Another gloomy night

I cried for some bullshit reason

And nobody knows why, including me

Life is so effing unfair

My wish

Kalaw aku diberi peluang untuk buat something yang betul2 gila dan memalukan

aku nak buat satu benda ja

I WANNA SLAP THAT WHORE/SLUT/BITCH AND MY-EX RIGHT IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY AND SPIT HER ASS!

wow.that's harsh Kai.

=.= who cares? I'm harsh and evil. That's the reason why he left me dulu kan?

:)

ahh I'm loving it.

Hectic

It has been a very very super duper hectic life here. The toughest semester so far. Padahal tak ada apa pun, saja menyibukkan diri dan membuatkan diri macam busy. Hahaha. Ada dinner, pindah kampus baru, mid sem *nasib baik tunda*, etc. Phew. I am mentally and physically exhausted. Kalaw boleh buat status analyzer kat fb tu, rasanya perkataan paling banyak kali aku pakai kat status is 'exhausted'. Serious boleh gila kalaw tak pandai kawal diri and emosi. Dah ter-emo dah haritu. Hehehe. Sorry guys.

Nothing much to say, as I have lots and lots to be done now. Cuma nak highlight dua benda ni.

1. Berkat

I know many of us are not satisfied with MSU. Me too. Grr. But that does not give you credits to kutuk MSU or the lecturers macam kaw tengah kutuk anak anjing kurap. Aku pun pernah kutuk2 lecturer. Err, okay, bukan pernah. It's a past tense. Masih lagi mengutuk lecturer. Tapi tak payahlah sampai nak memaki, biadap or yang sama waktu dengannya. Kalaw orang2 tanya kat aku suka tak dengan MSU ni, of course I would say no. But you are a part of this university. I don't blame the students kalaw ketidakpuasan hati tu ada. But please, if you want to gain some respects, then you have to respect people first. Especially those yang mengajar kita. Tak berkat nanti macam mana? Kaw ingat kaw pandai tu belajar sendiri? Gifted? Kalaw gifted pun tapi nobody's there to guide us, you are nobody. Learn some respect people, it's for your own good. Doesn't mean that the lecturers/teachers semua betul. Dua2 pun ada salah. But why don't instead of maki2 them kita sama2 improvekan diri kita? Bincang betul2? Bukan memaki2 macam itu. Aku yang kaki memaki dan mempunyai kadar pemakian yang agak tinggi dalam seminit ni pun jadi takut bila tengok fenomena ni semakin menjadi2 lately ni. Bukan nak backing or jadi tali barut siapa2. Just want us to be more mature and think wisely. Cheers? :)

2. Kawan

Ni lagi satu. Nak marah tak boleh. Nak gelak pun dah tak larat. Sudahnya jadi pemerhati and pakar motivasi apa yang patut. Senang cerita camni la eh. Sudah2lah bergaduh tu. Kalah2 perang dunia kedua. Hehehe. Turunkan ego masing2. Tak bawak ke mana semua tu. Jangan letak dalam minda kita ni yang berkawan berdua je. Pernah dengar ke, 'berkawan biar satu, bercinta biar beribu?' Tak kan? Semua kata berkawan biar beribu bercinta biar satu. Kita bukan hak milik siapa2. Hak Tuhan. Hidup hanya pinjaman, dah mati kita pulang balik kat tanah. There is no such thing as 'you are my bestfriend, you can't be friend with others/tak boleh rapat dengan orang lain. Kalaw tak aku perli kaw cukup2'. For God's sake, pleaseeeeee tukar sikit mind set tu. And don't avoid your problems! Siapa yang pandai2 cakap avoid masalah lagi baik? Kepala hangguk dia! Kalaw avoid sekejap takpa, yala maybe nak bagi cool down and all that. Tapi kalaw lama? Makin lama kita biarkan masalah ni berlarutan, makin banyak masalah yang timbul. Akhirnya? Orang tak marah dengan punca first yang buat gaduh, tapi marah dengan apa yang terjadi lepas tu. Fikirlah baik2 kawan2ku sayang. :)

I'm not a saint, I'm not an angel. People make mistakes and so do I. I'm just giving my opinion based on the current situation revolves around me. Maaf kalaw ada yang terasa atau aku ada terkasar bahasa okay? Have a good day! :)

Short hols

Cuti yang sangat membosankan. Sangat menyesal tak balik Tawau T.T

Rasanya separuh dari cuti ni aku habiskan dengan tidur. Ganti balik semua yang tak terganti. Ceh macam hari biasa tak tidur berjam2.Ngee~

Nothing much, online, FB, blog walking, sleep, eat, gaining weight instead of losing some hehe.

