okay? Have a good day! :)

Short hols

2010-04-05T02:40:00.011+08:00

Cuti yang sangat membosankan. Sangat menyesal tak balik Tawau T.T

Rasanya separuh dari cuti ni aku habiskan dengan tidur. Ganti balik semua yang tak terganti. Ceh macam hari biasa tak tidur berjam2.Ngee~

Nothing much, online, FB, blog walking, sleep, eat, gaining weight instead of losing some hehe.

Nasib baik mummy Janet datang. I miss you mummy!

Yang lawaknya, our new daddy is my ex-schoolmate masa sekolah rendah!

Punyala syok dia describe pasal konon sorang studentlah nama Khairunnisa.

And fyi masa tu ada 4 orang nama Khairunnisa dalam kelas aku.

Rupanya orang yang dia describe tu aku, sebab aku sorang je yang lulus PTS.

Patutlah muka familiar gila. Hahaha. Sott.

The old friend beside me, with the girls.

Then we went for a movie, Daybreaker with the girls on Sunday, rasanyalah. See hari pun dah lupa.

Sumpah tak nak tengok lagi. Thirah la punya pasal!

Nasib baik Ethan Hawke yang berlakon. And the cute Michael Dorman!

Mata dia sangat bulat & cantik :)

G.D.O :)

Then the day before mummy went to Pahang we had dinner together at a steamboat restaurant.

RM20 all-you-can-eat

But have to pay RM5/100 gram for any leftovers.

Gila bloated habislah. Dahlah aku tak makan steamboat sangat. Nasib baik sedap gak.

And first time tengok udang pelik. Tapi tak sedap.

Udang Tawau jugak terbaik!

Paling sedap aiskrim honeydew. Yummy! Menyesal tak makan banyak2 :'(

Pelik. Eeeuuww.

The foods.

Yummy! You save my day!

Love

Them.

Next, went shopping with Farah meow *aigoo every Farah pun Farah meow.lol*

Dia tak pernah naik KTM, LRT or yang sama waktu dengannya.

So agak funny jugaklah bila melihat beliau terpinga-pinga and buat jalan sendiri kat stesen tu.haha!

And shopping kat SW pun tak pernah. TS pernahlah kot.

So I brought her there last Friday and guess what?

Instead of 1-2 things for RM100++ kalau kat Sunway, dia dapat 6 barang!ngee~

clap clap clap!

Me too! Hee~ Sangat berbangga kerana berbelanja kurang dari bajet.

So here's what I bought

Floral jacket - RM10

Long top - RM 15

Heart dress/top/wtv you called it - RM10

Spectacle frame*is it?sebab tak ada cermin* - RM10

Clincher - RM10

Syg's shirt - RM19.90

Sandal - RM 39.90

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Total : RM114.80!

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Plus

Lunch - RM10

Misc *tickets, drinks, etc* - RM12.20

Dinner - RM7

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Total : RM114.80 + RM29.20 = RM RM144.00

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Yeay! Berbaloi-baloi.

Okay minggu ni jangan ada siapa2 ajak p makan luar.

Makan maggi je kat umah. Berjimat punya pasal.

Muahahaha.

Me & meow :)

Suka cermin mata ini!

Then semalam masa tengah blog walking, terjumpa satu blog ni. Dia jual floral jacket yang aku beli RM10 tu dengan harga RM50! Lucky me!

*bought it for RM10 only!*

So that's how I spent my holiday, wisely. * I guess*

Hee. Ohh. Holiday is over.

So, hello short sem!