Nasib baik mummy Janet datang. I miss you mummy!

Yang lawaknya, our new daddy is my ex-schoolmate masa sekolah rendah!

Punyala syok dia describe pasal konon sorang studentlah nama Khairunnisa.

And fyi masa tu ada 4 orang nama Khairunnisa dalam kelas aku.

Rupanya orang yang dia describe tu aku, sebab aku sorang je yang lulus PTS.

Patutlah muka familiar gila. Hahaha. Sott.

The old friend beside me, with the girls.

Then we went for a movie, Daybreaker with the girls on Sunday, rasanyalah. See hari pun dah lupa.

Sumpah tak nak tengok lagi. Thirah la punya pasal!

Nasib baik Ethan Hawke yang berlakon. And the cute Michael Dorman!

Mata dia sangat bulat & cantik :)

G.D.O :)

Then the day before mummy went to Pahang we had dinner together at a steamboat restaurant.

RM20 all-you-can-eat

But have to pay RM5/100 gram for any leftovers.

Gila bloated habislah. Dahlah aku tak makan steamboat sangat. Nasib baik sedap gak.

And first time tengok udang pelik. Tapi tak sedap.

Udang Tawau jugak terbaik!

Paling sedap aiskrim honeydew. Yummy! Menyesal tak makan banyak2 :'(

Pelik. Eeeuuww.

The foods.

Yummy! You save my day!

Love

Them.

Next, went shopping with Farah meow *aigoo every Farah pun Farah meow.lol*

Dia tak pernah naik KTM, LRT or yang sama waktu dengannya.

So agak funny jugaklah bila melihat beliau terpinga-pinga and buat jalan sendiri kat stesen tu.haha!

And shopping kat SW pun tak pernah. TS pernahlah kot.

So I brought her there last Friday and guess what?

Instead of 1-2 things for RM100++ kalau kat Sunway, dia dapat 6 barang!ngee~

clap clap clap!

Me too! Hee~ Sangat berbangga kerana berbelanja kurang dari bajet.

So here's what I bought

Floral jacket - RM10

Long top - RM 15

Heart dress/top/wtv you called it - RM10

Spectacle frame*is it?sebab tak ada cermin* - RM10

Clincher - RM10

Syg's shirt - RM19.90

Sandal - RM 39.90

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Total : RM114.80!

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Plus

Lunch - RM10

Misc *tickets, drinks, etc* - RM12.20

Dinner - RM7

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Total : RM114.80 + RM29.20 = RM RM144.00

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Yeay! Berbaloi-baloi.

Okay minggu ni jangan ada siapa2 ajak p makan luar.

Makan maggi je kat umah. Berjimat punya pasal.

Muahahaha.

Me & meow :)

Suka cermin mata ini!

Then semalam masa tengah blog walking, terjumpa satu blog ni. Dia jual floral jacket yang aku beli RM10 tu dengan harga RM50! Lucky me!

*bought it for RM10 only!*

So that's how I spent my holiday, wisely. * I guess*

Hee. Ohh. Holiday is over.

So, hello short sem!

takut

tiba-tiba takut.

kenapa ramai sangat orang mati ni?

kenapa aku pun rasa macam x lama lagi nak mati?

macam nak menangis pun ada.

banyak sangat dosa aku lagi.

tak cukup lagi bekal nak bawak mati.

kenapa ni?kenapa tiba2?

tiba2 mati eksiden ke or anything.

kenapa?

kenapa?

kenapa?

i wanna cry :'(

i wanna go home:'(

is it just homesick+emo or is it fated that it's almost time?

nauzubillah.

astaghfirullahalazim.

:'(:'(:'(

kalaw bukan diriku,peliharalah keluargaku dulu.

amin.

All the right friends in all the right places

The title has nothing to do with the post. Just sooo into this song auww!

Well I've just finished my 4th semester as a BMSians. To be exact, 6 days ago. And now I'm enjoying my holiday to the max. Ganti tidur sebanyak yang mungkin, ganti makan yang tak cukup and all. Great. Can't wait to gain weight. *sarcasm much*. Tak ada idea sebenarnya nak update tapi mata degil sangat tak nak tutup. If you hate reading too much crap than skip this blog. It's not worth it. Haha. Funny.NOT.

Ok forget it. I have no idea. Off to bed. Babai!